[fingers1]

Thanks for all your previous replies.

Can you describe the actual feeling.

With mine I suddenly feel like uuurrgg.
Its like being drunk and a bit nauseas and its horrible

I immediately go to bed and sleep for an hour which stops it.
anyone know what Im talking about ?

fingers1

[ozzy1313]

Tight feeling in my chest, crying for no reason, instant thoughts of "everyone would be better off if I were gone", feelings of being a failure at parenting, wanting to isolate myself, feeling lost, scared, and stuck

[Junia]

Hopeless. Feeing a 50-pound sack is on my back; everything takes more effort. The skin around my eyes feels tight, as though that area is constantly tensed to hold back tears.

Exhaustion. Don't want to move at all; no reason to get out of bed.

Skin is made of plastic wrap; anything has the power to hurt - even air.

At it's worst, I saw the world through a gray screen...damn, I thought I had forgotten a lot of this...a constant feeling of being wrong, a constant feeling that something bad has
happened or is happening, a feeling that everything is somehow my fault. Complete lack of self-worth. Complete lack of sexual interest.

Wow. Some of these are cognitive errors I still have to fight. Some of them, and the life problems they caused, are very clear in my mind.

Thus is a definite ice cream trigger. Haagen-Daz coffee, here I come...

[Junia]

Sorry, I misread the title of the thread. I have bad moods, but not really depressive ones - if I go depressive, I go. Otherwise, *for me only,* I don 't think I have depressive moods. I have bad moods, yes, but if they go away after a nap I don't worry about them. Again, that's just me.

[Victoria'smom]

First come the feeling that I'm getting the flu: weak, muscles hurt, tired..... Then come the unrealistic self harm thoughts. "If I don't SH in X way Y will happen." Then my chest starts feeling like it's being ripped apart (imagine a wish bone before it snaps). Then comes the panic attacks from being around people. Then I go mute. lastly I become scared of my husband. Then I usually either completely stop interacting or harm myself. Then I get better.

[Skywalking]

It was slow and over time. It was like a clock slowing down until it was creeping. I was tired a lot and really bored. I misinterpreted it as burnout. Things seemed like too much trouble. I didn't really have negative thoughts about myself, but I felt like all my insides had been scraped out and I was empty and lonely.

[avlady]

i get into what if scenirios "what if this happens" or "what if that happens". my t told me to say "so what" when that happens. it really helps, and another thing is those thoughts usually happen when i need sleep.

Pain and fatigue. Limbs feel encased in cement and I become breathless just trying to lift my legs to walk. Dizzy, fuzzy, can think right. All I think about is how worthless I am. How everyone would be better off without me. I can't get out of bed. Sometimes I cry nonstop. Sometimes I'm so worn, I have no energy for tears. Just lay down in pain, wishing life to be over.

[MotherMarcus]

I get into this low funk. No motivation and I have internal arguments with my self. Feel sorta flat.

[Becoming]

First, of course, I get very sad and negative. I feel empty, time passes very slowly. I feel lonely and like nobody likes me and that I am a burden or bothersome to people. I will cry or feel like crying even if the slightest bad thing happens (usually if it is some sort of rejection). I also get obsessive and keep thinking about, for example, when a friend might text or call me (either first or as a response). Sometimes I get suicidal, but always to varying degrees. The "mood swing" can be very sudden set on by a quick negative experience, or it can begin and last for a very long time. Those are the hardest moments to get through with Bipolar. I function best when Non-Symptomatic or Hypomanic (which unfortunately is almost always followed by depression). Sometimes I want to know what it feels like to live a regular Non-Symptomatic life.

[unlived]

Originally Posted by fingers1

Thanks for all your previous replies.

Can you describe the actual feeling.

With mine I suddenly feel like uuurrgg.
Its like being drunk and a bit nauseas and its horrible

I immediately go to bed and sleep for an hour which stops it.
anyone know what Im talking about ?

fingers1

That doesnt really sound like depression - maybe something physical?

[letsgogh]

A sudden sinking feeling. A feeling in your chest like there's a black hole in it and you're folding in on yourself, becoming small, insignificant and crushed.

I feel like the world is just watching me drown, like I'm drowning, sinking ever farther, but it's something I can't fight against so I just let it happen and get swept out to sea, far from everything. Everything is slow, like when you try to move in water, everything glides and all the voices are muffled and the world is distorted, like when someone shouts for you but you can hardly hear them because you're underwater.

I think slow, work slow. I can't feel anything but a deep sadness, or occasionally anxiety. I isolate myself from everyone. I drink more. I sleep all the time to escape being alive, or I can't sleep at all, it depends on if I'm just depressed or mixed.

When depressed I feel like there's no reason for me to continue to exist and sometimes get suicidal.

[fingers1]

Originally Posted by Junia

Sorry, I misread the title of the thread. I have bad moods, but not really depressive ones - if I go depressive, I go. Otherwise, *for me only,* I don 't think I have depressive moods. I have bad moods, yes, but if they go away after a nap I don't worry about them. Again, that's just me.

Yes you are right that they go away after a nap.

fingers1

[Hotmessexpress69]

For me it feels like a stab in the chest of pure emptiness. My thoughts instantly turn dark and paranoid. Suddenly nothing matters and theres no point in getting out of bed. And the weirdest thing is I know what's going through my head makes no sense but it's impossible to turn it off.

[Darvula]

Lack of interest in anything. Don't want to leave home. Don't want to see anyone, go anywhere or do anything. Feel like crying if I do have to go out. The slightest negative event seems like the end of the world. I'm in that state at the moment.