[bizi]

what does your pdoc say about your sleep?
bizi

Originally Posted by bizi

what does your pdoc say about your sleep?
bizi

the professionals are stumped

I don't blame them either. if the tables were turned and I was dealing with someone with as little sleep as me, i'd also be confused

[Coffeee]

I often doubt if it was a hallucination or a real sound.

for some reason, this morning I kept thinking about how much i'd screwed up and how I wish I could just erase everything and start again

and this afternoon.. well, I think my latest thread says it all.

had nothing to do, so

[Aardwolf]

I am spending the day, (or most of it), watching avatar: the last airbender.

wanted to see this for a very long time (and did start watching it online), but the website closed and I was unable to finish it.

well... now I am. I payed the £13 to get the dvd, so will start it today

I really wish that my halloween was a bit more ****ing interesting

wow... no one even wished me happy halloween. it sucks

and I don't like halloween, but that's not the point

the point is everyone is celebrating but me

[Coffeee]

Happy Halloween shattered sanity!

very tough night yesterday with a lot of dark thoughts concerning family mostly, but also other stuff (namely how worthless I am)

part of it was because of all the halloween stuff going on around me, and part of it was to do with the fact that yesterday evening I heard fireworks (big trigger)

no sleep

today struggling with what I call, " first of the month blues" (yeah, I made it up)

the feeling you get on the first day of each month that says to you well... their goes another 30/31 days of you being nothing, what are you still doing here?.

yeah..

probably just watch some avatar later and order my takeout

who really cares what I do

Originally Posted by Coffeee

Happy Halloween shattered sanity!

thanks... happy halloween to you too.

did you get many trick or treaters?

[Coffeee]

Oh! I never knew what it was called, I get first of the month blues too! No not any, cause we live on a very busy road with no shoulders. But we went to a party through NAMI.
I'm sorry to hear you are having a hard go of it and getting triggered by the fireworks. And I'm sure that no sleep doesn't help. We all care what you do here on PC and belive me you are not worthless. It's your thoughts lying to you.

[Moose72]

When you said "first of the month blues" I thought you meant rent.

today is firework night in the UK.

if you've been following my thread you know it has a lot of triggers for me.

unfortunately, I was never able to find a good pair of noise canceling headphones in time, so I guess all I can do is try and distract myself with other things and hope it's not too much- even though I'm going to have my window closed, i'll still be able to hear them I am sure

might even drop by chat to see if anyone is in their who can distract me

[bizi]

A year ago my pdoc wanted to get me off of klonipin to sleep. I was taking 1 mg at night and that was all. None during the day.
So she tapered me off klonipin and started me on trazadone But she also lowered my geodon which was a bad idea.
The trazadone made me mildly psychotic for about 3 weeks before I stopped the trazadone and went back to the klonipin and then back up to my prior dose of geodon. It took a while to stabilize. Well I got down to .5mg of klonipin to sleep so she was happy with that thankfully.
I hated the trazodone, made me super dry, super drying stuffed nose, could not sleep. And it was supposed to help my sleep.
Awful.
I have heard of some people taking seroquel for sleep, and that is an AP so that could help you too.
bizi

[Miss Laura]

Shattered Sanity try putting the radio up loud tonight. I use to do it with a guy I supported who was scared of the fireworks and it worked for him

so many methods of trying to make yourself feel better.. coming on here to talk about it, distract yourself with something you like, breav and count to 10, I can't do any of the ****ing stuff.

I failed big time yesterday.

I let the fireworks and the memories get to me. all coping, ground, right out the ****ing window.

I let it get to me and I had the worst night ever because i'm so ****ing thick and can't follow advice about how to cope.

what is the god dam point. I mean, here I am with all these coping methods and stuff, and I can't use them.

their must be more wrong with me than I thought

namely my brain is ****ed beyond repair. If i can't remember to cope.... wow.

uggg

[Coffeee]

That's OK we all have off days. When life is at its hardest is when it's the most difficult to remember coping skills. Sorry to hear you had a rough night. But it's awesome that you are thinking of so many ways to cope now!

[hopeless2015]

Hugs!!! Try not to beat yourself up so badly. I hope today is a better day for you

still trying to recover my emotions from the fireworks

iritibillity's been pretty high though (or at least on sunday and monday it was)

i'm just doing what I always do when I struggle like this.... window shop on amazon. then buy on amazon, then get excited for when I buy on amazon and it arives..

oh and tonight it's a special night for me. a very special night. I am going to have some turkey dinosaurs for my tea (see the thread)

life's just been life, I guess. the day starts, the day ends- with very little to say in between time

[Coffeee]

Sorry the fireworks affected you so negatively, people often don't think of all the bad repercussions of their actions. I'm glad to hear you have something to focus on and like I said in the other thread those turkeys sound really cool. I wish I was over there so I could visit you...

it is the end of another dull boring week.

it is the start of a dull boring weekend

I can't really say much else because nothing's happened

Originally Posted by Coffeee

Sorry the fireworks affected you so negatively, people often don't think of all the bad repercussions of their actions. I'm glad to hear you have something to focus on and like I said in the other thread those turkeys sound really cool. I wish I was over there so I could visit you...

i'd share the dinosaurs

we could enjoy them together

[Coffeee]

That sounds nice I hope your weekend isn't too boring! Could you go do something such as go to a library or a park or a coffee shop haha I like coffee. Just to break up the boring routine?

It sounds like you are doing well Shattered? I hope so and I hope it lasts. (((Hugs)))

life pretty much dull and empty at the moment

the day starts

it all gets wasted

the day ends

I don't sleep

then it starts again

I need to get my christmas music out this week (I've not done it yet, the horror!). this year I have, among other things, a christmas gift for you from phil spector, which is actually a lovely album with some good arangements on it

I've not decided if I'm doing decorations.. 1 minit I am, and then the next I can't be bothered. though i'm alone for christmas, I guess it would be nice to have something even if it's little

giving my dvd 1 more day to arive (it's all ready 3 days late), and if not, i'm contacting amazon about it. these things happen, only last month I had to get a refund on something that never showed up

spent yesterday evening watching the entire family guy series 16. that was fun!

it's really cool today. not too cold, but a lovely breeze