[flowergirl36]

Hi,

I experienced bipolar psychosis last year for about 6 months. I'm really traumatized by the experience. I want to know what has been your experience with psychosis? How did it feel while going through psychosis? How did you recover? I became increasingly paranoid and it felt like I was hypnotized. Like I didn't have control over anything I was thinking or doing and that really scares me. I also had massive counts of deja vu which really freaked me out.

[Imah]

What is Bipolar Psychosis? - HealthyPlace

I don't know if I have recovered, or ever will. Or if it is psychosis or if its some type of actual unfolding of the human psychic ability in its infancy. I just know that the things that happen to me interfere with things like school, jobs, family. So I try to save the world less psychically and just be focus on things I can touch.

I had bipolar mania/psychosis last year at this time. It was EXTREMELY traumatizing. Not just for me but for my husband, who witnessed it.
I would say it took me about six months for me to get back to where I didn't feel like the rug was going to be pulled out from me. During that time I could barely talk about the psychosis and what I experienced because it felt very raw, and at times I would stay up at night thinking about it and would just cry. I was really fragile at that time.
On the upside, I don't have any problems taking meds because I am still terrified it would happen again. It hasn't. Nowadays I can talk about what happened but it is still a painful subject. My therapist was really helpful- she specializes in trauma.
Anyway, I'm so sorry you went through that. Have hope, because it is going to get better. It just takes some time.

[cmorales]

Yeah, I've been delusional a few times in my life.

The last time, it came on slowly, beginning as mild paranoia and escalating to the point where I was staying up all night so space aliens wouldn't kidnap me in my sleep. This lasted for about 4 or 5 months and ended just as it began -- the delusion slowly faded into mild paranoia and finally dissipated.

Yes, but fortunately not too many times and it was pretty brief in duration. It was disturbing at the time, but I happened to be in the hospital when it happened and my pdoc got an immediate handle on it (within a few hours). I think the quick intervention kept it from becoming lasting or traumatizing for me.

[raspberrytorte]

Yeah, but I ended up in the hospital very quickly from it so it only lasted two weeks (?). I've given up ever feeling normal again. It'll be a year since it happened at the end of january. It changed me. I journal every day and it's painful for me to read my journal entries from before the experience because I'll never be that person again.

[wildflowerchild25]

I've been psychotic a couple of times. I once thought a demon was possessing me and forcing me to hurt myself. I also once thought my husband was trying to control me and turn me into a stepford wife through my medication. Then I started believing that people could read my thoughts and that someone was trying to kill me by getting me to kill myself. That ended with me stuck in the bathroom at a partial hospital program because I was too scared to come out. I didn't know who was trying to kill me so I was scared of everyone. It was traumatizing for sure. I did recover but to this day if I ever think of going off my meds I just think of that time and then I stay on them.

[Blue_Bird]

I used to think the government was out to get me. It really stressed me out to the point of making me suicidal. I thought they were going to frame me for some horrific crime I never did. I also thought my doctor/therapist and people at the clinic I go to were messing with me. I no longer have those issues on Invega Sustenna

[ensconce]

Originally Posted by flowergirl36

Hi,

I experienced bipolar psychosis last year for about 6 months. I'm really traumatized by the experience. I want to know what has been your experience with psychosis? How did it feel while going through psychosis? How did you recover? I became increasingly paranoid and it felt like I was hypnotized. Like I didn't have control over anything I was thinking or doing and that really scares me. I also had massive counts of deja vu which really freaked me out.

Psychosis is more scary for the people around me than it is for me honestly. I didn't feel anything at all. I get completely emotionless when I go through psychosis. The last time I had psychosis really bad it started to go away on its own after a few months. So it peaked for a while then I crashed and then I went to another phase where I was just having panic attacks and really bad anxiety.

[cashart10]

The longest I have been psychotic is 6 months. Psychosis is difficult both for me and for those around me. As mentioned, it is very tramatizing and leaves me in fear of the future.

I hope you find relief and peace about your situation soon. For me, now 3 years past that horrible time, I still find myself in fear of the future. The thought of not having control of my thoughts or my actions is terrifying.

[The_little_didgee]

I don't know if my experience counts or not, because the "mania" was caused by Prozac, shortly after the dose was increased to 60 mg.

It didn't take long for the drug reaction to manifest itself. I think it took about three days. It started with agitation and extreme irritability. I lost the need for sleep and food. My weight dropped about 15 pounds during that hellish week. I don't remember everything. I know I had this urge to wonder and search for someone who had secrets. I believed God was communicating with me. The police took me to the hospital, because I appeared in a building all confused and incoherent. I spent a night in the hospital and left without my belongings. I remember asking strangers for wine. I don't drink so that was really out of character. I also let a stranger in my apartment, which was also out of character. My judgement was obviously impaired. I could have gotten assaulted.

My head started to clear because I was no longer taking the Prozac. It took about two months to recover from this terrible experience. I was very embarrassed especially when my neighbors told me about my behavior and coherent speech.

[flowergirl36]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I used to think the government was out to get me. It really stressed me out to the point of making me suicidal. I thought they were going to frame me for some horrific crime I never did. I also thought my doctor/therapist and people at the clinic I go to were messing with me. I no longer have those issues on Invega Sustenna

Wow! Your situation seems just like mine. I'm also on Invega and feel much better.

