Meds help. Why don't I take them.

I know my meds help me but for some reason I don't take them until I become depressed or out of control. I am so stubborn for some reason. I know they help but just don't take them. Its like I like walking the edge of normal and craziness. Does anyone else struggle with this and how do you keep on meds all the time not just part of the time?

I keep on my meds because I want to feel good and have the best life I can possibly have. It took a while to get there, though.

Hang in there and talk about your med issues with your t. He or she might be able to help you through this.

Hugs,

Jan

I have been waiting for this to come up, but i was afarid to talk about it. I do not take my meds right, side effects thats all BS. To be quit honest I have been sick so long, I don't know who I really am. It scares me of the thought of being thrown in the real world. I know I could'nt cope. Coping here takes all I have.

My God how selfish of me... I can't, my god what comes out here. I don't want to be like this, but what happens if I leave?
The rage and disgust I feel for myself, you could'nt know. I don't want to be screwed up on these meds.. Its a time like now out of sheer desperation, I climb back into the bottles...... I've been dxed BP, I have talk to my pdoc many times of this. Its the f!@#kn lies, lies I tell myself and everyone else. So sad.... This is a life I don't want..

Your not alone,,,,

I'm so sorry,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

I've been given a range on one...just one of my medications...I have found that it helps me feel in more control...When you talk to your pdoc tomorrow see if there is a medication out there that allows you to have a range of dosing to minimize side effects when you are doing well...but still be able to give it a kick if something is getting to up or down...

You're not alone.... about a month ago I stopped my meds cold turkey. Stupid, I know...

Hey,

that is what we do, we quit meds, start again and repeat, repeat, repeat. I think that is just part of being bipolar. I have been on my meds again for about 6 months now, and I am wanting to stop taking them. But, I am not. I talk about it to my tdoc and pdoc and friends and they set me straight. I am sure that I will go off my meds again, maybe not soon though. Hang in there, sometimes that is all we can do. If no one knows what is going on in your head, you decrease your chances of staying on meds. Hope this helps and I hope you feel better and get back on meds.

Radar

I'm currently doing another medication dance to find yet another combination that works for me (up to six different meds now) and found myself asking the question of if the side effects are worth it or are they worse than the symptoms. The answer I have been trying to stick to right now is that I need to just stay with it and realize that without meds I was completely out of control and had very little chance of gaining the reigns. With meds, I at least have a shot at gaining some semblance of control, but I will need to go through the rough road of side effect adjustment for a few months first. We all know this is not an easy task and I just keep trying to remind myself what life was like for me when I ran out of meds for almost two months.

I get a wild hair and go off my meds from time to time, but the results are usually disasterous. You'd think I/we'd learn, wouldn't you? lol.

Anyway, I remember this was one of the intake questions when I started therapy with my new therapist, about 3 months ago: "Have you ever gone off your meds without telling anyone?" We both busted out laughing at that, because it's such a common problem. I asked her if everyone answered "yes" to that question, and she said, "Yeah, practically everyone."

all this sounds so familiar. My doc gives me scripts for the meds he thinks will work. Then I go to the pharmacy to have the script filled...I look at the scripts and the price of the script... so then I decide which meds I am going to take to treat my symptoms. Like I have a medical degree and know what is going to work.

Then I run out of meds....so I decide which ones are the most important to me at the time.

Eventually...things change.. and I go through all these emotions that I am supposed to have under control with the help of meds that I am not taking.

Hopefully we will all come to realize that the doc might know what he is talking about...But right now I feel good with the combo I have chosen to take.

i dont take my meds either once i start feeling better.. its like my mind tells me i dont need them anymore... then i start going down and ill take them,.. mew old t used to always get on me about that....... every visit.. she would explain that shes a diabetic and if she went off her meds cause her sugar was ok then it would just get messed up again cause she wasnt taking the meds to keep it level.... so i know what ur going through..... i have a hard time remebering my meds but i think my mind does it on purpose somehow...... idk

I saw my great and wonderful pdoc today. I told her that I was not taking my meds. She then said and why are you not sleeping. I am going back on my meds again starting immediatly. She added haldol that I can take for mania and sleep as needed. 1 or 2 mg. Thanks everyone

pink, how are you doing off your meds? I love your parrot. What's its name?

I feared taking meds. I thought I would become a zombie. Actually, the Lamictal has been such a blessing, that it's almost hard to believe. I'm so glad that this drug was invented and that I'm fortunate enough to have stumbled upon it.

Started taking my new meds, damn they work so well. Guess the sleep I got last night went by so fast I did'nt know it...LOL..........

Life on the funny farm..................

I don't know why either, I just saw my meds unopened bottles and said I've got to start taking my meds. My co-worker stated the other day that she really feels good, after only one week of risperdal, she even looks better. Seeing the difference in her hopefully will motivate me. It's like I don't want to wait for the meds to become effective. I have no problem taking my vitamins every day. Just take them