[Flightlessbird86]

I had an hallucination earlier. I was working on my homework and all I know is I was listening to the tv and one of the actors said some scary satanic stuff. This is not the first time this has happened to me. I can't function when this happens to me. I called 911 and an ambulance came. I was racing around and felt out of body. I was shaking and couldn't concentrate. I felt frozen. When the ambulance came I was too embarrassed be I knew they couldn't help me. I asked them to call my aunt. Of course she didn't answer. No one cares about me. My boyfriend always gets mad at me when I get scared or panic. My boyfriend is out of town he wouldn't talk to me had to go bcc I wouldn't tell him what happened. I don't like to repeat it.i feel so alone and scared. No one can help.

[CopperStar]

Are you able to get set up with a therapist and/or pdoc? There is help out there, but it can just be difficult and/or scary sometimes to reach out and find it. I had to resort to Google maps, searching for "psychiatrist" in my city area and then browsing through the little bubbles that popped up on the map. Whatever works, though. Sometimes making the phone calls can be the hardest part. You might need to ask around to see if anyone has a sliding scale. If you're unemployed, you might need to search online for how to apply for Medicaid or some other form of assistance. It can be really tough for someone who is in the midst of a mental health crisis, but you can do it. If push comes to shove, you can go to the ER and ask if they have a psychiatric nurse or anyone who can help you go through the process of applying to available assistance resources. Just don't give up, there are options.

[Fuzzybear]

[CopperStar]

Also, there is no need to feel embarrassed about telling medical staff what you are experiencing. Trust me, they have seen and heard it all before, because many people experience psychosis. It's not common, but it's also not extremely rare. They understand it, and they have procedures for helping people who are experiencing psychosis. This can also unlock the doors to avenues of help that you may not know exist yet. For example, the bit about hospitals that have psychiatric nurses. Usually they will be responsible and assist you in moving in a direction of help outside the hospital. This can be one of the hardest things in the world if you have paranoia, but try to have faith and hang in there.

[raspberrytorte]

I understand how it feels to have paranoia and hallucinations and how terrifying it can be. I have experienced it, though usually when it happens to me I become immobile with fear.

Just wanted you to know you're not alone.

And, as copper said, don't be embarassed to talk about it. If anything, you could have told the ambulance people you were having a panic attack or something.