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Old Apr 27, 2016, 08:11 PM
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So i used to post here a lot, but that was a long time ago and i've been fine. Anyways in the last week i've gotten hypomanic, maybe manic, and the hypersexuality has been the most intense part. I've done things i had never done before, and making plans to do even more intense things. I don't know how much detail is ok to put here, but basically just obsessed with sex. I met a guy in a club Friday night, and he is manic too, and we spent the entire weekend just having sex, and not eating or sleeping. I was ok monday, and went into work, but monday evening he came over and we were up all night again. I tried to go to work, but a friend who knows me well suggested i go home. So i did, and i took a bunch of quetiapine and slept around the clock. Went to work this morning and felt ok, but then i got super agitated and racing thoughts etc, and i had to leave. Work said i should take tomorrow off. My friends are concerned, and so am i, but it's hard to force a come down because it all feels amazing. Now i'm sluggish on quetiapine again. That guy is coming over in an hour, and i was texting dirty with another guy. Plus that guy wants to bring his friend along, which also sounds awesome, but i'm not sure how i'll feel about it later. The thing is right now i want to go with what feels good, because this state of mind rarely happens to me. I feel like i'm falling in love with the club guy, but i know that's crazy. And earlier i was crying for like no reason at all. It seems like if i go anywhere i'm going to get myself into trouble, and if i stay in my apartment i will loose it. Feels like sex is the only thing that will help, but even that doesn't get rid of agitation for long - although the rush of oxytocin is lovely.

Anyways, just venting to some people who hopefully understand and won't judge. I have a doc appointment tomorrow, and i know what she'll say. I'n just trying to play hard without consequences, or without severe consequences anyway.

Also, i'm 30something, female.
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Old Apr 27, 2016, 08:44 PM
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I have been hyper sexual in the past due to hypomania, but never had what you are experiencing (up all night, having other bothersome symptoms that interfere with work). I would say TOO much sex may be encouraging your mania to endure. You may want to try to do more calming things like meditation, laying in a dark room with relaxing music, etc. That's what I would do. HUGS!!
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Old Apr 27, 2016, 08:49 PM
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I was just thinking about you yesterday! I was wondering how you were. I'm glad that up until now you've been fine. All I will say is try not to make any unsafe decisions just because you're manic. There's nothing wrong with sex but make sure you're doing it safely. And if it's starting to impact your work...well you know. I'm glad you have a pdoc appt. make sure you're honest with her so she can help you.

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Old Apr 27, 2016, 09:13 PM
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Thanks to both of you. Nice to hear from you Wildflowerchild.
I have been doing great for a long time. Actually decided it was a misdiagnosis and really should be ptsd, and now i'm confused and think it's both. Long story... But mainly the past year has been great.
I think this current episode is triggered by change in the weather, and also i went to Coachella festival, which was awesome, but my sleep got screwed up and i smoked a lot of weed, which i normally don't, and it kind of grew from there. Whether this is mania or hypomania i don't know. But it's definitely interfering with everything else in my life.
At the same time it feels pretty bad *** and exciting.
It was total euphoria until today when things started to feel more jagged, with agitation and irritability. Couldn't stay still, felt like breaking something, but didn't. I just medicated and slept for a bit.
Idk, i honestly thought i was over all of this
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Old Apr 27, 2016, 09:15 PM
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Also, meeting a guy at a club, and leaving the dance floor to make out conversation was - him "i'm bipolar," me "really, me too, awesome!" Oh boy... Lol
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Old Apr 27, 2016, 09:49 PM
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Oh boy. I'm in the same spot as you. Manic and hyper sexual. I too met a bipolar guy and had a whirlwind month with him until he broke it off abruptly. It crushed me and I went all Courtney Love on him. Since he broke my heart 2 weeks ago, I've slept with 3 different new guys. Basically what I'm saying is I get you. Lol
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Old Apr 27, 2016, 10:27 PM
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I'd say enjoy. At some point you'll run out of guys or out of body.
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Old Apr 28, 2016, 12:36 AM
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This post scares me bc it sounds a lot like what I went through a few months ago. I tried explaining it to my pdoc but idt i did it very well. Grumble grumble. Anyway, I hope you can enjoy the good time and stay safe. Let your doc help you. Thanks for sharing 😊
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Old Apr 28, 2016, 11:48 AM
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Your post gave me a contact high but yes - be careful!! I once fooled around with someone KNOWING I might get an STD (won't go into details why) because I was feeling so impulsive and daring and invincible and euphoric I couldn't help myself. I'm so so so lucky I didn't catch anything, that was very unlike me (at the time I had a bonafide phobia of STDs...)

I agree with suggestion to calm yourself as much as possible...hot baths, meditation, low-key music.
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Old May 07, 2016, 12:16 AM
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Hypersexuality gets the best of me. There are nights where I meet guys at school and hook up in the bathroom then leave and go out to bars to make out with more guys as I'm on the floor dancing and there was one time when I was 22 where I met a 45 year old guy on the dance floor of a club and we went back to his place and dos a lot of coke. Then the next morning we went drinking again for brunch after doing more Coke and being really intimate, I passed out at a bar and I was in and out of consciousness. I kept telling him that I loved him and to leave me. He didn't want to but I forced him to and he had left and I found my way to an alley where I passed out and 48 hours later I woke up at home. My family had to pick me up. I was so embaressed but I was having non stop sexual encounters.

Usually I go to clubs and then bath houses where I fool around with 8 guys at one time only to move on to more. I hate it.

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Old May 07, 2016, 12:18 AM
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I met the guy a few other times and though he lives in LA now as the president of a very big marketing corporation, we still keep in touch. I love him and that's not manic me saying that. We just have this deep connection.

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Old May 07, 2016, 01:35 AM
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I have been thru my share of hyper sexuality. It can make you feel very vulnerable when you wake up from it. Just be safe I had no control.
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Old May 07, 2016, 02:10 AM
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I have issues with hyper sexuality too. Right now I'm going through a serious manic episode and all I want to do is have sex with my husband. It makes the rest of the world go away, stops the racing thoughts and it just feels amazing. We are in a BDSM relationship so there is no shortage of excitement in our sex life. But I do always want to try much riskier activities when I'm manic. Last night he choked me until I passed out, more than once.

Being in a stable relationship is good for me because when I was younger my hypersexual behavior was a lot riskier. At least now I'm just doing it with my husband. I used to go to a lot of metal shows when I was manic and I'd get drunk and almost always end up in disgusting club bathrooms having sex or taking my clothes off to get backstage and meet the band (which was usually successful) then I'd drink more and black out. I'm not that way when I'm not manic. I'm usually very cautious about taking risks but not while manic. I have serious impulse control issues. A one point I worried I was a sex addict until I got my BP diagnosis then it all made sense.

So I totally understand what you're going through. I never want to give it up when I'm manic either because just like you it stops my agitation and my anxiety. It's like taking a break from all the negative things that come with my mania.
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Old May 07, 2016, 06:15 AM
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Yeah, still in it. It's 4 am, and wide awake. I'm hypomanic along with a hypomanic guy i met a couple weeks ago, and it's been insane. Another couple guys and a girl also. And not really playing safe. I know i'll eventually have to come off this high, but it's just been so amazing that the consequences don't seem important. Idk - 2 hypomanic people together is unreal, we seriously barely even have to breathe on each other to freak out, and kissing is like pure electricity. After so many years of depression and feeling like dying i think it's ok to enjoy a few weeks of a good run. He seems really happy too. So carpe diem
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