[Nammu]

I've only had psychosis during the depressive stage. To me it's real...it makes other uncomfortable.

[jacky8807]

Yeah it was pretty traumatic when I had a complete break. Took me a while to get fully back to reality and even longer for my brain to not feel busted.

[Keegan2015]

Yes, over the late Spring / Early Summer. I had extremely paranoid and delusional thoughts. Was hearing voices that weren't there. Thought that the people on the TV were talking about me. Had this bizarre delusion that I was being stalked by the local police department and that people were trying to break into my house at night. Very strange.

[flowergirl36]

Originally Posted by cmorales

Yeah, I've been delusional a few times in my life.

The last time, it came on slowly, beginning as mild paranoia and escalating to the point where I was staying up all night so space aliens wouldn't kidnap me in my sleep. This lasted for about 4 or 5 months and ended just as it began -- the delusion slowly faded into mild paranoia and finally dissipated.

I also thought I was abducted by aliens! It's amazing all the parallels I'm finding with my situation on these posts.

[flowergirl36]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

I've been psychotic a couple of times. I once thought a demon was possessing me and forcing me to hurt myself. I also once thought my husband was trying to control me and turn me into a stepford wife through my medication. Then I started believing that people could read my thoughts and that someone was trying to kill me by getting me to kill myself. That ended with me stuck in the bathroom at a partial hospital program because I was too scared to come out. I didn't know who was trying to kill me so I was scared of everyone. It was traumatizing for sure. I did recover but to this day if I ever think of going off my meds I just think of that time and then I stay on them.

Thank you for your feedback. I'm glad you recovered.

[flowergirl36]

Originally Posted by The_little_didgee

I don't know if my experience counts or not, because the "mania" was caused by Prozac, shortly after the dose was increased to 60 mg.

It didn't take long for the drug reaction to manifest itself. I think it took about three days. It started with agitation and extreme irritability. I lost the need for sleep and food. My weight dropped about 15 pounds during that hellish week. I don't remember everything. I know I had this urge to wonder and search for someone who had secrets. I believed God was communicating with me. The police took me to the hospital, because I appeared in a building all confused and incoherent. I spent a night in the hospital and left without my belongings. I remember asking strangers for wine. I don't drink so that was really out of character. I also let a stranger in my apartment, which was also out of character. My judgement was obviously impaired. I could have gotten assaulted.

My head started to clear because I was no longer taking the Prozac. It took about two months to recover from this terrible experience. I was very embarrassed especially when my neighbors told me about my behavior and coherent speech.

Thank you for sharing your experience. I also thought God was communicating with me which kind of freaked me out. I could hear an audible voice and I thought it was God. I'm glad to hear you recovered, especially in 2 months. It's taking me a bit longer but hopefully I'll come around.

[topgun263]

I got pretty much the same symptoms as described above by various sufferers.

I used to think that everybody is my enemy. Government is after me for the crime that I have not done. I was the savior having special abilities. Everybody around me is working in secret agency and working with me or against me. Google and other companies and hackers are tracking me through cell phone.

I used to think I did something because of which news channels showed the news because of my event.

Mild psychosis, I think. Short term during mania.

Sensory stuff and paranoia

I became convinced the people I worked with and customers were out to get me. So much so that I snapped one day convinced a customer was attacking me. I thought at the time I was going to die. I still remember that experience through the eyes of fear and being attacked but I the incident has been described to me differently. At the time I was so terrified it would happen again or that the staff wanted to hurt me - both emotionally AND physically - that I quit my job,packed up my belongings and ran 1600km away. I basically spent a year in a cottage in a very isolated situation. I was convinced people were out to get me and 'surfaced' only when I needed groceries and supplies. After about 9 months I realized I couldn't live that way forever and sought help. Since then I have had two additional bouts of the paranoia, but have sought help early on.

[mtnannie]

Yes, I've had crippling delusions with auditory hallucinations. The worst part was feeling so fragile all the time. Latuda reduced my symptoms about 98%, but still hear things occasionally. The problem I have now is that I have trouble trusting my observations or thoughts about what is real. Working on that with my therapist. Anyone have that kind of after effect? Wishing you all the best in this new year, and keep seeking until you find what you need. Blessings.

[LorrieTorrie]

I only had full blown psychosis once. I thought the world was ending. There was another time when I had a mini episode. I thought I held the secret to winning the lottery. I had started looking at homes and cars. I stopped paying my bills, and worrying about money. I stopped worrying about work, and I just waited for my numbers to be called. Ha!

[steven w]

Im a rapid cycler and have experienced pyschotic episodes, but they were short lived at no more than a couple weeks. When I say pscychotic, I mean losing all logical thought. The first time I almost committed suicide and was placed in a psyche ward for, if I remember correctly, 14 days. It happened a second time and I put myself in early just in case I was to hurt myself again. If it happens again, I will do the same. My insurance doesn't cover hospitalization in that case which means I will probably owe them as long as I live. At least I'm still here. Hang in there, talk to your pdoc and nip that crazy in the butt. Good luck

[Slowbrains]

I don't really know what is exactly count as psychosis? Lost connection to reality? I have really disturbing Obsessive thoughts, but they've been around so long time that i can push them away and still function normally. I really am curious about all this because somehow i don't realize how messed up i am. I thought it was all normal before i was on seroquel for some time.