sick of mood swings

I didn't like lithium either. Some people swear by it. If it's not helping at all tell your pdoc. If it is helping even a little, stick with it at least until u get well enough to think about stopping. Prolly not the best advice but at least I practice what I preach

The past 24 hours it seems my moods were all over the map with bursts of extreme excitement and happiness beyond my norm. I even lost track of moments. This happens occasionally to me. I do some thing and do not remember doing it even after I see what I did. I guess it's a brief black out or some thing. I lost about 5 minutes earlier driving to work. I almost missed my exit and it's not like I was preoccupied in listening to music or thinking, it's like a fast forward in a film. Happened again at work. Right now, I feel ok. But like any moment I could be in a different spot or find some thing moved. Because you know, mood swings alone are just no fun lol.

Hi. Up till now i've been battling alone with Bipolar, and its greatly affected my life, not managed to get professional help and support in managing issues related with it. I feel like its really important i do see good therapist or life coach for me and a mental health support professional but im not taking medication.

I know what you mean. I can be such a relief when you first start taking lithium, like you said earlier it felt like a vacation! I felt the exact same way about a month ago coming down from a manic high. Then the numbness starts...and like some other people were saying you wonder if you'll ever just be normal. I don't think anyone really does understand except for us and it brought tears to my eyes to read these posts this morning. Sometimes I forget that I'm not alone in all of this. I stuff down a lot of the pain I feel and pretend it isn't there. I avoid people because they don't get it and am alone 95% of the time. I have just come to accept it. It is very difficult but I do still think there are parts of life that are very beautiful. My dog makes me happy, I love my morning coffee, and I stay busy on the computer. Some days are really hard but they will pass and I know that now. I didn't use to. Hang in there, it will get better. It might get worse first, but it will get better.