[HALLIEBETH87]

So since the psychosis where I was hallucinating about spiders I am even more afraid of them. If I see movement in my peripheral I get panicked cause it might be one. And I'm always scared there's one crawling on me.

Last night I was sitting on my floor when my granny pointed out a spider was crawling RIGHT BESIDE MY LEG!! I about hurt myself trying to get away and stomped him with my shoe to the next world. It was hard to fall asleep cause I kept getting scared there was another one.

I know I'm not hallucinating and I was already afraid of them but am I always gonna think I'm seeing one or be SO afraid??

[gayleggg]

I'm so sorry Hallie. It must be awful. I hate them too.

[HALLIEBETH87]

Now that I'm relatively stable I just want this to stop. It's been over a month. :'(

[scatterbrained04]

I feel you. I went through a time where I'd see spiders too and also had tactile hallucinations of bugs crawling on me. Then one day I had a spider crawl on my arm. Made it soooo much worse. Eventually, it does get better. The fear does go away or at least lessen. *hugs*

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[HALLIEBETH87]

Should I tell my pdoc about this when I see him Tuesday?

Originally Posted by HALLIEBETH87

Should I tell my pdoc about this when I see him Tuesday?

Definitely!

He might be able to offer you some advice.

Besides, what's the worst that can happen? Worst case, he tells you to talk to your therapist. Best case, he helps you out. So, I think it's worth telling him.

[pirilin]

Happy Easter.

[HALLIEBETH87]

Thanks il tell him.

Happy Easter!!

[HALLIEBETH87]

Crazy thing? Since the psychosis, hospital stays and all the med changes (think like almost an overhaul) the irritability and angry outbursts they say is my bpd is gone. I know I've only been out a week and a half but it's crazy I haven't gotten annoyance and anger like I was before all this happened.

Don't get me wrong. Of course I still have traits of bpd but I'm wondering if either the meds are controlling my moods of bipolar and bpd or maybe I didn't really have bpd but simply traits.

Just a random thought I had. Either way I am surprised how well I am doing

[Wander]

Originally Posted by HALLIEBETH87

Crazy thing? Since the psychosis, hospital stays and all the med changes (think like almost an overhaul) the irritability and angry outbursts they say is my bpd is gone. I know I've only been out a week and a half but it's crazy I haven't gotten annoyance and anger like I was before all this happened.

Don't get me wrong. Of course I still have traits of bpd but I'm wondering if either the meds are controlling my moods of bipolar and bpd or maybe I didn't really have bpd but simply traits.

Just a random thought I had. Either way I am surprised how well I am doing

I used to be diagnosed with BPD but my current psychiatrist scrapped it and diagnosed Bipolar instead. The symptoms often mimmic each other, especially if you are rapid cycling or mixed. 1.5 years down the track and my psychiatrist is certain I don't have BPD and do have Bipolar. The new treatment has been much more effective and less stigmatised than when I was diagnosed BPD. Saying that I certainly do have some BPD traits but I think they come from the Complex PTSD stuff that came from being abused badly as a child.

[HALLIEBETH87]

I have PTSD from childhood abuse and I looked back over my dbt diary cards by week and OMG all I did was cycle last year. Like continuously it seems

[lilypup]

As for the spiders, I have developed driving and riding in a car anxiety. I am working on my T with this, but I think it could be the meds and my BP for sure.

If you actually have spiders in your house, I don't blame you for being nervous. Aren't spiders one of the top anxieties? I agree to talk to your T.

[Bipolar Warrior]

This sounds terrifying! I'm sorry. I've never experienced anything like it, but I'm always worried that there are spiders living under my bed. I hate them.

[Ocean Swimmer]

Sounds good that your Meds are working. Do you have a hand vacuum?
Like a dust buster?
I go around the house and suck webs up and spiders too,when I see em.
Right now I have ants. Tiny almost can't see em ants. I've been using only white sheets. Problem is I eat in bed and my kitty has her own sheet, but
She eats her dry food in bed too. Sounds sad, but I'm most safe in bed and read, watch my little DVD player and do Internet from my bed.

I go out to Living Room but start feeling uncomfortable after awhile.
My kitty stays with me in bed room. I move the bed around during the day.
Lucky no spiders, but ants yucky. I change sheets every 3 days.