Depression/Anger Vent no response needed.

A letter to myself to help me get over this down moment of depression.

I am so depressed. I want to just cry and cry. There isn't even a friggin reason for it, so I think up stuff to be sad about that normally doesn't bother me.

I am angry that no one cares I am sad. (my husband cares, but I am taking him for granted at the moment because nothing he can say or do helps) Its my choice to isolate so the fact that I have no relationship with my family is no ones fault! So, I am sad it is pointless to even get angry.

I love everyone in here at psych central, because I know if some people do read this, and you really don't have to its just a vent. I am angry at everyone for not responding to some other posts or comments I made. No one cares about me. -- guess what Imah, no one does care, and even though they kind of care, like is about taking care of ourselves and not expecting other people to take care of us.

I am so lonely. I remember yesterday (even earlier today NOT being lonely) frigging just depressed because of the bipolar.

Man are we lucky we know the reason we have these mood swings. Yay for being lucky.

But really, before I understood it was the bipolar making me nuts like this, I actually blamed the things I thought up.

Its just the bipolar, and all the running away from it I can do - avoiding, talking, cleaning, sleeping - it doesn't make it go away. Yes it does. With time it will. Oh, shut up you stupid optimist, I hate it when you don't allow me to be sad when I feel sad. You stfu yourself, you need the optimistic side of yourself that will help you get through this.

Yay, I have an illness, I reached out. I am releasing some tension. Pats self on back. F.U. self. I am just sad.

-----------------> IMAH <------------------

Hi Ima,

I feel the same thoughts and feelings as you do when I am not myself.

I also find it helps to write it down.

Thank you for sharing this post with us.

Thank-you, we do care. It sounds like your husband cares too. Depression sucks and it will pass. make a list of all the positive things about yourself hang it on the fridge and read it as often as you need to.

4 non blondes - whats up

I have a lot of the music of my life saved on youtube. I turned to music and found strength. Thank you once again PsychCentral for being an outlet for me.

Depression is an evil hard thing to deal with, and I used to get down on peeps not responding to what I post, and still do, but it's no reason to add to the multitudes of downers already applied to ones self. First off, your expecting a lot from people with a mental illness! There are lots of posts I can't respond too because it sounds too much like me and I don't want to go there.

I'm glad you have music therapy. I've yet to find what lifts my spirit in times of great distress. Maybe I'm listening to all the wrong types of music? When depressed I tend to listen to depressing stuff, same with mania- exciting fast pace music.

If you need more talking too you can pm me. Glad your feeling better

Yep, your right.

As for being unappreciated - I should have told you sooner that I love your sig.

Rant away. We've all been there .

I haven't been here long, but from what posts of yours I have seen I like. Very deep, upfront honest and so true.

I am sorry you were feeling that way. Sometimes it kinda feels like I have a need [not chosen] to take a dip in the dark pool. I release the crap I have been carrying and come back with a clearer understanding and better appreciation for the simple things that make me happy. Kind of like rain before the sunshine pops out.

I hope your 'dip into the dark pool' brings you too, some comfort however warped that may sound.

Take good care of you.

I care about you and I appreciate your encouragement when I am down. You are a very caring, straightforward, wise friend. I am glad to know you here.

I'm so sorry to hear all about this, but I hope given time and making a few friends at Psych centrial which is a great big help when things get so much. We aew here for you. HUGS. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

There with you. I was doing good, but then had this really rough day on Friday, threw this massive party on Saturday (work), got drunk which I have been not doing, and did a lot of stuff I regret and now I'm totally depressed. Have to pick myself up and start again. Anyhow, I know how you feel.

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