[theSI]

Hey, I'm still fairly new to this site but man I need to vent. My mood swings are getting so bad these days..i made a post yesterday detailing my depression issues. Today I went through a roller coaster of up and down moments. I went to a job fair with my brother in law this morning and it was a great experience, very motivating he's a 10 year army vet one of the smartest and charismatic men I know. Afterwards the negative thoughts started slipping in...the how much i dont measure up feelings resurfaced and the feel good mood slowly but surely dissipated. It was the worst feeling in the world, i met up with my wife after she got off work at Wal-Mart and I masked my emotions like it meant life or death because i didnt want her to feel like she was the reaso. I felt the way i did. Even after all that we still ended up having a little spat when we got home because she made a comment about how i didnt help clean up when i swept the floor pi picked up toys and was cooking dinner for our three children as we're having this exchange. The crazy thing is i'm the one that asked how she was doing lol. Man all i can do now is sip this brew and live in the awkwardness smh fml

[CHIM3RA2006]

Hi theSI,

Sorry you are having such a rough time. It is easy to feel like we are taken for granted or that our deeds are overlooked. Hope things are looking up for you soon.

[Crazy Hitch]

Hi Si

Nice to hear from you, although I am sorry for the circumstances for your post.

It sure can be tough when we're up and down, especially when it happens regularly.

Sorry but I don't know the specifics of your bp diagnosis so I was just wondering if you're a rapid cycler or if you've ever been told that you have mixed episodes? Don't worry, I'm not trying to diagnose you by any means, I'm just wondering if you've ever been told this and whether or not you've been through such rapid fluctuations before.

When do you see your pdoc again?

[Justugh]

hey man

i call that a case of the why mes .........where when u compare self to others never measure up (grass is greener on the other side of the fence type of thing)

so far i have not figure out any fool proof way of killing them when it starts but some stuff that alters it is
Kids or animals ........u go and play with them just distract self from the thinking and live in the now (can not be mad or sad with a laugh coming out) kids and animals are great for that

as for your wife going off she could of been blowing off steam about something else u are not aware of and with the way u are thinking it came off worst in your mind then it was ment to be

ummmmm.....u can try a mini vacation with your wife ( just a over night trip to something u guys enjoy ) kids stay with grandparents or a family u watch their kids when they need a break ............something like that will go a long way to destressing yah and getting head back in the game plus make the wife happy (happy wife happy life)..........the getaway would run yah about 400/500 bucks with a good hotel room for the night (nice bed and good bathroom) plus a dinner out and a show (just rem to bring home some nick nack for the kiddies and u are golden)

[theSI]

Originally Posted by Hooligan

Hi Si

Nice to hear from you, although I am sorry for the circumstances for your post.

It sure can be tough when we're up and down, especially when it happens regularly.

Sorry but I don't know the specifics of your bp diagnosis so I was just wondering if you're a rapid cycler or if you've ever been told that you have mixed episodes? Don't worry, I'm not trying to diagnose you by any means, I'm just wondering if you've ever been told this and whether or not you've been through such rapid fluctuations before.

When do you see your pdoc again?

Thanks for taking the time to read, I know no one here has to so all views and replies are greatly appreciated whether they're critical or not.

To answer your questions I've only been treated for depression although I've been told I match the criteria of bi-polar disorder due to the nature of my mood swings by doctors so I can't really give you the professional answer but in my experiences I would say both you know?

Everyday it's like I'm a swinging pendulum going from happy go lucky to miserable, and sometimes from miserable to just a neutral feeling.

My wife is a psychologist major that's what's so ironic but I haven't seen a doctor or anyone in quite some time now because of my lack of insurance and funds to afford treatment. I take others anxiety meds every once in awhile when I'm going out and I know I'm feeling crappy but that's why I've chosen to take the initiative and join this site because I'm tired of feeling like the dark cloud hovering over my loved ones.

[theSI]

You're so right man it's crazy because it's not like I don't know but the emotions can become so overwhelming...but like you said I have to do a better job of living in the now and keeping my mind off of it. Things have just been so hard for me and my family lately though my dad lives in my home because he has nowhere to go and we're living with my wifes mom because she just had hip and foot surgery 3 weeks apart my own mother is struggling real bad with my 8year old sister and her husband isn't getting enough hours to keep them afloat they're selling everything out of their house...

The stress comes in full effect because I'm the oldest out of 5 (2sisters 2stepsisters) and I've always been helpful and reliable but i feel worthless when my family needs me the most. My car is gone 3rd one this year (what a hell of a story that is) been laid off for 3months only bright spot is that I'm in school right now but with me being 25 I'm in a 4year program and I'm starting to feel the pressure don't get me wrong I'm used to responsibility but so much rests on my shoulders and I feel like I'm failing everyone...

Originally Posted by Justugh

hey man

i call that a case of the why mes .........where when u compare self to others never measure up (grass is greener on the other side of the fence type of thing)

so far i have not figure out any fool proof way of killing them when it starts but some stuff that alters it is
Kids or animals ........u go and play with them just distract self from the thinking and live in the now (can not be mad or sad with a laugh coming out) kids and animals are great for that

as for your wife going off she could of been blowing off steam about something else u are not aware of and with the way u are thinking it came off worst in your mind then it was ment to be

ummmmm.....u can try a mini vacation with your wife ( just a over night trip to something u guys enjoy ) kids stay with grandparents or a family u watch their kids when they need a break ............something like that will go a long way to destressing yah and getting head back in the game plus make the wife happy (happy wife happy life)..........the getaway would run yah about 400/500 bucks with a good hotel room for the night (nice bed and good bathroom) plus a dinner out and a show (just rem to bring home some nick nack for the kiddies and u are golden)

[Justugh]

crap that is what it is all the ppl in your area when u are trying to destress

u need a man cave ....tree fort....goblin hide away..........something where u can get away go too and u have complete control over ( meaning u tell someone leave they leave or u tazer them until they do)

a place u can go too relax for 45 mins to a hour a day then back into the world for what ever it has to throw at u for this round ..............other thing that might work is feeding your guy side for booms ( head to a gun range and unload if u do not own one u can rent one from the range ) 12 gauge few shots with the right rounds and i always smile