OMFG

You might want to add this to the letter for your Pdoc. It seems big right now but in my own experience I forget or downplay it by the time I see the doc.

Thank you. I just texted myself an account so I will read the situation precisely.

Glad you're feeling better this morning!

Very happy for you

Oh Cash! I am so sorry you had to go through that last night. I too am so relieved to hear your news that you are "better" today. Hang in there.

Btw I just wrote this thinking about you and your other post.

https://bipolarfirst.wordpress.com/2015/06/21/201/

Thinking about you. Hold strong.

I get random auditory hallucinations a lot of the time (even when I'm not in an episode apparently, because I've been fine for two months and I've still been hallucinating). They don't freak me out though. I just recognize them as my brain doing something weird and move on. If I were paranoid at the same time it would probably be worse, but I don't get all that paranoid. And I don't believe in ghosts or a higher reality that we tap into when we hallucinate or anything like that.

Cashart, I'm so glad you are feeling better today. I can't imagine how scary that must have been (I could hear it in your "voice"). Here's hoping for some peace for you today. Hugs.

Thank you! I will definetly be sharing this with my mom and maybe mom in law.

Wow. I hope it helps even a little......

How's the Father's Day stuff going?

I thought that I had experienced auditory hallucinations because I have experienced "hearing" the Holy Spirit telling me things and I have obeyed. This has only ever happened In an episode but it was an internal voice. Last night, I realize was the first time I have ever experienced a true auditory hallucination and it was terrifying. I don't believe in ghosts typically either (although I do believe in demons ) but hallucinations didn't seem logical. I have never experienced anything like this outside of a religious context. My brain took me all kinds of places. Since it stopped without the radio I even drove in silence. I don't know about tonight though. Music usually keeps me sane. I'm glad you can brush them off and I certainly hope I can too.

A little overwhelming. You?

My husband's grandfather (who is like my grandfather) is having surgery on Wed. He almost died (in fact *I think* he did die and they brought him back) the last time he had surgery which was fairly recently. He turned 79 today. He said to my husband and me, "well, if something goes wrong on Wed, I'll see you both in Heaven." I almost burst into tears; I turned my head, did all I could to distract myself and cried all the way home. I can't handle his loss right now. If you pray, please say a prayer for him. I hope everything goes well. I'm trying to keep the "I'm sure it will go fine" attitude about the situation.

Other than that, my day was not great. I am sure I seemed aloof, if not *****y, to my husband's family (mine are out of town) at least a good portion of the time I was at both his mom and dad's and his grandma and grandpa's. I was just too discouraged. I know the world doesn't revolve around me and not everything is about me but I currently bear no relief. I am sad; I feel desperation. Thank you all for listening to me, for caring about me, for supporting me, and for all of your love and hugs. You honestly help me go through life these days and I don't know what I would do without you and your listening ears (or reading eyes )

I am praying. For him and for you.

When do you see the dr tomorrow?

early. 9:40.

Please let us know if you can.

I'll be thinking about you tomorrow. And praying. And for your fils grandfather.

My day was good. We didn't do anything special. Just chilled which is what we like to do. Your post though reminded me of lots of times when I felt off in family gatherings. It is so hard not to be *****y when you are so disconnected from just about every single little thing.

Good luck tomorrow. Come and tell us !

Thank you all! Capriciousness, I sent my mom the link to you blog post and I know she read it. I said I love you when I sent it and all she said was I love you too. So, I'm not sure what she thought about it but it obviously wasn't something bad.

Aw that's good. It must be so hard for her to know you are suffering. Maybe she is subconsciously trying to protect herself from the depth of what you go through. Who knows. Maybe it will change something in her mind to know that you're not alone in it. That is happens to everyone. Well not everyone. But everyone here. Ha! Goodnight! Try to sleep tight.

I think that there could have been a number of things that contributed to this and I'm sorry this happened to you, and I think maybe the cherry on the cake might have been Sunday, Father's Day.

I am glad to hear that things have settled somewhat (with the music) ..... may this last

Music is my sanity so I'm pretty sure this was frightening ... to say the least ... as an understatement

Hope it went ok.

If you didn't see my previous thread, I am not going Ip, IOP instead, and of course back to pdoc in 2 weeks. I was too chicken **** to bring up that I thought I needed it and only brought it up in passing. I'm just crying. I have been hearing that voice now even when the radio isn't playing. He prescribed Haldol as a prn for psychotic symptoms. I'm glad...it is scary. Anyway, now I just have to decide if I want to trust my pdoc's bizarre meds and dosing or if I want to hand it over to the folks at IOP. I'm stuck.

Of course, what if they decide at intake that I should be inpatient? I'm back in that same boat.

just be completely honest with IO Pand you can roll with whatever happens from that.