[Melmo]

When I get in a really bad mood, (which happens often) I feel trapped in this **** life that I can't escape from. I will feel like this forever, I will never get a better job because I can't do anything else. I will never go to school because I can't make up my damn mind and pick something to study. I will never accomplish the things I want to accomplish because one minute I decide to do one thing...and the next I change my mind and it goes back and forth like that. I will ALWAYS be unhappy.
Why bother?

[purpledaisy]

You are not along feeling this way, if that helps at all to know.

I'm stuck in the same funk right now.

[Moose72]

Count me in.

[Bipolar mom]

Yep, feel the same way.

That is the misery I call my life. I'm truly sorry that others must suffer this awful dilemma.

[hamster-bamster]

I do feel this way but it is as a result of objectively disastrous choices I made in the past. It has nothing to do with illness.

[~Christina]

You don't have to decide on a major when you first attend. Loads of people change there mind. Why not just go and start hammering away at the basic classes everyone must take? Just a thought.
Good luck

[hamster-bamster]

Originally Posted by morethingswrong

You don't have to decide on a major when you first attend. Loads of people change there mind. Why not just go and start hammering away at the basic classes everyone must take? Just a thought.
Good luck

Excellent suggestion

[purpledaisy]

Originally Posted by morethingswrong

You don't have to decide on a major when you first attend. Loads of people change there mind. Why not just go and start hammering away at the basic classes everyone must take? Just a thought.
Good luck

She is absolutely right.

Get yourself enrolled and start working on the basics. One day, you will realize what you want to be when you grow up, and you are much better off to already be working toward that goal when you realize.

What's the alternative? If you wait to figure out what you want to do or be, and THEN enroll, you're way behind.

Don't make the mistake I did, which was waiting until I was grown and had a kid before I went back to school and finished my degree. (Although I am proud that I finished, and finishing was not a mistake at all.)

It's no fun being in your 40s and getting an "entry level" job because you're a recent graduate, while other people your age have been established and working their way up the career ladder/pay scale for quite a while.

[EmbersFlame]

I am the same way. 38 year old and still don't know what I want to do with my life. I work in the towing industry. It's all I do know. But I want to be out there doing something worth a damn and get paid doing it! I just don't know where to start.

[Debi54]

Yes, I have felt that way my whole life. Never had the attention span to stick with one thing long enough to "be" anything, so I've been a waitress my whole life. I'm on disability now. Tried going back to school, that lasted for about a month and half before I realized I didn't have the memory or the focus to do it, and am back at square one. The only thing I've ever stuck with was being a mother. I can't even keep a job for more than a year and a half. The one thing I've found that does hold my attention is art, but I can't seem to find a medium I'm serious about, or work at it like a job like my father does. I sometimes wonder if there's any hope for me. Glad to know I'm not alone.

I often feel this way.

["Tilly may"]

I felt trapped in a job. My company paid ten thousand dollars for me to take a course and get a certification. I did very well in the course but when it came time to do the job, i couldnt do it. I tried really hard and i felt trapped. this lead to bad thoughts of suicide. then i decided, after 8 months of suffering that I had to tell my boss that i couldnt do the job that they had trained me for. He was ok with it after all. I am still afraid that they will try and make me do the job. Im just not smart enough, i know my limitations.

my point is that i was wrong, i wasnt trapped at all. now i just do my old job, which makes me feel safe.

[Melmo]

Its really hard to explain exactly what I mean...I am not good at explaining things.
I want to go to college, not university, so I have to pick something to study. I really want to go to school to study nutrition, it's something I am interested in and have been learning about on my own for a couple years now, especially food allergies/sensitivities because I have some myself and I like to help people.
The only thing is, I have wanted to go back to school to study like 3 different things over the years. I get one idea in my head and I am set on it...then lose interest. Then I want to do something else and it starts again and then...not interested anymore. I don't want to go to school and then decide I am not interested anymore.
Then there's the fact that I really don't believe I am smart enough to go back to school. I don't have the greatest attention span at all. I don't want to spend all that money to fail.
I am a binge eater. Ilost 75 lbs after my daughter was born (she is now almost 3) and about the time she turned 1, I started binge eating. I am addicted to food. So I feel like I physically cannot stop myself...and every day is the same....I try as hard as I can but I fail. So I feel trapped in the sense that I hate my job, I'm too chicken **** to get a new one because of my social anxiety, and I don't know what I want to go to school for. I will never lose the last 30lbs I need to lose because I can't stop stuffing my face. I would even be happy to maintain at this point and just stop gaining.

