can't sleep.

I need to sleep. Tomorrow is a big day. But as usual I can't fall asleep. I've taken PRN klonopin and just took 5 mg of PRN hydroxyzine (which I have to bite to get that dose and it is nasty tasting but it's too tiny to cut and if I took 10 mg they'd not be able to get information out of me at admission).

I keep thinking that this is my last night to sleep in darkness, with my warm flannel sheets and blankets (my hospital is an iceberg and I have layers of clothes packed and probably should add a shirt to sleep in under the fleece one in case) and no kitties and ugh.

I've never been so glad to go to the hospital before. But I need to seep. Guess it's time to try to read again. something has to work. Maybe warm milk. Every so often that helps and I am cold b/c I got out of bed, which is unfortunately where the milk is.

I hate anxiety.

Ahhh that sucks especially since you have a big day tomorrow. I'm sure you know all the try to sleep remedies (don't all of us with bipolar?) Lol so all I can offer is my hope you get rest and positive energy for a helpful hospital stay

Thanks. I gave in and decided to look weird and added a band-aid to yet another picked at cuticle (I'm up to needing 3 and really 4) so hopefully I'll quit picking at that and that may help me sleep too. 3-4 AM is pretty normal for me so with the anxiety it is just hard to have a good night. I really hope the nurses don't make me remove my bandaids because I have these fancy ones that stick for about 7 days and since they are just preventing me from picking I really need them to last. Otherwise I pick the bandaid off and go through tons of them and still pull the skin off the cuticles. I'm trying to figure out how to justify bringing my own bandaids but somehow I have a feeling that wouldn't be allowed for some reason. Like it strange and I'm pushing it anyway. I know I'm allowed things if visitors bring them and I don't have visitors so I'm bringing them myself---herbal tea bags b/c the hospital tea is icky and prunes and dried apricots for obvious reasons. Another reason I really want a private room. But even a room on the curtain side is something. For whatever reason the by the door beds don't have a curtain and so they get no privacy and all the light at night. I have done that once and it was hard and they weren't taking away my sedative. If that happens I'll be asking for a curtain side bed when someone leaves.

I'm feeling sleepy again but not quite enough to turn the light out. Maybe if I read a bit. I keep hoping I'll just drift off.

Me too, hate anxiety and not sleeping
I always hear that about folks being cold with only a thin blanket in hospital. That makes me really mad, not cool! Can you bring a special blanket?

I am taking 2. I sleep with a weighted blanket that calms me and so I've got that (10 lbs of it) and a fleece fuzzy blanket that won't be that warm but it's soft. They'll give me as many blankets as I want but it's not quite the same as my cozy bed at home. No cats for one thing and I like to seep with a lot of big heavy blankets plus my weighted blanket at home is 22 lb.s so it's very differnt Ip. But I have warm pajamas and layers of clothing and this time I am not going to freeze. In August for some reason I only took short sleeved shirts and I wound up wearing the same jacket all day every day plus all night in my 30 hour ER stay. Not so fresh feeling by teh time I came home. They have laundry but I didn't need it so I just kept wearing my jacket. This time I have fleece and t-shirts to layer every day. And snuggly socks. I refuse to be cold.

Oh phew, you should be warm for sure!

My sleep schedule is all messed up. I've got to get it back on track....

Well last night I had off but because I
A. Don't sleep well anyway. And
B. Am getting use to 11_7 schedule, I didn't sleep last night .either.i spent it watching random tutorials on you tube and wishing I was in Jamaica
This morning I made cheese burgers but on bagels (they were so good) so I guess that's a wrap. Now I'm sitting here wide eyed thinking I NEED to sleep now because I work tonight but I can't and don't want to
I will be suffering tonight!

I was up all night. Cold but electric blanket was on high. My anxiety is over the top. My body aches. Glad I see the therapist this morning. If I don't talk with you again before you go IP, good luck!

I hope you were able to get some sleep last night. I know the anxious feeling of being torn. Wanting the comforts of home but needing the help of a hospital. I'm so glad you were able to go to the one where you can bring your blankets. I do hope you get a bed with a curtain, those lights make it even harder to sleep...and the night round with people poking their heads into your space all night doesn't help either. We can understand why they do it but it doesn't make it easier.

Hopefully yer on the way and checking in by now.

Hope you were able to sleep, rainbow! Anxiety sucks, and it's always hard sleeping in the hospital. I was mostly okay at first, but last couple of nights I was awake every half hour. Very frustrating.

We're going to miss you! I hope everything goes smoothly!

Big hugs.