I'm discouraged I had two job interviews this week and the first one was for a hostess position at a very high class restaurant and I didn't get the job bc I didn't have experience and never ate at that place before but they were hiring my mom told me to apply and she would watch the baby while I got out of the house for a while and made some money to have on my own and help with income and just have money to do stuff for myself and son bc after bills paid we don't have much to go on.. Then I thought can he see through me...? I mean I know I'm capable of doing the job epesially when I'm manic and can do so much at once and talk to people but what about that depressive side of me you know and I haven't been too stable lately I mean I've been okay but I never know when an episode is gonna happen what if I start my job and something triggers it or something idk now I'm wondering if I even should try and get a job I'm already unstable as it is when I have my depressive episode idk I was so happy and excited and thought I would get the job now I'm just like I am so sucky why wouldn't he just let me try it out I know I could do it now part of me feels so discouraged like why even try anymore with it maybe I'll just be a stay at home mom and that's it... My husband doesn't want me to get a job anyway bc he wants me to always be with our son.. Seems like he wants to control me and keep me in box.. Bc when I said I had an interview he was like you don't need a job why do you want one I know what your doing and said are you cheating on me idk he is being werid I feel like he wants to control me and make all the money and have it and just be controlling everything idk I just think man I'm bipolar should I even start a job? What If I do have to like quit or get so fatigued and out of it idk what do yall think about being bipolar and having a job ? Do yall have a job does your other make the money ? Do you have problems at work idk like I want to believe I'm reliable and dependable and part of me does but then I'm like dude what I'm I get bipolar depressive and can't get out of bed then what they want someone there not calling in gah idk

Awww, I'm sorry that it didn't work out in your favor hun. Be proud that you did get out of the house and made a good try, that's for sure. That's something I hate about being bipolar, I automatically think I know what everyone is thinking, and it's usually about me and not good which makes me nervous and awkward. Jobs are hard to come by, you just need to keep trying, something will turn up. My pdoc told me that having a job gives good self esteem, but then I thought not when it blows up in your face!

I do interior design for clients and get to set my own work schedule most of the time so that I can work around my moods and appointments. If I had to actually work for someone, I don't think I could do it if not well. I say go find a job and see what you can do. Of course the extra money would help. Your ol man's ego got bruised, that's all. He'll get over it. Good luck hunny!

[RisuNeko]

I have a full time emotionally, physically and socially rigorous job and I go to college. So it's possible. I'm coping kind of okay, but I don't really sleep and it takes a lot out of me. I'm pretty burnt out. It hasn't really affected my work though. I got a good performance review recently.

[scatterbrained04]

I work full-time and have been with the same company almost 8 years. I just force myself to go to work no matter how I feel. My income being the only income does help motivate me to go and fake it til I make it.

[Disorder7]

I think each person is different.

When I was younger I worked and went to college. I even had a part time job on the weekends. I was exhausted all of the time and had mood swings, but I could handle it.

Today..... NO WAY! I would end up getting fired or put in jail.

I believe only you can answer that question for yourself. Take care and good luck.

Originally Posted by Disorder7

I think each person is different.

When I was younger I worked and went to college. I even had a part time job on the weekends. I was exhausted all of the time and had mood swings, but I could handle it.

Today..... NO WAY! I would end up getting fired or put in jail.

I believe only you can answer that question for yourself. Take care and good luck.

That's what I'm scared about getting fired and not being able to control my emotions I used to go to college and had a part time job and just that job made me so exhausted I could barely work the four hours without being exhausted I had trouble staying awake and that was back then so I have no idea what I would do now

[Disorder7]

You could always test the water by volunteering somewhere, just to see how it goes. It might give you some indication as to whether you're ready to go back to work. Just an idea...

Originally Posted by Sky101

That's what I'm scared about getting fired and not being able to control my emotions I used to go to college and had a part time job and just that job made me so exhausted I could barely work the four hours without being exhausted I had trouble staying awake and that was back then so I have no idea what I would do now

Get one of those teeny bopper jobs like at McDonalds and see how that goes. Getting fired or quitting there doesn't matter. At least you'll make a few dollars testing it out.

Obtw, it's easier to find another job if you're currently working. It means that your committed to the work which looks good to personnel.