Is there something bothering you right now?

kind of

having 1 of those days where i am anxious for no reason at all (these happen more and more often), and what annoys me about them is that i just can't put my finger on why i'm anxious.. on the days i know the cause of my anxiety is fine, it makes it easier being able to control it, but this..

A forum I used to really enjoy posting on, has a new member, who in a little over a month, has posted over 20,000 times, almost once a minute, and seemingly 24/7. It seems to be a very bored schoolboy. All the posts are one or two words only. It's driving me and other people away.

I'd hope admin or moderators would step up and set some limits with this person.

WC

I am hypo, bordering on full blown mania, I have slept 3 hours in the last 3 nights. I have upped seroquel to 800mg per doctors order(feel weird on it) still not sleeping. I had a good friend rescue me last night at 2 am from what could have been a life damaging situation that I had no willpower or desire to see clearly for what it was. Thank god for good friends. I hope I dont end up back in the hospital. I am afraid that I am being watched at all times. Work, out of the question. "working from home" until this passes. unfortunately the copious amount of work that I get done during the night is not of high quality. FML.

Yeah. Lack of energy/motivation. I don't even like taking showers these days... and I think it's because I have nothing to do at all. I need more activity in my life, I guess. A reason for being.

Yeah, I feel ya. I did the whole 3 hours of sleep in 3 days thing when I took ONE Adderall pill. I was totally f**king manic.

Could you take more Klonopin? My pdoc told me to take extra Ativan to calm my *** down, and that really helped.

I know your signature says you're trying to taper off Klonopin, but temporarily taking more of it might help?

At least you're able to work from home, so that's nice. I know how much it can help when I work from home too.

I'm feeling on the verge of slipping into the depressive side of my cycle, and I'm dreading it. So, that's bothering me at the moment.

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Idk if my psychiatrist believes all my symptoms or not, I told her how I believe we're living in the Matrix and everything is a computer simulation and we don't have free will because something or someone is controlling us, I believe this to be true no matter the fact that I know it is distorted thinking, no facts and no one has been able to talk me out of it, it pretty much controls my life at the moment, I don't even think my cat is real or that I'm real. I also.told her about my hallucinations, amd the fact that for 3 days I was convinced the police were after me after a couple of vivid dreams of me going to jail. Also told her about taking up to 4 showers a day, I can't help myself, I think if I don't shower that my body will over heat and my skin will burn off. I think I might have confused her a lot today, I was kind of rambling and it was hard for me to articulate what I was saying, kind of disorganized in my thinking and speaking, even stuttered a bit too. Like I said idk if she believes me, and I'm too scared to ask because I'm afraid of the answer I may get...

Stupid sui thoughts keep getting more intense and more frequent. I need to vent...

@octobersblackrose:
I think psychiatrists tend to believe you when you say those sorts of things. They know that hallucinations and delusions appear very real to us.

Why do you think she doesn't believe you? Was it her facial reaction? Sometimes my pdoc keeps a straight face and I can never tell what he's thinking. So I know what you mean

One of my friends IRL is in crisis. She knows she's not doing well at all. She has moved and lives alone in as isolated area, very far away. She has now reached out to local social services. She needs her meds, yet refuses them.

In the meantime, she's needing an ear; however, the content is partially delusional and goes on and on, truly ranting, for hours if I allow this. I try my best to be a friend, to listen, to encourage her to take her meds. It's so frustrating when she continues to refuse meds which have helped in the past, just because she'd gained 20 lbs on the med over a year. (She looks better with the extra 20 lbs.)

She's in a "hell" state right now and could improve if she'd take her meds.

I care deeply. I can only do so much.

I'm legally blind so I really can't see her facial expressions, it's just a weird vibe I get cause I'm now more comfortable to be open with her about things as I've been seeing her since January, but I don't want her thinking I'm just making things up, I'm mean we're constantly changing and tweaking my meds due to symptoms that show up, mostly depressive and psychotic, or side effects I don't like. So I guess I'm just afraid she thinks I'm making things up when I'm not...

Constantly been questioning my Dx for the last few.days, then I remember thinks like hypomanic episodes and my hallucinations/delusions that remind me that I'm probably for sure Bipolar, I guess it may be that I'm in depression and haven't had a hypomanic episode since I was on Welbutrin between November and January, that turned into dysphoric mania, in mid January. Need to get these thoughts out of my head cause they're causing me anxiety...

I don't like people who can dish it, but not take it. Even worse, they dish it in private while acting all innocent in public.

No sense in sending unwarranted mean PM's to my friends if you don't have the balls to take it. Do it in public where everyone can see it instead of hiding behind PM's. Show your true self ... or are you afraid?

That is all

Thanks, blue.

I totally agree.

It's really bothering me that I can't open-up here already. It's just about as bad as it is IRL for me. I keep telling myself to just keep coming back, keep trying. I'm too old for this ****.

I'm bothered that I'm not reading the directions completely and screwed up two of my hard drives as a result. My husband was able to resurrect one of them. I'm crossing fingers and toes on the second one. I used to be good with computers and stuff, and now it's gone to pot.

I have been eating the Klonopin like tic tacs. It is like my mind is a junkie craving the mania and nothing I can do will stop it. On a positive not I built my own version of stack overflow for work. hopefully they will like it and we can use it internally.

Went out on Motorcycle with husband had a good time till we started gambling. When will we ever learn. Ruined the day!!

Being five hours away from my daughter and pretty much cut out of her life is bothering me right now.

Sorry to hear, that would certainly affect me negatively. We're here to support, though - if there's anything we can do, let us know!

What is bothering me is I wonder if my mom was BP She was never diagnosed. I remember growing up she would either of two extremes. Very loving, warm, tender, caring or cold, distant, constantly putting me down, I could never please her Wondering if anyone here can tell me if she sounded like she was BP/ If BP is genetic.

There is a genetic component to BP, that's been pretty well established.

Regarding your mother, we are not docs and can't diagnose. That being said, if my meds are off and I'm too up or too down, that sounds like how I treat my kids. If I'm up, I'm the greatest dad in the world. Fun-loving, caring, thoughtful, and kind. If I'm down, I isolate myself and don't want to be bothered by anyone. I'm distant, critical (without meaning to be), aloof, and probably in a remote area of the house or property.

I'd suggest you talk with a therapist about it, they may have some great insights.

Bothering me right now. I'm up, and it's almost 1 AM. I really want to connect with people, but everyone around me is asleep. My meds aren't knocking me out (4mg Ativan anyone?)

The shifting in moods you describe could have been due to several different disorders or a combination thereof. There is quite a list of mood disorders, which all involve mood shifts. There are also personality disorders which manifest in a similar fashion to your description.

To consider diagnoses, much more info is needed.
If you see a therapist, s/he might help you with this, as suggested by bioCHE.


WC

Yep, I had a bad nightmare. Been having a lot lately. Going back to sleep is out of the question. So, I'm starting my day after three hours sleep. Plus, I have a cold.

Resting today will be next to impossible. My boyfriend's son is coming over to play video games. Too loud for sleep, which I can rarely do in the daytime, anyway. So, I'm looking at an exhausting day or flipping into hypomania. While nursing a cold.

I'm crabby already. This isn't good.