[sorand0m]

Cold turkey. I felt so positive for so long that I didn't think I needed them.

Turns out I do. I can't concentrate and my head is speeding along faster than light and it's horrible. I'm teary, happy, sad and angry from one moment to the next.

Going cold turkey off of meds is a dangerous thing! Your brain isn't ready to be running alone. By pulling the synthetic crutch out, it was on free fall because it's little chemical making factories shut down when we started supplying our own chemicals. A brain will have to kick start its factories after awhile, which means it's struggling. Don't hurt yourself hun, if you're going to quit, tell your pdoc and do it in a responsible manner. We don't want you hurt.

[sorand0m]

I don't feel completely out of control. I think. I'm getting wasted later, at least I'll feel better then.

Lol that'll make it better, Un-huh. Yeah right.

[sorand0m]

It can't make me feel any worse. At least I can sleep for a bit maybe, and I'd REALLY like some of that.

Wow. I find off meds I sleep less, and also a light sleeper. You couldn't walk up on me. Even today I get 6 hours, but better sleep, especially if I take my AP.

[sorand0m]

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

Wow. I find off meds I sleep less, and also a light sleeper. You couldn't walk up on me. Even today I get 6 hours, but better sleep, especially if I take my AP.

Every time i see AP, I think Zyprexa. God what an awful drug.

It's respiradal 1 mg.- let's me sleep a solid 6. 2 mg make me sleep 14 hours. Who wants that?

[sorand0m]

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

It's respiradal 1 mg.- let's me sleep a solid 6. 2 mg make me sleep 14 hours. Who wants that?

That would be useful at times. Zyprexa is one of those drugs I love to hate. When I need it, it does me good. But long term... no.

[Trippin2.0]

Same thing happened to me when I cold turkeyed.


My mind was all over the place to a solid three months. Suicidal in the morning, and euphoric in the evening. Extremely exhausting, not to mention confusing!!!!


It only quieted down once my brain adjusted to being drugless once again. Then I pretty much went back to "normal".

[Skywalking]

My friend, it sounds like you have chosen self-medicating over doctor-medicating. You are just changing one for the other and the self-medicating is not the one that helped you feel well enough to go off meds in the first place. Be careful, okay? Like AlwaysChanging said, we don't want you hurt.

Originally Posted by Trippin2.0

Same thing happened to me when I cold turkeyed.


My mind was all over the place to a solid three months. Suicidal in the morning, and euphoric in the evening. Extremely exhausting, not to mention confusing!!!!


It only quieted down once my brain adjusted to being drugless once again. Then I pretty much went back to "normal".

Ow. 3 months. There's almost no way here can I do that. Might take trace amounts of meds for awhile.

[Hexagram]

It's just my opinion, which is meaningless because I have no qualifications, only personal experience, and we're just strangers writing messages to each other on a forum, but I have to say that going off your meds cold turkey because you felt healthy and then self-medicating with alcohol sounds like a high-stakes error. Like the weather or the ocean, mental illness can pose the most danger to you when you forget to respect its potential for destruction. Your problems are none of my business but I don't want to see you or anyone else repeat my mistakes.

[Trippin2.0]

On that note, I would just like to state that I did not go on a self-medicating spree.


That would've made things so so sO much worse. Alcohol amplifies my mood and my history with OTC pills would've deemed them more dangerous than psych meds.


You are in fact playing with fire, and yes your very wellbeing is at stake. Refusing to acknowledge that would just be a blatant testament to being really unwell.


So at least we know for sure you're not completely out of touch, you're aware that this is not a good path you're walking and you know you're unwell.