the stress

I've been experiencing huge amounts of stress recently, and it's all stress related to stupid things like driving my husband to work or my daughter to school or going to work.

This stress is horrible. I'm so overwhelmed with all of the mundane tasks of my day. I wish I could sleep all day.

I'm so overwhelmed! This stress is really wearing on me.

Last night I took a bunch of gabapentin and a handful of cogentin because I can't handle my life right now. I woke up today so drugged out I could barely walk and I was slurring. I can't handle stupid daily functions.

I was writing in my journal the other night and came to the realization that the way I've been feeling lately can't be normal and that something is obviously wrong.

I don't know. How do you guys handle stress?

For those who don't know, my pdoc is weaning me off of lamictal right now for some stupid reason. I think it's just because she doesn't like lamictal and just loves depakote and I can't take both at the same time. This way stressed out/depressed feeling happened a few days after my dose of lamictal was cut down 50mg. Coincidence?

I spent a few days just pissed off too and throwing **** around and then crying, and then getting angry about whatever and throwing more **** around, and then crying again. One day at work I became so enraged I actually started throwing things at my job and swearing. Luckily I work alone, but I think my boss may have heard me. So now I'm sure she's telling everyone about my tantrum.

Maybe I don't care though. Everyone knows I have problems anyway.

Raspberry...do you think it might be prudent to have someone dole out your meds for you? I don't know if your husband would be willing but you seem to be very impulsive with overdosing. Its dangerous. I'm sure you don't want to go ip again but if I had done what you did my dr would have called the cops on me then and there. You may not see it as serious but it is. It's concerning that you could be so blasé about taking an overdose.

I'm not trying to condem you; I am in the same boat. I just care about you and worry for your safety.

As I said I am in the same boat. Little tasks seem absolutely insurmountable. Just the ordinary functions of life such as making my son dinner and playing with him are overwhelming. I am in the throes of a debilitating depression. You are clearly feeling some type of way (to borrow a phrase from my students). i really have no advice except to hold on and hope the depakote works for you. I know that's not much.

I just want you to know someone understands and cares.

Thanks wildflower.

My husband is holding my meds for me. It was pill dispensing night and he doesn't watch me do that. I didn't think I'd taken that much. I wasn't trying to kill myself. I was just so overwhelmed. I felt really good the rest of the night.

I know if my pdoc found out she'd throw my *** in the hospital.

I just don't know what to do. I feel physically sick.

I hope we both feel better soon.

Thinking of you. *hugs*

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I worry about you, my friend! Your family loves you and so do we. I want you to be safe, not wreckless. Your life is invaluable!

I hate to repeat myself, but I use grounding skills. They have a great list of them on the PTSD forum. Those help me with stress...

Also, I think you should give the depakote some time to work. It's always helped me, I would just give it a chance.

Thanks everyone.

I feel even more depressed and anxious today than I felt yesterday. I called my pdoc and am waiting for a nurse to call back. I hope she does before work.

I haven't had an episode of depression in three years (my depressions usually last three months more or less), and the last one went away when my lamictal dosage was increased to 300mg, so I think this is because of the dose decrease.

Sigh. I hate dealing with this!

I was just about to say that it may be the decrease in Lamictal if it all started it with that. You may have mentioned this before, but can you get another pdoc that is more in line with you regarding your treatment?

I don't know what to do. Where I live you have to get a referal from your primary, so I can't call myself and get on a waiting list (I tried) and my primary really had to pull strings to get me in to see this person.

I have to make an appointment to get a physical anyway, so I can talk to her about it and see if she can do anything. I feel stuck.

I bet anything it's you coming off the Lamictal. Did you fight your doctor about weaning off of it.? I'm sorry you are so stressed. Hang in there.

Yea! My pdoc was out of the office and one of the other psychiatrists there said I can go back up on my lamictal dose.

I think it'll help. Should be back to normal in a couple of days.