it hurts...

i have dr appt on monday. she said some really hurtful things to me and i hate her for saying that. Since then everyday , every minute is a living hell. i haven't hurt so much in the long time. I cry several time a day whenever i hear sad music or think about it. my family doesn't understand me too.

i wish i could just end myself. Overdose can't kill me. Going to A&E is going back to see the same doctor in the psych ward. I hate her. I don't know what to do anymore, except pretending it's all fine to outside. I am 23 yr old, a uni student who doesn't go to class coz i am bloodly depressed and am not motivated. My doctor gave me anti-anxiety med coz I can't handle anti-depressant which makes me high immediately. Then she questioned me about why i don't go to class or why I am not motivated.

It hurts alot. I can't bear it anymore. I can't pretend it's ok anymore.

Hi OP. It's nice to meet you.I'm sorry you are going through all this. I hope you are not serious about the rope. Things will get better with time. PC is here for you. If you really feel bad the call the sui**de hot line. Don't pretend everything is ok. Get the help you need.

A couple of years ago I had a good relationship with my T, but he retired and I couldn't
see him any more. The clinic suggested another T. That didn't turn out so well. He said "so what can I help you with?" I was so pissed I walked out. He had my file. Doesn't he know what is going on with me. Oh well. I will keep searching for the right Therapist.

I hope you start feeling better soon. PM me if you like. I will do my best to be a shoulder to lean on, an ear to listen, ect....

Sincerely,

Piraeus

Hello optimistic_dolphin: Not every person gets along with every doctor or every therapist. From what you wrote, it sounds as though the doctor you're seeing presently has, perhaps, been overly aggressive with you. So I wonder about the possibility of your changing doctors. I know I have had this happen to me. I recall seeing one therapist who treated me like I was some kind of sexual predator because I told him I struggled with Gender Identity Disorder. I never went back to see him again.

When we go to see a doctor or a therapist, we're paying them & so, in a sense, we're their employers while we see them. We may not be able to make them do what we want. But we shouldn't have to put up with them mistreating us either.

Things are clearly not going well for you at the moment. But do try to keep in mind that, at 23 years of age, you have many years ahead of you. And things can & will get better. You just have to hang in there & find the right doctors & therapists... Please keep fighting...

Dolphin - you have a lovely username.

You are in Hong Kong so we do not know your options in terms of the ability to choose another dr. E.g. changing dr's in the US is much easier than in Canada and UK, but we do not know about Hong Kong. Can you tell us what your options are?

I changed psychiatrist. Had him for years, and I was fine with him, however my wife said all along he was't helping. Turned out she was so very right. My female psychiatrist knew much better what was wrong with me, and how to treat it. I did have to spend about 14 days in a hospital to be monitored, and given medicine. My life changed for the better. I was so manic before.

I wish I could afford a psychiatrist right now I really need someone to talk to

Hi, I am Janelle
It's been a long time I feel this bad and hurt. I wish I don't have to be serious. Sometimes I wish I have a car. - not dying with broken bones or horrified face or etc. I am stuck with this dr. It's govt one, so we dun have a choice as to whom we see. I have borderline PD, so her words burns like fire or stab with the most brutal force. I am really upset yet no one can understand here. I see a school counselor who is also a CP, but she seems so clueless about everything. (I have seen her twice as of now)

Things happening after the dr just adds on. It seems like everyone hates me or something had to go wrong with me. I cry and cut at night. I guess I have to go inpatient or I will really hurt myself in some way.

I don't have a choice for which dr i see. It's a govt clinic. Yes, in some way, we pay them, in taxes, but reality is we as patient cannot choose our dr.
being 23 is like the end of the world, for me as a girl. I hate getting older and older. my dr is always saying like 'for so many years since I started seeing you, you have been circling round and round. When are you going to get out?' Yea, like getting out is a choice I stupidly don't make. Thanks for not understanding, dr. I have been seeing her for 5-6 years. Either she is hopeless in helping me or I am the hopeless case

I don't have option basically. I am seeing govt dr. Govt dr is really cheap. If I see outside it's like 10-15 times the price, depending how popular the dr is and excluding the medication. I am only middle-class, so I don't need my parents paying for that. unless she retired, or advanced to a place she doesn't need to see patient, I have to continue to see her.

great to hear that. I can't change dr, unless she advances out of the outpatient clinic, which is like forever. I explained my situation in the earlier reply. HK is just diff. I have been in and out of hospital since 18. Life hasn't gotten better. It's still up and down all the time

hi
you can talk to me. It'd be lovely to talk to you, since I need someone to talk to too. msg me anytime