Making it to Thursday

So my pdoc app is this Thursday. I've been dealing with a lot lately. The hallucinations and paranoia are getting worse each day. I'm dealing with suicidal thoughts and thoughts of self harm, which hasn't happened in a long time. I have nothing to combat them with. Anyone have any tips? I just have to make it a few more days.

Good news is that I got my seroquel and Valium back. I was up for 4 days and was finally able to get /some/ sleep. My anxiety and panic attacks have also lessened. That's great but they aren't completely gone. They're still there and working against me.

I'm tired of staring out the window in paranoia. And my house being bugged? I know it's unrealistic but I can't come to believe it.

So does anyone have anything that can help? :/

Hello jtassar93: I'm sorry you are struggling. I don't know as I have much in the way of suggestions for you. If you're feeling suicidal, it's important to reach out, in real life, for the help you need.

A psychiatrist I once saw told me that using the hands & fingers requires a large amount of the brain's capacity. So she said that if I was feeling depressed & anxious, if I could find something to do that required a large amount of hand / finger dexterity, that this would help to keep my depressive & anxious thoughts from spreading to larger & larger areas of the brain. You wrote that you see your pdoc Thursday. So between now & then, you might see if you can find something to do that will keep your hands busy. It's something to try anyway... Please take care of yourself. If necessary seek out whatever emergency services are available to you where you live...

So glad you have Valium and Seroquel to help calm you down till you see your pdoc. Must be such a relief. Only two days to go. Do you think you will be safe till then? Hallucinations and paranoia are tough to deal with. Really hope your doctor can help.

Thank you <3 just talking to people helps sometimes. If I'm feeling extra suicidal I'll definitely reach out.

Thank you for the tip. I'll have to see if we have some sort or stress ball or play doh or something.

I'm so glad I have the seroquel and Valium too. They've been a big help. Yes only 2 days! I think I can make it until then. I just need to find something to distract me. Hoping my pdoc can help too. Thank you <3

Anyone else have something to distract me? :/

Writing in a journal or like what you'd want to happen right now ideally
List your best qualities and reasons for living
Reading
Drawing or paint or make stick figure cartoons
Listening to music
Trying to invent another language
Imagining alternate realities
Go for a walk or run
Listen to music and maybe dance to it or play air guitar
See if you can invent crazy yoga moves
Watch a movie
Punch a pillow
See if you can do fake karate like Jackie chan style
Organize your room
Clean something
Make some food
Take a shower or a bath
Ect...

Oops double post

Thanks so much for all the ideas. I can definitely do some of these!

In DBT class today I learned a distress tollerence technique. You dunk your face in a sink of ice water and hold your breathe for 30 seconds. It brings about a sense of calm. Cold water divers get this sense of calm when they dive. It has a name but I can't remember it....perhaps you can try this if things get worse....I may be doing it myself soon.

That's a really cool idea Elsamars I'll have to add that to my toolkit.

Thank you for that idea! I'll most likely end up using it. Things are slowly getting worse. Bleh

It's called TIP. Here's a link to a blog that shows the handout for it.

https://www.google.com/amp/s/borderl...?client=safari

One more day. I think I can make it. Hoping for a good med change. Sucks that we can only change one med at a time.

Yes, that's the name....thanks RX.

I got 5 hours of sleep last night which was good. Anxiety and panic attacks have been decreasing. I did see a new scary hallucination :/ it was upsetting...I just hope it doesn't show up again..