Another update

So I just saw my pdoc. He said my problems were psychosis and depression. He said the hospital would be good but I didn't necessarily need it? He said I have my mom to be watching over me and everything...which I really don't because she's either working or sleeping. Also that I seemed stable enough. I even put in my notes that I'm good at hiding my symptoms!!! Plus I even dressed down. So another doctor dismissed me. The only change he made this time was upping my seroquel... which I didn't necessarily want. Sigh. I just want to feel better and for the voices and hallucinations to stop.

I'm sorry it went that way but you don't need your pdoc's permission to go to the hospital. I know you have transportation issues but if you can get to an er you can just go in yourself, although if you're not actively suicidal with a plan they may not admit you. I'm sorry all he did was up the seroquel, it doesn't seem to be working at all. He should have changed it to something else. Hopefully you will get relief soon.

Thank you <3 yeah the transportation issues are horrible and I'm sick of it. My step dad doesn't want anything to do with my mental health problems and my mom can only do so much. I wish I was allowed to drive. But hopefully my sister is getting her license soon so that'll open so many doors. As for the hospital I have suicidal thoughts. Sometimes I'll daydream of a plan but I never act on it. I even asked him to change something else like the lithium or Zoloft but he insisted on upping the seroquel. Maybe there'll be some miracle and the seroquel will stop the voices and hallucinations...maybe...idk it didn't work before. I feel like giving up.

I only recommend this as an option when you can't get in to see your pdoc and have no transportation to the hospital, but you can call an ambulance yourself to take you to the ER if necessary if you're feeling suicidal and have no other option. I have done this before and although it doesn't speed up the hospital wait time, it'll get you there. (An ambulance ride costs $45 where I live, not sure what it's like where you are).

As wildflowerchild25 said though, they may not admit you if you're only having thoughts without a plan and intent to carry through, so I'd only recommend the ambulance if you're 100% sure that you need to be hospitalized.

Good luck!

I've considered an ambulance before but haven't gotten that far over the edge yet. When my mom needed an ambulance it was around $1000. Not sure if it's the same cost for a different situation but we can't afford that kind of money.

I think I can hold off on the hospital for now. But I'll definitely keep that in mind. Thank you!

Yeah hate to be a downer but US ambulance rides aren't cheap. Mine were always at least $1000!

Now I feel bad for complaining about my ambulance bill when it came in the mail. $1000 is way too much.

It's ridiculous really..

$1000!!!! Can you get ambulance insurance in the US? Here in Aus it is part of my health insurance so it costs me nothing.

Hope the extra Sequel helps.

You don't have to pay it. It will probably screw your credit but at least you'll be alive. If you need to, make the call. I once took an overdose and kept refusing an ambulance because of the cost (I was uninsured) I definately preferred to die...luckily the person who found me didn't listen to my incoherent protests against an ambulance. Put your life first.

I hope that helps you! Too bad he doesn't listen to your wishes!

Yeah that's what my mom said. :/

Oh I didn't know that. I will make the call if absolutely necessary. Or if my mom thinks so. I've definitely been having times where I want to die, but it isn't constant. I'm glad you got the help you needed.

Thank you! And yeah it sucks but who knows maybe this dosage of seroquel will actually help.

I'm tempted to make another appt just to try to switch a different med before I get the seroquel.