[raspberrytorte]

I've been completely off of clonazepam for seven days now. Weaning off of it was one of the worst experiences of my life. Quite horrific. Something that was so horrible to get off of couldn't have been very healthy for me!

So now I have this urge to go all the way and get off everything else too! I'm mad at meds right now. And I feel better anyway.

I'm just sick of worrying about side effects and long term side effects. I'm sure I'm not the only one who worries about stuff like that!

And then I get it in my little brain that there's really nothing wrong with me anyway and all of my past situations were caused by meds because most of them really were.

(I haven't stopped anything. I told my husband I wanted to and he got really upset and wanted to know why I wanted to do that when I'm finally doing better.)

Sorry about another going off of meds thread.

But does anyone else feel that all of your mood situations were actually caused by meds?

[lunaticfringe]

I don't worry that my moods are caused by my meds but I definitely worry about the long term effects of these drugs. When I think about going med free it is usually because I get really mad and just want to be able to be myself with no meds. I get upset thinking that my natural self just isn't ok for the world and I need to be medicated so my friends and family don't have to deal with the fact that I'm different than they are.

[Capriciousness]

Hey,

That all makes a lot of sense. I too have wondered about certain things that happened in the past and whether it was the meds or the BP. Actually I do believe i had a lot of stuff from the meds.

I want you to be safe though and obviously I don't know your whole deal. but it doesn't seem like a crazy longing.

Would you consider cleaning out and trying a different med?

Congrats on getting off the klons. Sorry it was torture for you.

My latest post may interest you. hugs

[raspberrytorte]

I don't really have any noticeable side effects from either of them, except that geodon makes my left eye twitchy on occasion and I'm pretty sure lamictal is making me lose hair.

I've been thinking more about this and since both meds seem to be working well, I think I'm associating getting off my meds to being magically cured and being able to put everything behind me.

Stupid.

[BleakGeek]

Meds suck but they are the only thing keeping me from getting any worse. I realize my brain is broken and I need to stay on meds to normalize my moods. Be careful going off any meds. I would talk to your pdoc first. Some people have lost their marriage as a result of going off meds.

[raybo]

have had horrible results going off my meds. side effects suck & that is the price for my near normalcy!

[vjdragonfly]

The long term effects of the meds, I try not to think about. I know I'm doing better on the meds and I'm not having such a huge impact on the ones I love. Yes, I still have a small episode here or there, but for the most party I'm doing ok. So, I would really think hard about taking the chance on going back to what you were and going through that all again and the effects it has on the ones who love you. I agree with BlackGeek, talk to your pdoc first if really are wanting to do it.

[raspberrytorte]

I'm not going to anymore. I talked to my husband about it again and he really got upset, so I promised him I would stay on them.

[wiretwister]

Originally Posted by raspberrytorte

I'm not going to anymore. I talked to my husband about it again and he really got upset, so I promised him I would stay on them.

every time I got a wild hair and played with my meds my wife would ride me like a pony ... she said she could see the effects when I could not tell any ... all good to me ... all fu**ed up to her ... she could tell even when I denied it ... so I began to believe her .... that and withdrawal (bad) has me just accepting it ... I will take them ....

strange as it seems just to see it in print that your trying causes me to want too ... no worries I'm not ....

[Captainc]

Is there a supplement to help with the hair loss? Biotin, folate, or something like that?

[neverending]

I have been on meds around 40 years. No ling term side effects yet other than I have become very sensitive to meds n have to take lower dosages.

Anti d always flares up the hypo....but without it, I suck at life....so I need a stabilizer to take anti D

[Ripose]

Everybody should read Anatomy Of An Epidemic by Robert Whitiker

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Centrum silver can help with hair loss b/c it has selenium in it. I also took biotin for hair loss; not sure where I got the idea to do that. Both have helped several times when my hair has fallen out from meds or hormonal issues.

[gina_re]

My recent depression episode made me question what is the point of taking them if I still end up feeling like s***?? But in the long run, I do need them otherwise I wouldn't be able to continue supporting myself. I try not to worry about long term side effects either...I'll cross that bridge when I get to it.
Now I don't know about you all, but if I miss a dose, I feel it. I cannot function when I happen to skip a dose. Which is why I'm confused how other people do it. I know my dosage is high (current pdoc does want to change it) so I definitely feel the effects, but still...

[WibblyWobbly]

Whenever my family tells me there's nothing wrong with me I get crazy, waving my pill bottles around. "So I don't need these anymore? Well, I'll just stop taking them, then!" The fear in their eyes...

[ComfortablyNumb5]

Every time I stop my meds because "I'm better", I end up back at the bottom of a bottle and eventually back in IP. I heard someone put it this way, "if you're feeling good, then the meds are working so why stop them?" Just makes so much sense now.

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