What should i do

Do you remember which med gave you which side effect?

all of them

part of what makes me ....is i adapt to anything given too me so after awhile the effects wear off and they up the dosing ....and it happens quickly 30/45 days they are upping the doses again until they get to the legal limit of what they are allowed to give me then change it over to something even stronger ( that is only reason i got my mind back the dosing got to lethal lvls and it stopped working on me they could not increase it anymore )

here today's news
rehab ...............does not think i need rehab and if i do sign up i am going to fail because of the lvls in my system will take months to clear out ...........here is the kicker they test for cannabinoids all of them not just THC
Cannabinoid - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

i use cbds in 100% legal method but that will make me test positive and i take about 4 to 7 mgs a day of the stuff
Cannabidiol - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

because i adapt to things like that i am careful about taking antibiotics
penicillin..........i got a allergy too (whole body burns)
amoxicillin..........no longer works on me at low doses

last time i took anything like that was years ago they gave me something tri i do not know what it was only time i ever took it worked well 5 days i could drink OJ again

I had a Dr that seemed to like upping or changing my dose after ever meeting. She pretty much had me spinning in a mix state for two years. I would try to find a doctor that is willing to give the least amount of meds possible. I would try again and keep a detailed list of which medicine. Does what to you.

ok so get a new notebook 1 page per pill and write a report ?

oh found that stuff they gave me last time
trim oxacillin

rehab just called

they are still trying to decide if i fit in the program ......but the lady is nice and trying to help me she is looking up some info and trying to find a program that i could go into and still have the CBDs that help me ......rigt now the cbds and the few good pills the hospital gave me is what is holding me together.......the meds the pdoc gave me do nothing i feel no different if anything i feel worst because the date is coming up and i got nothing no saving grace to hang my hopes on

she still does not think i need it but understands it is to make the government happy

got the talk lady doctor today .....worried about that because i am pretty sure the rehab lady is going to tell her what i said the other night

i made a choice .........if they do lock me up i am doing gitmo no food no water and be dead with in a few days ..............as a living creature i have 2 choices to adapt to my environment or die off .........my choice is death i do not want to be like those ppl and to live there i would have to become like them ........with my head it will becomes second nature and i will be that on the outside ......no longer me well me that i hold value in

since i am usa citizen i still have a few rights even locked up so i can refuse medical attention not like gitmo where they strap them down force feed them and pump iv fluids in

it is the only choice i have left i done everything i can ........this life is basically wrecked if they lock me down i would be 40 coming out with no hope of a job anywhere

miss mom (sorry did not want to miss spell your kids name and make u angry)
getting a little note book to do what u said will pick it up from foodlion when i stop and grab a sub for my meal for the day ....thanks for the idea

What medication are you currently on or what medicine do they think you're on ?

oxcarbazepine 300mgs ...........no effect i feel or see
trazodone 50mgs ..............just makes me yawn no other effect mind still races
lorazepam 1 mg .............works to calm me down so loops to do not freak me out
quetiapine fumarate 100mgs..........knocks me out to sleep my mind stops and i can sleep with in 15 mins of hitting bed

that is the doctor stuff ......per day
i take on my own
CBDs 4 mgs to 7 mgs a day the stuff is not exact (it is less then i was getting then i was smoking) i had strains that were 4-6 % CBDs .......as this stuff is only 1% cbds the higher levels cost way to much for me to afford and still eat/gas for the car (it only works out to be 3% the stronger stuff)
Cannabidiol - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

and the talk lady doctor is insistenting i come up once a week now

i was not able to see the Pdoc he had no openings until the time i have jan 6th ........i see my general doctor on the 26th so i am going to ask her for a script for the seroguil and lorazepam

i am doing the notebook idea right now ....the talk lady doctor said good idea .......so i owe u a cookie or a nice thing for helping out ma'am

In detail, what were you charged with? Additionally, is the State of Maryland prosecuting this, or is it Federal? You mentioned the DEA was involved, this would indicate to me that it's Federal. Cannabis is still illegal in all 50 states under Federal law. What deals has the prosecutor offered you, are you in drug court?

