[Psychotic_Phil]

I want to be able to do something well, but I can't, or don't seem to be able to. I thought of writing a poem today but it wouldn't work. I feel like an idiot. Because it feels like I can't write or do math or science or whatever else, I am just down. Bad. Not good. And plus, having thoughts of people hurting me or in a big conspiracy to kill me is also confusing. Why am I having these thoughts? Are they real? Why can't I tell?

I just cannot express how inadequate and confused I feel right now.

[Direction]

I know that when something doesn't go right for me - everything in my life is instantly tranformed into absolutely everything is wrong.

I think our minds are twisting this...not sure why...but know your mind is probably lying right now.

[Hopes]

I have also had issues with thoughts that I can't distinguish if they are real or just made up in my head, cause I have a vivid imagination. So even when I am feeling sane I couldn't tell you at times if something really occured or if my mind just made it up cause it sure feels real! You are not crazy or a bad person, your mind has just decided to take over for the moment. it is easier said than done but try to rest and pamper yourself. See a therapist and a doctor if possible and let them know what is going on with you. they may possibly be able to help.

hugs to you:

Hopes

[TrinaTrina]

Sometimes it helps, too, to have a friend who's your designated 'reality check' person. Of course, it has to be someone you trust absolutely. I'm really sorry you're having all this trouble, and talking to your doc sounds like a good idea.

I can really relate to feeling like I can't do anything well anymore. I feel like that a lot, and really have to push myself to do nearly anything. I had a med change a while back, and am going to be getting a level checked to see what's going on with it (too low? too high? shows in the right range so need to try something else? A pain in the rear!).

Take care. I'll be thinking of you.