Bipolar in relationships

I've recently been diagnosed with possible Bipolar disorder and OCD tendencies (When I have thoughts of hurting people or hurting myself I need to act on them or else I think I'm going to go insane) Anyway, recently I took a liking to a girl, sent her poetry, bought her gifts etc. Then I snapped, said she was using me for self personal gain and never wanted to talk to her again, I don't even feel bad currently but my mood has fluctuated from depressed with suicidal thoughts to happy that I got rid of her. This occurred within 15mins of being nice and sweet to her. I was wondering is this common when liking people, has anyone else experienced this issue?

(I was diagnosed 4 days ago and I am unmedicated)

I'm gathering you're working with a psychiatrist- or will be in the very near future if you do get final confirmation that you are bipolar or wish to see one for evaluation of being bipolar?

I'm a bit perplexed at the part where it says you were diagnosed 4 days ago and aren't on meds. Is that because at this stage it only remains a "possibility" and is not a confirmed diagnosis as of yet?

If it does turn out to be a diagnosis of bipolar you can certainly discuss with your psychiatrist which kind of bipolar you have as there are a few categories.

Your intense attraction and then sudden repulsion of this girl could be due to a number of reasons.

It would be hard for me to speculate if I don't know if you're saying you have bipolar or not.

I've had countless people assume I'm bipolar for about 4 years, I went to a psychiatrist for a diagnosis after a failed suicide attempt which 2 days later I was quite happy and fine and needed to sign a bunch of forms to say I won't commit suicide and I'm going to go to the hospital psychiatrist when I'm paid from work, it's going to cost me quite a hefty sum of cash as I am not a citizen of this Country.

Did the psychiatrist give you a confirmed diagnosis of bipolar?

Or are you just saying people "assume" you are?

I had a psychologist diagnose sorry, I am looking at the evaluation currently which says that I am currently in a depressive episode and that I have had a past Manic episode and that I need psychiatric evaluation.

I also had this occur to me while living in Melbourne Australia where after a failed suicide attempt the hospital just let me go without a psychiatric evaluation.

Okay, psychologists can be pretty clued up.

You'll need that psychiatric evaluation sooner rather than later because if it turns out that you do have a dx of bipolar you need to get on meds.

Your mood is quite unstable.

My mood can fluctuate, and has been known to change multiple times in a day without anything occurring or triggering it, I go from happy to crying while watching cartoons.

I plan to when I'm paid from work. It's going to cost me over $300 just to see the doctors in Canada.

Yeah it's a bugger all the good things in life can sometimes be expensive!

Sounds like your mood fluctuates rapidly.

If that's the case I'm sure a pdoc can help you when you get around to seeing them.

I am trying too, but I'm completely relying on work currently.

I went to a psychologist originally because I thought my ADHD carried onto adulthood and has affected my work, but the psychologist said that she's met a lot of adults with ADHD and that I don't fit any of the criteria for it. :/

It is hard when mood jumps as you describe during the day. I have similar changes throughout the day. Perhaps not as intense at this time. It may be a lot of money to you, but it will be a lot more if you don't go. It could be catastrophic in cost if end up acting on something you could avoid. Wish you the best.

UH- sounds complicated to me, and probably caught her off guard too. Maybe some professional help would be in order before another relationship is started. I think medications is a must myself.

Does Canada have any programs available that can help you out? Are there any resources out there? Nami.org?

get you started somewhere

No I've attempted to look and I've asked but alas there is none. I feel to a certain extent that I need to harm myself to the point of hospital admission but I'm so dependent on my Job that I need to work and it's conflicting and making me insane.

Yeah I wouldn't recommend putting yourself in danger in order to get a hospital admission. Tempting. But no good.

I don't want to, but at times I feel like it's the only hope.

I understand your point of view.

I know it's not logical of even reasonable but the thought pops into my head which I dislike.

When we feel like all doors are closing .... We can get ideas that are unreasonable that pop into our head. I know I've done that before. But we shouldn't follow through. Tempting. Yes. Rational. No.

I know, at times I think the only thing keeping me alive is my intelligence and understanding of things.