sick of mood swings

Sorry to be negative but im so sick
of it all
The mood swings non stop rhis year for some reason.never feeling normal
Medicine issues.always chasing feeling up and when im there its always turns bad
I cant get stable
Do u guys ever feel hopeless

I'm sorry your feeling so terrible. Remember Bipolar always cycles..

Welcome to PC you will find loads of support and understanding here

Don't apologise. Who wouldn't be fed up in your situation. Happened to me for a year because I was totally on the wrong meds and my old pdoc refused to work with me and kept shoving the same meds in my face when it clearly wasn't working. Yes, I felt completely hopeless when this went on and I eventually thought I'd never get better.

Well I'm with a new pdoc now who listens to me and I've had a revamp of meds. I'm okay for now. Not perfect. But ok.

Be well and know that things can change.

Yes, I have felt hopeless as no amount of treatment and meds seemed to pull me out of full blown Bipolar and PTSD. It took years to get me somewhat stable (I had about 5 clear episodes so far this year but normal in between and PTSD is much improved). Hang in there, Bipolar can be stabilized. Keep posting as much as you need. You are not alone.

Hopeless, helpless, useless, and a loser. Been there, done that more times then I can count. Reminds me of a Pink Floyd song, "Wish you were here"

"swimming around the same fish bowl, year after year, running over the same old grounds, the same old fears, wish you were here"

or some thing like that lol.

Me too I'm really fed up with mood swings. today was good until after supper. some of it has to do with medication but some of it as a lot to do with a discussion I need to have with someone. I think I really need to talk with a therapist to help me sort out some of the situation that makes my mood shift.

Yes sometimes I feel hopeless, it can last days or hours, all depends. Hang in there hope tomorrow is better.

Thank you all for helping me not feel so alone.
Its hard to talk to ppl around me because thy dont really get it
I know i try DO try to stay on the least amount of meds as possible and i think i may have to reconsider
That practice because im just not stable
Thank you all again for your replies!

A therapist is a great idea. Both psychiatrists i saw came up with the same treatment plan for me: meds and weekly visits to a therapist

Really does help. Talk about your symptoms, relationships, feelings, life, anything

Yup, had an appointment today and it helped..I had so much to say. Not certain I listened a lot but talk and talk...relief

We understand you!

I'm getting more paranoid again, moods, pretty close to baseline, but not sure if I'm coming or going sort to speak

We should keep this thread going because a lot of us get soooo sick of our mood swings!

It is sooo tiring.
I always wonder what its like in a "normal"
Brain. Much calmer i presume?

Same boat here.

I'm sick of them...and so is my poor wife. It's not fair when I go from feeling good and getting things done to a bear in the same conversation. I don't even realize I'm doing it I'm cycling so fast now. It really really sucks. I want off the roller coaster too. Or at least somebody put me on the kiddy coaster for a while.

I'm on the kiddie coaster for now

A few days after this post i ended up in the hospital for a week
week .annnd started on the one drug I've been refusing for years..LITHIUM! !
On a positive note it already seems to be working very well..i feel like my whole body and mind has been afforded a luxury vacation. No crazy high adventures crashing suddenly into dark caves.
Hoping it lasts and hoping the inner insight lasts so that in a few months i dont think im "cured" and stop taking it.
Hope all is well with everone!

Thats good that its working. I have the same thing regarding the 'cured' thing.What is that?Is it a bipolar thing?

xx

I take seroquel.it is stabilising, but I didnt take it for a month or so because it makes me sleepy and I wanted to stay up most the night , and I started to think I could 'get away with' not taking it and be fine. I drank loads of coffee, and then got very depressed and unstable and went back on it once my severe depression progressed to a depressive crisis as it always does

I also take huge amounts of propanalol. I take vitamin d when i remember and I am meant to be taking cod liver oil because it is very helpful to me, but I haven't taken it for ages.. Its one of those things which is easy not to take, because it's so unappetising.

I would like to feel happy. Don't we all.

I think it is common to feel cured or better and stop meds because you can convince yourself nothing is Wrong. It always leads me back to an episode
Im crossing my fingers on the lithium but in the back of my head a small voice is wondering how long do i need to take this stuff

My problem is I don't want to be over med, or zombie like. I hate my mood swings but I hate being a zombie even more. It does get to me some times. Some times I just want to give up completely. Everyone has mood swings, it's natural. The difference is ours knows no boundaries and often come and go for no logic reason. Most people don't get it for that reason. They think we are just weak. I know I am not weak. It takes a lot of strength and courage to fight a never ending battle. I'm sure my condition will eventually be the cause of my death. In either pole, depressed or manic. Or even some where in between. What hurts me most is when I go off on my kids and family. It tears me apart. I feel guilt, shame and sorry. I do not feel worthy many times. I would like to see some of these people that simply don't understand us walk in our shoes for even just one year. I wonder how they would do?

My biggest fear is I will snap beyond repair. Yet I keep on going.

So is it normal to continue to cycle even though your on meds?

I'm on Seroquel 600mgs and my symptoms have improved. The massive depression and the angry, explosive highs seem to have leveled off. Along with the psychotic states at either end (thank god). But I still cycle through some pretty significant mood swings, which I could do without.

An acquaintance told me that no medication would completely mask the symptoms so I haven't made a big deal about it to my doc.

I also feel like questioning the improvement would cause the universe to think me ungrateful and deal with me accordingly. lol

I feel hopeless sometimes too. I get frustrated with all the cycling and also the med adjustments. I just want to be stable, too, and just want to find the right meds to get me that way. It's really hard. I feel for you.

It's gonna be different for everyone. There is no question meds help, but they are not a cure. At best, they can make you feel stable for as long as u stay on them or until they seem to stop working. Also common for many meds reduces the severity of swings, and for some make them worse. So you should always question. The more you ask, the more you learn. Keep a log, you may or may not see patterns. We all have our own baseline too, that's our average or the best we can hope for. Everyone's baseline is different too! Mine is pretty close to normal, but still a little off. Some one else may appear to be bat **** crazy but that could be their baseline. Almost forgot I been tracking myself for years and noticed my baseline changes. Cheers!

sorry to hear your pain. Know exactly what you're saying. Hope it becomes better soon.

I have to be honest this lithium is makibg me feel numb.im forcing myself to stay on it a little while because i have been unstable so long and havent been able to stay out of the hospital much this year...but long term? ? I cant do it