[mattjstead]

3 days with no meds and I feel great! Maybe I've been miss diagnosed this whole time. Go figure !

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[scatterbrained04]

I literally had just said "**** bipolar!" We must be on the same wavelength.

[kimber1234]

I want to so badly! I also have an urge to run! Just run away and disappear from this life. I think I'm PMSing, but I get this way when I'm not, too! I don't want to hurt myself or others, I just want to not have to take all the mess and constantly be judged in my life by those who are afraid of me for no reason other than a label.

I'm a teacher and my admins know my disease. My coworkers know, too, and they don't know how to deal with me. I don't need to be dealt with! I just want to live my life as a "normal" person!

Sorry I'm ranting, but f#%<~{ bipolar!

[~Christina]

Check the half life of the meds you dropped then you will know when your meds are actually out of your system, and then you can see how your really feeling.

Good luck

[mattjstead]

I apologize for this post. It was at the end of a 5-6 day of I suppose mania/hypomanic episode. After having massive anxiety this afternoon I took my dose of Klonopin I should've been taking twice daily and it clicked me back to reality. I will be starting my medicine again tonight and even if I begin feeling "wired" or "go-go", I'll take my Trazadone to get the healthy 6-8 hours of sleep.

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[mattjstead]

Again, sorry for the post and to anyone diagnosed Bi-polar it is true what they say...the "Mania" is great...but you have to remember the flip side of "deep depression". Luckily I haven't and hope I don't hit the depression stage. I've been stable for a good year and this was the first manic episode I've had in a while and I was not used to detecting the signs (how quickly we forget). Don't go off your medication if your doing well...it's tempting (trust me..I would love the extra $150 a month I pay for medication)..but my mental stability is more important for me and more so my wife and son.
Sincerely,
Matt

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[mattjstead]

Originally Posted by scatterbrained04

I literally had just said "**** bipolar!" We must be on the same wavelength.

It is easy to say but I suppose it's the term, "The cross we bare." All we can do is try our best and bring awareness and help to those who don't have treatment...don't have a support system...don't have help. I believe in life all things happen for some reason, weather we see it or not. And so all we can do is use this "Disability" to not bring a "Awww poor you", but a "I didn't know that about Bi-Polar...now I can help some way even by being aware of the issue which is the first step to starting a change."

Be safe, stay strong,

Matt S.

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[Alone & confused]

Originally Posted by mattjstead

Again, sorry for the post and to anyone diagnosed Bi-polar it is true what they say...the "Mania" is great...but you have to remember the flip side of "deep depression". Luckily I haven't and hope I don't hit the depression stage. I've been stable for a good year and this was the first manic episode I've had in a while and I was not used to detecting the signs (how quickly we forget). Don't go off your medication if your doing well...it's tempting (trust me..I would love the extra $150 a month I pay for medication)..but my mental stability is more important for me and more so my wife and son.
Sincerely,
Matt

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No apologies needed. You're in a safe place here where you can rant if you want to. I've been off my meds for years out of total frustration from trying to find the right cocktail and eventually giving up! I have mood stabilizers that I still use at times, but it's also helping me lose weight so that's a plus for me. Anyway, good luck!

[WibblyWobbly]

Glad you're okay! Sadly, whenever I see someone here say they feel great, I assume they're hypo/manic. Gentle landings

[mattjstead]

Originally Posted by WibblyWobbly

Glad you're okay! Sadly, whenever I see someone here say they feel great, I assume they're hypo/manic. Gentle landings

Thanks. Sadly sleep hasn't come as easy. Wide awake. Even with Trazadone (dang). I'm sure tomorrow will be a day of anxiety spikes (when I get little sleep) which will suck. I've got 3 hours left maybe I can get at least a few hours sleep.

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[Mountainbard]

I agree with the sentiment of your title-- I've said it many times myself-- but I'm really glad you're getting stable again. As WibblyWobbly said when I see a post like your first one I fear the poster is going manic.