[venusss]

And how do you manage it?

I bought today a blank notebook and wrote some concepts on random pages (the gratitude page, few pages about my city, idiot collection, page of hopes, page of fears, bad news page, some places for drawing, mood word page, dream journal, things that saved my life, good people list). I noticed I made more negative/cynical pages, but might be not a bad thing, since I may need to get it out of my system.

I also have place for the "project" of hopping on random tram and going to the final stop and writing about it. And page for nail polish swatches, just cause....

Ever tried such thing? A journal you carry around and do random stuff with it? What things you done?

Sounds very fun and interesting! I wanna try it out

[raspberrytorte]

I has one. I've been journaling for years.

[ComfortablyNumb5]

When I did carry one it was all writing. Mostly when I was depressed so they were rather dark. Poetry and stuff. They actually got me in a lot of trouble and I ended up in IP because of the things I wrote. Not fun.

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[Unrigged64072835]

I used to but lately I've been writing all my thoughts on the computer.

[venusss]

Originally Posted by RxQueen875

When I did carry one it was all writing. Mostly when I was depressed so they were rather dark. Poetry and stuff. They actually got me in a lot of trouble and I ended up in IP because of the things I wrote. Not fun.

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:O

How can writing get you in trouble?

[ComfortablyNumb5]

Originally Posted by venusss

:O

How can writing get you in trouble?

Because it had suicidal undertones and ideation. I went home and burned them all when I got out of IP.

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[venusss]

So it is better to keep the suicidal thoughts in your system and never express them? Or were you glad you went IP and got **** sorted?

Because right now I am reading "I got in trouble for expressing myself" and if that is the case, that's pretty sad....

[jacky8807]

Originally Posted by RxQueen875

When I did carry one it was all writing. Mostly when I was depressed so they were rather dark. Poetry and stuff. They actually got me in a lot of trouble and I ended up in IP because of the things I wrote. Not fun.

Dx: BP2, PTSD, bulimia/anorexia
Seroquel 150mgs
Risperdal 4mg
Trileptal 600mgs
Buspar 45mgs
Ativan 1mg PRN
Vyvance 70mgs PRN

Wow if I actually showed ppl what I have written at times I would be locked up forever then !

[LettinG0]

I have always had trouble journaling.....

But your idea sounds awesome.....I might need to try it to see if I can at least get the creative juices flowing again....thanks for the idea

[boydisappearing]

I wrote a poem about realizing I had an impact on the world while I was hospitalized, it was actually about realizing that I wasn't alone. I wrote it on the whiteboard in my hospital room, and the psychiatrist thought it was about suicide. I erased it and didn't show anyone else any writing just in case.

[gayleggg]

I tried to do a creative journal but every time I started to enter something in I became dumb struck and couldn't think creatively so I opted for a more traditional digital journal. It allows me to add photos, feelings, and other just general ideas including creative ideas. The only thing I can't add is drawings which would be nice. But at least I can password protect it.

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[bipolarbrother]

Originally Posted by venusss

I noticed I made more negative/cynical pages, but might be not a bad thing, since I may need to get it out of my system.

It's ok to write negative emotions down to "get it out of your system" but I find keeping those notes will only bring back sadness & grief. Jot down things like, "I'm feeling depressed today" or "I'm not having a good day" to help you keep track of your moods. But if you put intense negative emotions in writing, it is important to dispose of it, or better yet, burn it. This signifies that you have fully released all those negative emotions. It is unhealthy to keep those notes around. I hope this helps.

[venusss]

Do I so I am like 70% finished with it.

I actually showed the non verbal parts to my students and they were impressed

[cashart10]

Originally Posted by RxQueen875

When I did carry one it was all writing. Mostly when I was depressed so they were rather dark. Poetry and stuff. They actually got me in a lot of trouble and I ended up in IP because of the things I wrote. Not fun.

Dx: BP2, PTSD, bulimia/anorexia
Seroquel 150mgs
Risperdal 4mg
Trileptal 600mgs
Buspar 45mgs
Ativan 1mg PRN
Vyvance 70mgs PRN

I have kept a journal on and off for years. However, as you, I learned to restrain.

Possible trigger:

My mom was worried (well, she didn't just suspect it; she knew it) I was suicidal when I was in high school so she went through ALL my ****! In my journal I had writings in my blood, prayers to demons, suicidal song lyrics such as Pink Floyd's "Goodbye Cruel World." I had tons of suicidal ideation and even suicide notes. It was very, very dark and since I was so young it never occurred to me to be so cautious. My mom took it upon herself to burn everything that was perceived (and some that actually was) evil. I was embarrassed, humiliated, scared and resentful. But, I would do the same to my child if I suspected they were suicidal.

It did not lead to a hospital visit but it did eliminate my own room and kept me basically on lockdown. I don't ever want to experience that again regardless of how unwell I am.

[ComfortablyNumb5]

Originally Posted by cashart10

I have kept a journal on and off for years. However, as you, I learned to restrain.

Possible trigger:

My mom was worried (well, she didn't just suspect it; she knew it) I was suicidal when I was in high school so she went through ALL my ****! In my journal I had writings in my blood, prayers to demons, suicidal song lyrics such as Pink Floyd's "Goodbye Cruel World." I had tons of suicidal ideation and even suicide notes. It was very, very dark and since I was so young it never occurred to me to be so cautious. My mom took it upon herself to burn everything that was perceived (and some that actually was) evil. I was embarrassed, humiliated, scared and resentful. But, I would do the same to my child if I suspected they were suicidal.

It did not lead to a hospital visit but it did eliminate my own room and kept me basically on lockdown. I don't ever want to experience that again regardless of how unwell I am.

I had the exact same stuff in my journals. After I got home from IP I burned them. It's a shame because they really did help me and I've tried to start journals here and there oNly to get paranoid and throw it away. The closest thing to a journal is the stuff I share on this forum really!

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