Can you "cycle" out of triggered depression?

So as you probably know I've been struggling with depression since the start of the year with one inpatient stay for just over a month, released with a baseline of 3/10 which dropped even further about 3 weeks ago.

It was a definite triggered depression (work), which has now turned into a full blown depressive episode. I tried so much and tried to fight it, Im out of fight now, so just sitting it out. But I dont know if it will "cycle" back to baseline or if I go inpatient like my pdocs have been suggesting for the last 4 weeks and get medicated again.

I was trying to wean off my meds. Im down a little on them and I dont think it is affecting my mood too much. I've had a little extra anxiety but nothing unbearable. Its the depression that is unbearable.

Im not functioning at all, my partner doesnt want me to go to hospital, but then says Im too dependent on him. Im regularly suicidal and have taken overdoses and been self harming. Lately I have just been laying in bed, with a few hours up on the couch. All I can handle is feeding and rugging the horse, and that has me in tears because my body is lead and the horse makes me feel guilty for not riding her.

I dont really see the point of inpatient because they will just drug me which I am trying to move away from.

Any suggestions? Sorry its long.

I have been working on it. It has taken me a few months and I am coming out slowly. I feel like it sometimes just takes time.

I can't really say whether or not you should go IP simply because I wouldn't want to persuade you one way or another because I'm far from a medical expert and I know that you are struggling and have been for ages.

So I just thought I'd simply let you know this - IP has been positive for me. Yes, maybe they will change / increase meds, I don't know. Or maybe they won't? Either way, regardless of what they were to do if you went IP, doesn't mean it would be the same meds once you are out of IP.

If you don't go IP, my wish for you is that you find a sense of comfort soon.

You have suffered long enough

Good day Supanova. I'm sad and dismayed that you're feeling so darn awful. However, we actually have a great deal in common. I'm "into" horses and have been for over 42 years! Last year I worked as a volunteer in a holistic horse and pony. But we're not here to talk about that, unless you would like to. Like you I've been very depressed and in the past I've been hospitalised due to suicide attempts and /or overdoses. I'm also SI (or SH) so I know exactly where you're coming from. Sometimes it's very very tiring even to go upstairs or even leave the house at all due to depression, it strips all you're strength away and all you can do is stay hiding away in bed, your safe place maybe. I can understand easily regarding your partner not wanting you to go to hospital BUT, it's your call, if you feel you can cope then fair enough, though I don't think you're coping right now or you wouldn't be here.
We can support you for sure, so HUGS. Xx

Yes you can, I've cycled out of a year long situational depression, the real question here is, can you cycle out of it safely, and emerge on the other side in one piece?

We should in theory cycle out of triggered depressions, but I've been mired in one since summer 2013; prior to that my manic and depressive episodes seemed to conform to predictable eight month waveforms, so I have no idea what's going on. Perhaps you feel worse as your failures and frustrations accumulate over your lifetime and you're forced to confront them, and you don't roll out of the depressions so easily.

Thats the real question, and I dont know the answer. I'd be ok if I had support (um supervision), especially during the day but my friends are all worn out after 6 months of this ****. So's my partner. He says we'll get through it but is seeming to distance himself (which on one hand I want so I free to sui and not hurt him as much)...

I just dont want to be medicated to the eyeballs and sent on my way again, I still havent got in a good routine after the last admission. Also I have a friend in there and I dont much want to be in hospital with her, I'd never get any peace.

I dont know what to do. I spose I see how I deal this weekend without anyone, if I cant stay safe then I'll go in.

Thanks for the replies.

im sorry you are still suffering . I think if you in any way think its possible you would go through with the sui (which it seems possible) i would go in
i hope you find peace