[vjdragonfly]

at the thought of calling your pdoc about a mood change? In the back of my mind I know I need to call, I'm just scared they will try to have me admitted for things I done last weekend. It wouldn't be so bad if I didn't have my son to care for, but I can't just be out of the picture. What would you do?

In my experience, the impulse to call right away is a normal human reaction. I've had that panicky "oh no it's not working!" Only because it's a reminder of the instability we were just living.

I wouldn't call right away, but rather chart it. I get these...I call them "phantom cycles"...that come out of no where, happen, disappear, and it's then over with and back to stability.

I don't know where you are in treatment, if you've been stabile or going through the med search...but I'd hold off till my next appointment.

Now if it's continuous and causing daily instability, then I would consult my mental health care provider right away and try to get in for a med adjustment.

I hope that it gets better for you hun, it's a bit of work, but worth it when you find that sweet spot with meds and therapy.

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I have been stable for years up until this year and I had to have my lamictal increased a couple of times. Still on a low dose. I don't call unless I really need to, but this time I feel REALLY anxious about calling do to me SI last weekend. I don't know what they will do if I tell them that. I don't even know if I ever have told them I've done it in the past. This time has just been the worst. I'm doing better, partly why I done it was do to a bad situation I was in. I just don't feel ok anymore. It don't help my husband told me I have been off keel, but he was saying a lot of other things too. I'm fighting with it and for the first time I'm scared to be honest with my pdoc.

Originally Posted by vjdragonfly

I have been stable for years up until this year and I had to have my lamictal increased a couple of times. Still on a low dose. I don't call unless I really need to, but this time I feel REALLY anxious about calling do to me SI last weekend. I don't know what they will do if I tell them that. I don't even know if I ever have told them I've done it in the past. This time has just been the worst. I'm doing better, partly why I done it was do to a bad situation I was in. I just don't feel ok anymore. It don't help my husband told me I have been off keel, but he was saying a lot of other things too. I'm fighting with it and for the first time I'm scared to be honest with my pdoc.

Oh huh, I see. I'm sorry. I would call but not say anything about the SI because if I had my meds right, I wouldn't be SIing.

No telling what they would do...could go either way.

How much Lamictal are you taking?

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I take 150 mg, I just don't know what to say to them and at that I have to leave a message on the nurse line, then they talk to my pdoc (supposedly) and then they get back to me. kinda hard to express what is going on in a voice message.

250 is about a therapeutic dose. I would just tell them that your meds are not working and things are unstabile and that you need to get in for an adjustment.

In January I was on 300 mg Lamictal, was not well, SIing and drinking crazy. I ended up in the ER then committed to psych for 2 weeks. All that actually got done was increasing my dose to 400 mg and all the crazy has stopped and things are fine now.

If it's been going for awhile, and listening to you, you sound vexed, I'd wouldn't hesitate to call them. They work for you. To get in faster, I'd tell them I'm having thoughts to self harm but not wanting too. I've used that before. Good luck Hun!

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Thanks AlwaysChanging, it is hard to admit in my mind that anything is wrong because I have been stable for years. I just need to suck it up and do it.

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Well I made the call, my anxiety went out the roof. Had to take a clonopin to chill out. Now the waiting game begins and all those thoughts that go with it. I hope they will call and discuss my issue before they go making med changes.

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The nurse called back today and I told her what had happened, I even got up the nerve to tell her I SI'd and was having those dark thoughts. She said she would tell my pdoc and she asked me if I wanted to go back to a T, definitely yes!!! They are going to put in a referral. So waiting to hear back with what the pdoc wants to do. She did mention I should think about going to the hospital, but I told her that is not an option, I HAVE to care for my son.

Good for you in calling, vj! It's the right thing to do with the situation you have going on. Hope it all works out and things get better for you soon.

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Originally Posted by Innerzone

Good for you in calling, vj! It's the right thing to do with the situation you have going on. Hope it all works out and things get better for you soon.

Thanks Innerzone, good to see you are still around my friend.

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Update: they put me back on Prozac 20mg still waiting to here about my T.