Oh and I really hate my job.My boss yells at me, she makes me feel like an idiot and that I don't know how to do my job. I work my *** off, do the best I can but it's never enough because there is always SOMETHING that either I didn't do, or did wrong and that's all that matters. I cried one day last week because she yelled at me for a mistake that I had already made before (I seriously have the WORST memory)
She is really just a verbally abusive person. I feel like I am stuck in this job because I can't find a better one.

[hamster-bamster]

Originally Posted by JustWantToBeNormal

Its really hard to explain exactly what I mean...I am not good at explaining things.
I want to go to college, not university, so I have to pick something to study. I really want to go to school to study nutrition, it's something I am interested in and have been learning about on my own for a couple years now, especially food allergies/sensitivities because I have some myself and I like to help people.
The only thing is, I have wanted to go back to school to study like 3 different things over the years. I get one idea in my head and I am set on it...then lose interest. Then I want to do something else and it starts again and then...not interested anymore. I don't want to go to school and then decide I am not interested anymore.
Then there's the fact that I really don't believe I am smart enough to go back to school. I don't have the greatest attention span at all. I don't want to spend all that money to fail.
I am a binge eater. Ilost 75 lbs after my daughter was born (she is now almost 3) and about the time she turned 1, I started binge eating. I am addicted to food. So I feel like I physically cannot stop myself...and every day is the same....I try as hard as I can but I fail. So I feel trapped in the sense that I hate my job, I'm too chicken **** to get a new one because of my social anxiety, and I don't know what I want to go to school for. I will never lose the last 30lbs I need to lose because I can't stop stuffing my face. I would even be happy to maintain at this point and just stop gaining.

Oh and I really hate my job.My boss yells at me, she makes me feel like an idiot and that I don't know how to do my job. I work my *** off, do the best I can but it's never enough because there is always SOMETHING that either I didn't do, or did wrong and that's all that matters. I cried one day last week because she yelled at me for a mistake that I had already made before (I seriously have the WORST memory)
She is really just a verbally abusive person. I feel like I am stuck in this job because I can't find a better one.

Regarding the college major, you at some point need to take an action no matter what.

I have a girlfriend. She is a jazz singer in Moscow. She goes on tours with her band. When she was in Bangkok, Thailand, a guy fell in love with her. The guy is an American naturopathic doctor. What do American educated naturopathic doctors do in Thailand? Do not ask me; I thought that Thailand has enough domestic professionals in the area of healing arts but apparently not - apparently they need some US imports.

So now he wants to invite her to Thailand. She likes him. He wants to buy her a ticket. She is afraid to go because she is afraid to stop liking him during the trip and start feeling trapped because she would feel obliged, with his having bought the ticket.

Likewise, you are afraid of stopping to like the subject of your interest in college.

Everyone is at risk of stopping to like their partner or topic of interest. At some point people take risk, and if eventually they indeed stop liking whatever or whoever they originally liked, they deal with this situation then. Cut short their trips, switch jobs, break up with one guy and get together with another, etc. It is just life - it is fluid and there is nothing to be done about it. If the interest in nutrition has persisted over two years, then it is a fairly safe bet to pursue it. And, if you have that interest, read this wonderful blog post that would give you a great perspective on why conceiving of food as something you can get addicted to is not necessarily the best idea.

[Victoria'smom]

Depending on the school you go to you can make your own AA. It's usually under the liberal arts department. Also part time may be better option.

[Davino]

Same with me.

[LittleOldMe]

Nearly 24/7 I feel as though I can't escape life and that everything is moving too quickly. I feel like I'm drowning and no one notices.