[OrangeMasticator]

I feel like im somewhat bipolar but I feel like that's offensive. Like im just being ignorant and self-pitying. But depression and social anxiety don't cover all of my symptoms. And my dad said there's bipolar depression on his side. And I still have a bunch of nutritional deficiencies but I feel like that's not all the damage there is to be fixed.

All I know is that sometimes when I get happy I get tooooooooooooooo happy like I could do and say and think anything and everything and I want to do anything and everything perfectly. And when I get sad... I get tooooooooooooooo sad but not automatically or immediately suicidal just really tired and indifferent.

And in both states I'm indecisive and unrealistic and irrational about most things and my thoughts race a lot. But not too happy or sad enough to be bipolar depression? I'm 15 so I can't do excessive shopping or drinking or sex or anything too reckless. And when I don't get a lot of sleep... well I don't really know what good sleep is but I assume that I'm sleep deprived. So I don't know. And I know it's different for everyone and I can't expect a clear diagnosis from this forum or online but can anyone give any insight about anything I said?

Also, I have mood swings but I don't think they are as powerful as in bipolar depression.

And I don't act a lot of my thoughts about myself out so I don't think my impulses are a problem. But the problem is that it is really all in my head and I don't know why my brain spews out such crazy thoughts.

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[waggiedog]

. Hi there OM and Thankyou for posting your concerns. Now, whilst I'm no Dr or anything else qualified, I have and do suffer times of highs and lows similar to which you described.
I'm not diagnosed bi~polar but I'm am diagnosed BPD, with that comes a huge range of "symptoms" which often mimic bi~polar.
You are very young at only 15, however you can never be too young to approach your family Dr and explain to him/her exactly how you've been feeling hunny. Age doesn't come into mental illness, if that's what it is. My issues began when I was around 18, but long before that there were issues.
I get times of feeling mildly high and times of being extremely tired and somewhat down, often doing nothing.
It all depends on how your feelings effect your everyday life really. If it is DEFINATELY making your life difficult to bare, than honestly, you should try and explain to your family Dr, who hopefully may decide to refer you to a theripist

Please don't feel you are on your own, you are not, many folk here feel like yourself from time to time.

Should you need to talk, vent or rant, and especially if you need to talk to someone who understands, please do contact one of us community liasion and we will try and help.

Love and Hugs, Xxxx. :~))))

[OrangeMasticator]

Originally Posted by waggiedog

. Hi there OM and Thankyou for posting your concerns. Now, whilst I'm no Dr or anything else qualified, I have and do suffer times of highs and lows similar to which you described.
I'm not diagnosed bi~polar but I'm am diagnosed BPD, with that comes a huge range of "symptoms" which often mimic bi~polar.
You are very young at only 15, however you can never be too young to approach your family Dr and explain to him/her exactly how you've been feeling hunny. Age doesn't come into mental illness, if that's what it is. My issues began when I was around 18, but long before that there were issues.
I get times of feeling mildly high and times of being extremely tired and somewhat down, often doing nothing.
It all depends on how your feelings effect your everyday life really. If it is DEFINATELY making your life difficult to bare, than honestly, you should try and explain to your family Dr, who hopefully may decide to refer you to a theripist

Please don't feel you are on your own, you are not, many folk here feel like yourself from time to time.

Should you need to talk, vent or rant, and especially if you need to talk to someone who understands, please do contact one of us community liasion and we will try and help.

Love and Hugs, Xxxx. :~))))

Thanks for responding. And I have seen at least 3 psychologists and 2 psychiatrists and a nutritionist. But I feel like a need a psych evaluation even though the current psychiatrist says that she thinks it's very clear: anxiety and depression. Well sure but I don't feel like that's the full story. Like I feel like I have a personality disorder too: maybe BPD but kids like me can't be tested or diagnosed with that, so I hear.

The only thing I'm looking forward to is diagnosing a medical problem that could be causing my depression and anxiety and shifting personality/no personality.

Or maybe I'm normal but too weak and self deprecating to accept that. 😔

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Have you tried any medications?

There is a difference between the way doctors treat bipolar depression vs the way they treat regular depression. If you're truly concerned about the diagnosis, I would (at the very least) try the medications they give you to see how your brain handles them; then I would go from there..

[OrangeMasticator]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Have you tried any medications?

There is a difference between the way doctors treat bipolar depression vs the way they treat regular depression. If you're truly concerned about the diagnosis, I would (at the very least) try the medications they give you to see how your brain handles them; then I would go from there..

No. Meds are scary and pricey and I don't believe the chemical imbalance theory. But you are right. Idk. My family doesnt really believe in meds either. But i sort of want to try it for the experience so i can personally have a real opinion on them. The problem is that I still don't know if maybe low nutrients are a real problem.

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Originally Posted by OrangeMasticator

No. Meds are scary and pricey and I don't believe the chemical imbalance theory. But you are right. Idk. My family doesnt really believe in meds either. But i sort of want to try it for the experience so i can personally have a real opinion on them. The problem is that I still don't know if maybe low nutrients are a real problem.

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Actually, most antidepressant meds aren't that pricey, as long as you buy the generic versions. A month's worth of Lexapro (an antidepressant) costs me $0.66 I have average insurance, btw.

Now of course the price depends on the medication, but some generic medications aren't too pricey.

I do think you should try medication for the experience. You never know until you try.

If you're concerned about nutrients being the problem, you can always ask for a blood test before you start any medication. They'll look at your vitamin levels, vitamin D in particular. (Low vitamin D is associated with depression.) But of course, it's certainly possible you could have a vitamin D deficiency (for example) *and* have a mood disorder.

[OrangeMasticator]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Actually, most antidepressant meds aren't that pricey, as long as you buy the generic versions. A month's worth of Lexapro (an antidepressant) costs me $0.66 I have average insurance, btw.

Now of course the price depends on the medication, but some generic medications aren't too pricey.

I do think you should try medication for the experience. You never know until you try.

If you're concerned about nutrients being the problem, you can always ask for a blood test before you start any medication. They'll look at your vitamin levels, vitamin D in particular. (Low vitamin D is associated with depression.) But of course, it's certainly possible you could have a vitamin D deficiency (for example) *and* have a mood disorder.

Oh yeah. Silly me. I forgot about insurance.

And yeah... that's what I'm scared about.

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