[crazyincanada]

I've been depressed since I was a teenager, but have recently been re-diagnosed as Bipolar type 2, which fits well with my anxiety disorder, too. I've been in a downward spiral for a couple months, which I attributed to a change in medication, but it's not the meds, I'm in a full blown bipolar meltdown. I'm starting to think I don't even have a personality anymore, I'm just a moping lump of goo. I'm not working right now (I can't during this - I sleep 14-16 hrs a day). I try to do things while I'm up, but I either talk myself out of it, or I half *** attempt it and give up. My husband keeps trying to give me "projects" to keep me busy and out of bed, but I resent it, and don't do anything. He doesn't understand what bipolar 2 is, and he thinks I'm checking out on our marriage, but I'm checking out of everything - I have no interests, no friends, no hobbies (everything I used to love is boring now), and I barely speak. I see my doctor again on the 11, can you give me any advice about how to tell her all this, and what to ask to get better? I'm so foggy I can't think straight, and I know I'll miss something in telling her all this. I write out what I want to say, but I can't predict her answers or other questions. I appreciate any help you can provide. I don't want to feel like this anymore.

[fishin fool]

I am bipolar 2 also and I know what you are going through.
Please get your husband to read and learn about bipolar 2 so he will understand what
you are dealing with. It could be critical in keeping your relationship afloat.
Tell your doc everything about what you feel and keep writing it all down, that's
a good way to help remember it all.
Wish I could be more help if I think of anything else I'll let you know.

[Wild Coyote]

Hi CiC,

I also understand the depth of your paralyzing depression.
I am sorry you must encounter such severe depression.
Mine has been very treatment-resistant until I've agreed to try to Generation 2 anti-psychotics, aka Atypicals. This has helped me so much!

Why not print out exactly what you've told us?

I've had a problem getting all of the info to my pdoc, as he stops me in the middle to ask questions. I finally wrote it all down and gave it to him. In a flash, he had all of the info and a bigger picture as well.

I hope your husband will learn all about BP-II depression so he can support you.

Glad you are reaching out!
There is hope! Truly! I did not think so just two months ago.


WC

[ComfortablyNumb5]

I would suggest keeping a journal and bringing it with you when you see pdoc. It sounds to me that you're quite depressed and I say that because your post sounds a lot like my life as far as your everyday tasks go. As far as your husband, maybe asking him to do some research or read some books. When my bf and I first got together he didn't believe in MI and this made our relationship very hard when I'd be having an episode. Well one day he finally got his lazy *** on Google and started researching BP. That was a huge thing to do for me and for us. Hopefully your hubby will come around. I'd suggest bringing him to appointments with you.

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[JustJace2u]

I was going to suggest the journaling idea that Rx already mentioned. Also, keeping a mood chart can help as well (at least it does for me). I too was diagnosed with BP2, just in the last few months. As for your husband...have you thought about having him come with you to your appointment? Ooooops...Rx already mentioned that. My bad. Apparently I either need a nap or coffee. I think I'll go for the nap.