[InACorner]

Hey you guys. I dont post much here because i never thought i might have bipolar. But taking the tests and paying attention to my actions it seems like i may have Bipolar and PTSD. I always felt like i had PTSD because i was always scared randomly and stuff like that but since this is a bipolar forum i wont go into that. As for the Bipolar reactions. I will be jumping up and down literally laughing and poking my boyfriend and joking and jumping more and just going haywire. Then he will say get off me...which isnt too bad since i know i must be annoying and then i go into an all time low. I just stop and go to bed and get very angry at him. One day i want to die and another day i feel fine. Even on here i will be talking all nice and normally and then bam i start acting weird i get really sad or i trigger and go super super super low...thumb sucking and everything. Do you guys understand what im talking about? I know i dont give much info. Does memory loss occur? I will be working and i have wasted three hours of thinking to myself and not know what i was thinking or doing for that matter. People will tell me to do something i will look at them shake my head and never do it because i forget. And i get yelled at and i dont mean it!!! In fact there are times where i dont even remember they came into see me and talk to me. I dont mean it but it happens. I go through life like a haze going crazy or being depressed. and if i am "normal" it doesnt last long. Anyone comments? Please? I am so lost i never thought id have bipolar. The test on here said that i might have Bipolar I or a less severe case of Bipolar 2. What are those? thanks Inny

[darkeyes]

It's in your best interest to be evaluated by a mental health professional than to "self-diagnose" from quizzes,and other material.
Though it is interesting and even offer great info, one can get uneccesary anxiety wondering, making matters worse.
What you are expierencing, can be several things, and not Bipolar disorder, it may thyroid and/or hormone imbalances, I always feel a person should have a physical to rule out any health issues first. For years I would tell my docs all my physical symptoms that were all related to thyroid and they'd say "the bloodwork is within normal range", that does not always mean anything when a person has almost every single symptom of hypothyroidism and should be treated for the thyroid imbalance. Instead they'd say, "you are depressed" or "you are stressed", and then hand out prescriptions for AD's. I won't go into my longwinded rant on this experience of mine, what you have described about yourself is not necessarily Bipolar, even though symptoms may seem to fit some of the things you experience, best to let a professional do an evaluation and then go from there. I understand how difficult this may all be.
Please take care,
DE

I agree with the advice to get a physical as well as psyvehiatric evaluation. Not only did I have low thyroid, but I had pernicious anemia & insulin resistance--all of which can cause depression, low energy & motivation, etc. I also have bipolar 1 (inherited it from my mother) so meds for that has been added into the mix.--Suzy

[darkeyes]

I forgot to add in my reply, I am Bipolar-II(mild) I was DXed 7yrs ago, after a family issue triggered it, that is what I was told, that I had it but it obviously never emerged (from my genetics) until a major life event.
I've been on Lamictal for a few years, it's great for BP-II, where depression is more severe than hypomania/mania, that is all I have to take is 150mg per day, I had been on 200mgs but have been able to drop down to what my pdoc says is the lowest therapeutic level.
My oldest brother has Bipolar-I, when he was not on Lithium, which he has been on for over 30yrs, he would get extremely manic, violent at times too, his depressions weren't severe but some were.
Lithium saved him,and he's led a pretty stable life all these years. There are many meds out for individual needs, that can be adjusted or changed, so if you are DXed with Bipolar, don't feel doomed, there is hope.

[Soidhonia]

Hello INA.
I agree with the above a physical and a mental health evauation is in order so you may be diagnosed properly and treated in the appropriate manner. I think it is very brave of you to want to get the help you need at this time for your mental health. Take care I hope the best for you in the future. Soidhonia

[DaveyJones]

Hi, Ina...

I agree with everyone else, and I hope you get the help you need. I just wanted to make one small point; that is, Bipolar I is not necessarily "more severe" than Bipolar II or any of the other forms; it is simply different. Having incredibly severe depression that is often found in BP II can be much more deadly than a manic episode that is the hallmark of BP I.

I'm not trying to be disagreeable, but just trying to clarify a bit. I wish you the very best...good luck!

DJ

[InACorner]

yea to be quite honest i dont think i have biopolar...however i hope you all can understand my urgent grasping on anything that will get me answers until the time being where i can get proffessional help

thank you all

[darkeyes]

((((((( Inacorner )))
We understand, and DJ made a good point(s).
I'm wishing you well, and invite you to come and hang out here whenever you wish, there's a lot of good,supportive,informative people here, that can be of help to you.
Please take care,
DE