You need to show up for your court dates. If you don't the judge will issue a warrant and you will probably forfeit your bond, they can also revoke your bail. They can even charge you with failure to appear, which can get you up to an additional two years in prison. You also risk pissing off your attorney and having them drop you as a client.

Serquel @ 200+ is a mood stabilizer. Since it works well for you increasing it may be the best option. It could take the place of all your meds in a higher dose.

12 years ago i did 4 months in local jail for weed

they had me on 2000mg of depakote and 300mgs of seroquil

but i have 4 pills of those let (they were from the hospital the pdoc would not write the script ....he wanted to read my old files before he put me on something that strong )

i plan to take half of one tonight one of the lorazepam ..............wake up at 4 am tomorrow get a shower take a whole seroguil and lorazepam .....get in a car ride 2 hours in traffic to court get out take 2 more and be drooling so i am not freaking out and the flight or fight response is suppressed

i tried to get in to see the pdoc yesterday when i was there for the talk lady ...but he is booked out

my sister in law has some lorazepam 5 mgs tab for herself she is going to give me a few to make it tho x-mas ..........see my general doctor give her the papers from rehab asking for a complete check up on the 26 ........i thinking of asking for 2 scripts too and a referral to the hospital to check in so they can set the meds in a week instead of 3 months like this one doctor is moving at

Inpatient Care - Frederick Regional Health System, Frederick, MD

that is the one i can go too it is the closest to my family (my older brother and his wife/kid are going out of town after x-mas so best time to do no will need to worry about me or come to see me)

seroguil works great it shuts the mind down from running billion ideas a sec but it also lowers my iq and reaction times causes me to be a mouth breather (have to think about breathing ) and i get that taring cotton feeling in my feet ....but i know it works

thanks for the hug

and the dancing bear is funny ........do u have one on a unicycle like a Russian dancing bear

Today the 19th

i woke up at 4 am got ready drugged my self on the pills took 1 hour 30 mins to get down there sat in the parking lot for almost a hour took another one of my pills

i am not feeling crap now no freak outs no anything ........head in to court meet my lawyer he tells me that the DA is sick so this is just a in out thing gte it moved back to jan19th now

the rehab lady did me a huge huge solid and sent a report to him and talked with for a while she even saids i should be allowed to smoke for medical reason

between that what i told him he is getting acccess to my records and is going to try that as a defence

he s going to talk to the DA once he gets all my records and takes the vape pen i brought down to is drug person (they are going to break it down and weigh everything to counter the states 33 grams charge )

so maybe hope thanks to the rehab lady report ..........it was marked on thre she was impressed with mu openness and willing to answer the ?s with out any pauses or ummm awls stalling for time ........so guessing the fact i have no shame in my game and blunt honest help

i said i keep u posted here it is ..............now i am going to let the pills win and sleep for 2 days

thanks for all your help and keeping me from going off the deep end ...........if u ever need a favor feel free to call on the amish f.u.c.k.e.r for a hand i owe yah (that is my nick name life)

Does that mean you start the rehab program soon?

no rehab ........they are going to use the medical defense for me

the lawyer took the spare vape i had and is having his drug expert break it all down and weight each piece to get ..............the cops did what i thought would happen they opened it but they did not do it right so all the liquid leaked out

the pics i sawl with the thing next to the test it was empty so they lost everything.....they dumped it in or the fact they break the broke seal on top with out making one on the bottom everything in side leaked into the inworks then out the bottom)

i have no idea what is going on at all the DA was home sick

the 26th i see my general doctor i am going to ask for refeeral to hospital and lte them poke at me and get the pills right so the court system see how much it takes ....that way if they do get me throw in they have to keep that lvl of medical care going by that point it just not worth it to lock me up

cost them to much money my only plan ...........jury trail and make them pay for it