Bipor hallucinations

I get mild auditory hallucinations and heightened senses only when manic.

I don't have hallucinations, but my thoughts sometimes tend toward paranoia. Like that there is something else going on that no one is telling me. That gets me frustrated and feeling left out. My anxiety spikes and then I am raging-yelling, crying, screaming, etc.

One interesting thing that happens to me is that sounds get warped and it causes me to see things in my head. What I mean by warped is that a cough or a sneeze will warp into something else in my head that is really bad and that's when I see things in my head. Also when I start getting worse constant noises like a fan allow me to hear voices and sounds through them.

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I see colours in hues, and spiders hanging there on a thread of web and usually a voice in my head which repeats "**** the holy spirit" and "i'll piss all over your creation", they say it over and over. And when i'm on the brink of sleeping I see demonic faces coming at me from all angels gnashing their teeth and covered in blood, swinging their heads from left to right violently. This is all when i'm manic though.

Every time I'm manic. I'm also Schizoaffective, though, so I hallucinate pretty regularly. Enough that I was on two APs for a while. But the auditory, shadows, and olfactory every single time I'm manic.

I rarely see full-blown visual hallucinations, and even then, they are usually very brief and nothing super detailed. Usually it's sleep deprivation causing me to see shadow people, things pulsating, etc. I also never hear voices outside of my head.

My psychosis tends to happen mostly inside of my own mind. In my mind, with my mind's eye, I will see a lot of vivid, detailed and usually crazy/terrible things and have conversations or hear voices that are inside my own mind. It gets very noisy and chaotic and crowded in there during a bad episode.

My psychosis also tends to lean way more into delusion than hallucination. For example, my mind will explode with imagery, entities, voices, all sorts of things, which is not technically a hallucination, but I will believe that I have demons or something inside of me, which is a straight-up delusion problem when it goes full-blown.