Everything is getting so insanely complicated... need advice?

Ok... so I'm out of the hospital... on 150 Trazodone and 40 Celexa... the doctors, in their infinite wisdom, did not put me back on a stabilizer. Already, I'm having trouble sleeping on the Trazodone, which says a lot being that I weigh like 115 soaking wet. Then, I can't stay asleep on account of the dreams... and nightmares. I feel like a rat in a cage... can't sit still, my mind is like an old school air popcorn popper. Can't hold a thought to save my life. Don't get in to the p-doc til June 19. It's like they are discrediting the diagnosis of bipolar because it was given by a family doc... I had past doctors ready to give the same diagnosis, only I always bolted before they could give it. Past history... I go on an anti-depressant, and eventually, I feel better... REALLY damn good... I go off and I barely sleep and all that good stuff, and it carries me along for awhile, but then, whack, I crash so fast, so hard, I end up sobbing in the doctors office or I check myself in. Should I get the records from the other p-docs and my other hospitalizations and march in there with them? I'm scared.

marching in there with the paperwork isn't a bad idea...the racing thoughts and sleeplessness is pretty scary I know..the way you describe your mind is pretty scary..it's YOU and your health this is about take a stand, no?

How about a call first to new pdoc to discuss your issues with med changes?