[brokenandalone1234]

Does anyone else's meds make you feel like your emotions are being drained from inside you like a fat kid sucking the jelly out of a donut. Every time I take them the symptoms of the Bipolar go away but so do all my other emotions. I can't cry, I can't smile, and I can't even laugh at a funny joke. There is no emotion after that. I don't know how to tell those close to me what they do to me. I quit taking them because of how I feel but when I quit taking them I become so hard to live with my fiancé regrets resigning our lease together. He says in October when our lease is up he is done with me. So I take them to smooth things over with him for the time being and I get reminded of the feeling again. So I stop taking them again til our next big fight. What do I do? I want to make things work with my fiancé but even I know without my meds I am too hard to live with but my meds steal all my emotions. They drain my emotions so bad that even my fiancé's and I's bedroom life is suffering.

[Standup2me]

My bf always says "you never smile", "you never laugh"

My meds take away the mania and the depression, but they
also steal smiles, laughs, and so on

[brokenandalone1234]

I hate feeling drained of all emotion. I just took my does of meds for the day. I take one 3 times a day and the other twice a day. I want to be myself but I hate the feeling of my emotions being drained.

[cashart10]

Originally Posted by brokenandalone1234

I hate feeling drained of all emotion. I just took my does of meds for the day. I take one 3 times a day and the other twice a day. I want to be myself but I hate the feeling of my emotions being drained.

Have you discussed this with your pdoc? You don't have to feel this way and be medicated. Maybe there are some other meds you can try? I hope you can find the best of both!

[Turtlesoup]

You might want to check in with your pdoc/tdoc-also having some type of counseling/therapy with your fiance' would probably be helpful. Finding the right balance of meds can be tricky & it helps to have a good diet & get plenty of exercise (which you & your fiance' could do together). Remember you are not alone-many of us are dealing with these types of issues-the choice to take meds is yours. I have been off meds & done well for while then things got bad & I made the decision to go back on them. I also believe in having positive supportive people in your life-for me it makes a huge difference. Please take care & keep posting here to let us know how you are doing.

[brokenandalone1234]

At the moment I don't have a Pdoc. The doctor I was seeing quit seeing me. I won't go into why they did as in another forum on here I already shared my story

[Mimielam]

Hi, Brokenandalone1234

I tend to agree with ((Cashart10))..I don't think medication is suppose to make you stop feeling all emotions..well maybe unless they are so intense that you need to sort of be neutral a while and then to gradually start feeling..I guess it all depends where you are at, up down..ect..
You mentioned not having a PDOC..and that the doctor that was treating you quit...Well there are other doctors and since you have medication I think it's important to have an MD to follow you, I also think it's important to take the proper meds. Taking meds can be scary, and can be adventurous..it take time to have the right meds..Also you've got to accept to take them and know why you need them and how they work and who to call if they are not doing what they are supose to do..It's normal to be afraid, normal to have questions,

last thing, meds alone are not enough, therapy,support counselling helps a lot

Good luck and take care

[memson]

Many of the med's manipulate our mood and as such indirectly will affect our emotions. Remember, however, that emotions are directly connected to what and how we think. Having said that, I totally understand what you're feeling. It is for this reason that I have fought, on several occasions, to stop taking the ADs. I find that they dull the senses and suppress both the happiness as well as the sadness. A recent adjustment (Latuda) meant a significantly reduced dose of Effexor and I'm delighted to report that quite a lot of that missing emotional energy has returned. So, as was recommended earlier in this thread, seek the help of a pdoc and work on finding the drug regimen that serves you. Include your boyfriend in the process; have him monitor your mood and chart it for you. Perhaps if he was invested in the process he might feel differently about your challenges.

HUGS

[brokenandalone1234]

I decided when I woke up this morning that until I can find a new Pdoc I will deal with feeling empty inside just so I can make things better with my fiancé. I love him very much and I want things to work so I need to do this.