[venusss]

I've been in this strange spot, where I cannot see beyond few weeks ahead. Recently friend asked about my plans for November and I was like "I don't know what will be in November".

It's been a strange summer so far. I should be enjoying my vacation and not having to work, but eh, just more time to think about how the world will end soon. Well, watching the news give me all reasons to think it's over, we ran out of time already and now it's just time to ponder and pray, nothing can be done.

I wish I could be more optimistic, because I have few projects that are unfinnished, in stage of planning... but all other things I done seem to be going nowhere. Well, or seem... not that important.

I guess I need some impulse... some new omens. Hoping I will get that on my upcoming trip... which will hopefully not **** me over emotionally... and hopefully I will be safe. Because these days... one does not know.

[NoIdeaWhatToDo]

I understand the feeling of futility in making plans or starting projects, or even working on projects you've already started. Sometimes it just doesn't feel like it matters what I do because the foreseeable future seems so short.

But then, I've felt that a number of times. Probably twice a year at least for the last decade. And I'm still here, and I've had the opportunity during that time to finish projects, start new ones, finish those, etc. Even though I couldn't see the purpose behind the planning at the time.

There's also something to be said for giving yourself a break from planning and projects - as long as you're taking care of the details that will matter when you return (housing, pets, meds, appointments, etc.). I hope your travels are safe for you, physically and emotionally.

Also, I really like your Krishnamurti quote - I've never really thought about it like that. It relates to the reason I really don't watch the news and deliberately filter how much of it I read. The quote reminds me of one of our regular posters' signatures - something about 'her being very real in a very false world'. I can't remember right now, but every time I see it I respond to it in the same way as yours. I find them comforting.

[vjdragonfly]

{{{{venusss}}} I'm sorry things are looking so useless to you right now. The world may be ending, but in all honestly all of our lives are numbered. I believe life is in the moment and even if our efforts are futile the reason for moving on is to live your life in a way that makes you happy or content. BP teaches us that things are always changing and that we must live for the good in our lives. Focusing on the bad or what can be just can bring one down. It is good to not so much plan for the future, but to works towards a goal. To me a goal is obtainable whereas the future is very unsure. It is easier for me to set a goal to make the best of each day I have, whatever that day may have in it. I hope you find your optimism soon and safe travels.

[Takeshi]

Good to see your post.

It'll be cold in November, you'll probably be working. For now you could eat, sleep, pray and drink in moderation 'cuz it's your vacay time, isn't it? What about that very original journal thing that you were doing a while ago? This could be the time to come up with really personal project of yours again, it could be as dark as you wish it to be as long as you don't make that our reality. The dreadful saga continues, optimism is overrated or wasted, don't know what people do with that sort of thing to be honest. You could try to weave a sphere of your own not to be defensive but to be open, I just hope you've been dealing fine with the strange feeling that you described here.

May you walk in sunshine and your heart be light on your trip.
May good luck pursue you each morning and night.

Cherish the moment with everyone you meet, have a safe trip.

[Takeshi]

Smile often and Do Epic $***. No inflation or deflation, the most stable currency of 'em all.

[venusss]

My journal is almost finnished and I left it in Prague when going to countryside.

(also.... I miss Prague. Last time I was there for weekend I was bit edgy cause it was right after the Turkey failed "coup"). But I miss it. I apparently need the city energy to thrive. Nature is nice for a while, but too calm for me at this point of life.

Maybe I can use this "there may be no future" for good. Liberating in a way.

[venusss]

well leaving tomorrow for the east............ and freaking out. Sure it's gonna be alright... in the end, but I know it's gonna throw me off for some time.

I just wish people stopped asking me why I am doing the things I do. I mean... I am doing the good thing, I worry so you don't have to... so let me do it, right?

[~Christina]

Lots of stupid people that want to live in a bubble.

Take care and stay safe !

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[luvyrself]

Actually,the world probably will not end ANy time soon,unless an asteroid hits us. So that is even more of a challenge. We have so many choices of how to use all this time given to us. Yes, some goals would give u some structure when u are not working, which most bps need so much. Or you could cuddle the cute pets at an animal rescue-i dare u not to smile. Exercise w a friend, get some endorphins. Create a project.
Im in s imilar situation, retired and job hunting does not give me the routine i need to stay stable. I Have to decide on a goal and volunteer somewhere.