[Victoria'smom]

They can do whatever they need to but I'm canceling any further appointments. My husband can leave me if he must. If in the future I am involuntary committed I'll take it until I get out and that's it. I'm done. I'll take my son to his appointments but that's it. I dealt before and I will again. If my son hates me for it that's his choice. I wasn't and never will be abusive or neglectful. This is my choice. Now to tell my husband.

[raspberrytorte]

Wait. You're going to stop taking your meds? Are you going to taper?

[Victoria'smom]

I'm not going to taper, just dumping them. It'll be he'll of a withdrawal but I'll make it.

[Blue_Bird]

Not saying it's okay to taper off the rest of your meds but you really don't want to come off Lamictal cold turkey as it's an anti seizure med and can cause seizures if stopped suddenly. I did it with Depakote and it was horrible

[Shadesofdark]

I know your upset now, I cant speak as to your personal situation, but the only person you will hurt by stopping your Effexor is you, and that's about a guarantee. I can't speak for your other drugs, but please please please consider a taper for at least the Effexor, and perhaps some of the others. Coming off of Effexor was one of the hardest things I have ever done, and I did not do cold turkey. Please consider a taper for all your meds.

Sorry to see you so upset, I hope things resolve for you soon.

[Crazy Hitch]

(((migs))) I'm sorry that this is what you feel that you are left to resort to do

When I went cold turkey .... it didn't end well.

Take care and let us know how it goes.

Cold turkey was very harsh.

[Edgar's Mom]

I had to come off of Effexor cold turkey and it was hell. I will never forget it. It was horrible!

I saw in another thread that you said you get mixed/psychotic in the fall :-/ I hope you are going to be okay MM...

If you don't mind me asking, what triggered this? Is it your pdoc? If so, can you find another one?

[raspberrytorte]

Smart thing to do would be to taper. Good luck.

[coffeebuzzbuzz]

I agree, please at least try to wean yourself if necessary. Cold turkey will probably make you feel worse. Can you talk to someone you trust? I don't really know you, but this doesn't sound good.

[wiretwister]

please don't do this ....

[HALLIEBETH87]

Are you doing this for attention?

[Victoria'smom]

I can wean the lamictal @ 50mg a week for a month but I only have enough of 1/2 the other meds for less than a week.

Why I'm doing this: I've always hated meds and taken them in fear of divorce, hospitalization, or myself committing a crime. I no longer fear those things. If I walk into my clinic without being medicated I risk long term hospitalization until I'm compliment. I'm an adult and I have yet to commit a crime yet I'm treated as a criminal. So there goes the meds. Plus given last Tuesday episode meds aren't working.

My T :'0 has threatened hospitalization more than once. I know he won't be comfortable working with me off meds. Anyway he diagnosed me pd nos and has not explained it at all. He let my check out sheet tell me. I've lost what very little respect I have of him.

I don't want a new t or pdoc the same thing will happen.

I'm still going to be around but unmedicated.

Very poor decision once again for you and your family.

[kimber1234]

I can't lie- I've dreamt of doing what you're doing so many times. Mine includes just running away so I don't have to deal with anyone. While I know my family would care, I realized the only person that would hurt is me.

Please re-think the strategy. Find another p-doc who will recommend a natural alternative to meds. Go to one and if he/she doesn't agree with that strategy- just find another. Maybe your general practitioner will help...

Thinking of you *hugs*

[Curiosity77]

Did something happen? Why are you deciding to do this now? It seems pretty drastic, and the chances it will make you sick are pretty high. Others have suggested tapering, and I agree with that if you are intent on stopping everything, but I'm wondering your reason. If you have issues with particular meds you could stop or switch those maybe? Being involuntary sucks, I hated it. But stopping everything cold turkey doesn't fix that problem, and actually makes it likely that you will be kept involuntary longer. Hugs

[Victoria'smom]

I'm going to taper with what I have halving pills but it doesn't give me a lot to taper. I'm sick and tired of the whole system. I'm sick of feeling trapped in it like any move I make can/will hospitalize me. I'm sick of people "knowing what's best" for me. Of not telling me **** for "my best interest". I'm sick of weekly appointments, weigh ins, Dr visits and nurses visits. I'm sick of " what thoughts are you having?", the medicab and insurance telling me no. I'm sick of every word I say being weight against others reality. Im sick of withdraw every time i forget my meds. I'm a ****ing adult without a criminal history treated like a child that everyone fears. I'm willing to keep the abilify shot but knowing insurance won't let me.

Maybe I'm in episode
Maybe it's that the medicab didn't pick me up and all the **** I had to do to fix that
Maybe it's because t never had a conversation about the PD nos even though he dx me in July
Maybe it's that insurance keeps denying my shot.
Maybe because of last Tuesday
Maybe because I don't see t for another 3 wks
Or who knows what else.

I know I have to live with this my whole life but I don't have to live with it inside the mental health system.

[A Red Panda]

Well....

One reason why you are expected to be compliant: Miguel.
A second reason why you are expected to be compliant: your entire life is paid for by the government. If you don't want help, stop taking money.

The medications are to keep you stable. You may have never been violent, but you KNOW that you have homicidal thoughts and the medication is to help make sure that you don't act on them. When someone is experiencing psychosis they aren't going to act like they normally would. You know that.

You're not being responsible.

Are you upset because of the pd diagnosis?

[Victoria'smom]

I'm not upset of the added dx. It's kinda like you have a cold (bp) and asthma (PD). I am upset that he didn't tell me before I was hit with it at checkout. Has yet to explain it to me. Even thoughI've seen him 5 x since. Where I even talked about my brother that has ASPD. He never said Where bp ends and PD begins. How it effects my treatment. Why that instead of anything else. I already didn't have high regard but the way he handled this I have no respect for him. I'm not bothered by the dx because teasing out why I'm high risk and my thought issues.

[Victoria'smom]

I don't feel the medication helps me from acting on my thoughts. If it's because of personality disorder it won't help. I Always want off medicine. Unless I am currently psychotic that should be my choice. If my husband fears for my child he can choose to leave with him. The money I receive is not contingent on me being med compliant.

[Victoria'smom]

Unless I'm psychotic right now?

[BadWolfC]

If the problem is with your doctor, then find a new one. I did, and now I'm completely fine. It takes some time to find what works for you. It took me years to finally be put on the right medication. If you feel the medication isn't working for you, then try different ones. There are plenty of options out there.