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#1
Dec 10, 2016, 02:33 AM
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A week ago I ended up taking an overdose of an OTC pain medication and was near death bur once again I recovered, I spent a week in the hospital but once again I sneeked out while nobody was looking.
I can't figure out what is so bad in my life that I do something so stupid, being overwhelmed due to stress in life. I guess WW3 stress disorder is largely to blame. I guess I need to find a better way to deal with stress in my life. Do you find too much stress causes you do stupid things. Last edited by Anonymous59786; Dec 10, 2016 at 09:37 AM. Reason: added trigger |
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#2
Dec 10, 2016, 03:45 AM
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((Hugs)) I'm so sorry that life is overwhelming for you right now. I'm sure many here can relate. I've done the same numerous times and the last time I had to stay in the hospital because it caused a heart problem. Then I was shipped off to IP. You should discuss this with pdoc and maybe they can give you something to cope with the stress. Hope you feel better!!
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#3
Dec 10, 2016, 05:50 AM
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Stress absolutely can cause me to do the craziest things, usually similar to what you have just done. Do you have a T? They can help you get the stress out of your life (that which can be culled). This is crucial in your recovery. T's can also teach great coping skills. Plenty of stuff available online too if seeing a T is a problem.
This is a solvable problem with you walking out with your life intact. Why did you skip? Maybe go back and try and stay for a while longer for treatment or do an IOP. You are valuable Ripose, PM anytime if you want to chat.
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#4
Dec 10, 2016, 05:52 AM
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I did the same thing about six months before. Almost got away with it too. For 3 days i was out. The last thing i remember was drinking alcohol, complementing with benzo's and a sense of relief washing over me coz i thought the unbearable, excruciatingly painful struggle to find even a sliver happiness was finally over.
I'm an extremely resilient person, have always prouded myself for not giving up ever, no matter what the circumstance but life wore me down in that instant and nothing i did was enough to lessen the pain i was in. But, i feel really fortunate that i made it through. Going out like that would have been a gross mistake. Six months have passed, life's still hard as nails, but i persevere. Every now and then i even feel gratitude and something resembling happiness, this feeling, its so intense sometimes that its joyfully overwhelming, moments like this makes life worth hanging on to. I made it. And SO will you. Please hang in there. It'll be worth it. |
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#5
Dec 10, 2016, 06:13 AM
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I feel the same at the moment , this is no life , but i have family who loves me to bits , if i leave this planet , they will never be the same
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Dec 10, 2016, 07:19 AM
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No I don't have therapist and there is NO WAY I am going back to the hospital.
I think with the help from my wife I can get through this, plus I have a lot better idea of which direction to go now. |
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#7
Dec 10, 2016, 07:45 AM
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Do you take meds?
It can help.
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#8
Dec 10, 2016, 07:47 AM
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More than anything, A spiritual intervention helped me a lot. I just picked up a book and took it from there. Maybe it could help you too.
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Dec 10, 2016, 07:52 AM
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Sorry you momentarily dipped into the darknesss. Depression is "The Beast." I'm glad you've got your wife to help you through this.
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#10
Dec 10, 2016, 08:18 AM
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Yes I take meds but in a few the dosages were way too high. I'm not yet quite sure which ones they cut back but it should help to restore some of my judgment and critical thinning skills.
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Dec 10, 2016, 08:37 AM
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I'm sorry to hear you went through that, but I'm very glad you recovered. Please rely on your support system and hang in there. You're strong and can make it through this. I hope you get your meds adjusted and that you are able to develop helpful coping strategies for stress.
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#12
Dec 10, 2016, 11:31 AM
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Yikes! Sorry you went through all of that. Glad to hear you've recovered, though.
 Stress can be a real biitch sometimes. I hope your pdoc and wife can continue to help you work through it. I'm having difficulties dealing with stress myself. It's hard; I know.  
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Dec 10, 2016, 11:59 AM
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I'm so so sorry you went through this and thankful you recovered send hugs your way
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#14
Dec 10, 2016, 12:43 PM
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((((Ripose)))
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Dec 10, 2016, 03:14 PM
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First off.. glad to see you're still here. and I have a very poor choice of coping methods for high stress situations. I either self injure or go to alcohol or drug use. but you know what, those things make my brain stop doing what its doing that I don't want it to be doing. it helps immediately, and is a much better help than meds or therapy... they just kinda have some negative consequences that go along with the actions... something I need to work on.
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Dec 10, 2016, 03:36 PM
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Sorry to hear about the overdose but glad you recovered.
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Dec 10, 2016, 07:40 PM
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I'm so glad you're feeling better. I know it's hard to remember when you're in the depths, but sui really is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. And all problems are temporary. ((((Ripose))))
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#18
Dec 11, 2016, 12:34 AM
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(((Riposte))) there aught to be a capsule, like a space capsule but dark warm and soothing, we can crawl into when stress gets to be too much. It has the basic needs met but it's cut off from the rest of the world until we can deal with it. Some days I think I'd like to crawl in and never come out.
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#19
Dec 11, 2016, 12:23 PM
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Quote:
It's called opiates.
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#20
Dec 11, 2016, 12:36 PM
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There are isolation chambers which are totally dark, totally soundproof, in a bath of warm water and I would love to try one.
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Dec 11, 2016, 03:08 PM
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Quote:
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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#22
Dec 13, 2016, 12:05 AM
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I am sorry that you are struggling,
glad that you survived..... (((((HUGS)))) bizi
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#23
Dec 13, 2016, 02:24 AM
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Hugs, ripose. Happy you're still here.
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#24
Dec 13, 2016, 10:57 AM
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If you cut back on meds I hope you do it under supervision of your pdoc
 I'm so sorry you fell into that deep dark place. I've been there many times but have never acted on it. Feel better soon.
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