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#976
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I've been very manic lately... not as bad as I would be without meds, for sure, but you can definitely tell... somewhere along the mania spectrum is generally where I always am (and have been for the past 1.5 years despite my asshole family's assertions), but it's bad enough that even my kid called me out on it tonight for pressured speech. STILL not bad enough to make me an ineffective parent. Assholes. Anyway... re-adjusting to being back on geodon...
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My labels: Bipolar 1 w/ psychosis PTSD GAD SAD ADHD Current meds: 1500mg divalproex sodium 3mg alprazolam 0.5 mg triazolam PRN assorted non psych meds. ![]() |
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#977
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Hey all. I had a decent day. Did laundry and had a muffin. Getting ready for work. Hope that goes well.
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#978
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Still have lots of projects going and getting up early-ish. Don't feel manic-y though (but I've been wrong about that before ...). A little driven, but it's hard to tell. Is that just "not" depression? So I guess "up", but only moderately. I could definitely get used to this. Too bad that won't happen(!) So enjoying it while it's here.
Some peripheral sad stuff (like ex's brother died of cancer a few days ago -- just 58), but I'm just handling things in stride. If this is thanks to Abilify -- which timing-wise it could be -- count me a fan. So far anyway. |
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#979
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Had one of the worst sleeps I've had in a long time, no nightmares but light, broken sleep. On the bright side I've been up since a decent hour
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Bipolar 1 / Anxiety / Panic Disorder / Alcohol & substance issues / Cluster B personality traits .
Latuda 40mgs / Valproate 200mg tds / Seroquel 300mgs / Valium 10mgs prn "No task seems long but that which one dare not begin. It becomes a nightmare" |
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#980
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Drank a little too much this weekend, I'm pretty much worthless today. Skipped my meds two night in a row because I drank too much. Not good!
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drank too much....
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lamictal 2x a day haldol 2x a day cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night, fish oil coq10 multi vit,, vit c, at noon, tumeric, caffeine Remeron at night, zyprexa, requip2-4mg |
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Had a good day today hanging out with friends and getting lunch.
Got stuck in bad traffic from an accident. Was only going like 10 mph on the hiway and I didn't even freak out- I sang along to loud angry music which felt good and cathartic. I am Starting to feel the Sunday evening dread that comes with knowing another work week is upon me. But gonna try to not stress about ****. All will be okay, or it won't. Wow- that sounded very wise and yoda- like (btw- autocorrect keeps trying to change the word yoda to gods, weird) ![]() |
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#983
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Finished up two loads of laundry. Missed church because I have some kind of stomach bug going on. Husband and I picked up two small TVs: one for the basement and one to send to his step-mother. Thankfully I felt well enough to do that.
Had anxiety in the late afternoon. I took another Vistaril to calm down. I don't know if it's the meds or this house. Made cod with tomatoes and feta cheese. It was really good. |
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#984
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I saw a recipe for fish with tomatoes and feta today. Am going to fix it for dinner tomorrow!
bizi
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lamictal 2x a day haldol 2x a day cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night, fish oil coq10 multi vit,, vit c, at noon, tumeric, caffeine Remeron at night, zyprexa, requip2-4mg |
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#985
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Hey, Thought about checking in. I just got off work and had a very slow night which kind of helped. The slowness took my mind off the sadness. I'm home now having a Sierra Mist and watching Home Alone 2. My foot doctor wants me to go for Physical Therapy. I haven't made an appointment for that yet. I have lab work tomorrow for my psychiatrist. Then work. Other than that, I hope it aims to be a pretty nuetral day again.
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#986
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Sounds good, let me know how it goes, three of my favorite things.
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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#987
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slow day tomorrow. ONly 3 clients scheduled. I have been seeing 4-5 a day so 3 is really easy peasy.
It is mardi gras season here. Parades tomorrow night then a king cake party and mardi gras fat tuesday with parades all day. much frolicking. Even the mail stops delivery on tuesday. lol I am off too that will make this a short week. This week is light. then I travel to be with my family in florida on saturday for a week at pompano beach. My parents own a time share condo for the 9th week of the year. So I will join them. I actually am quite anxious about going to be away from jeff my hubby for a week. he is my center. I will eat and drink too much. bizi
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lamictal 2x a day haldol 2x a day cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night, fish oil coq10 multi vit,, vit c, at noon, tumeric, caffeine Remeron at night, zyprexa, requip2-4mg |
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#988
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Tomorrow is Monday
I hate my job I hate my boss I hate the company I work for I'm looking but there is just no work out there I hate it here
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#989
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Today was good...sucks working Sundays but I get Fridays and Saturdays off which is awesome. Too much flirting today lol too much sugar at night got good sleep last night we'll see what tomorrow brings
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Bipolar bear. Love STP and Guns N' Roses! Bipolar II, ADHD Meds Concerta, celexa, lithium. "So I'm letting it go again, I'm half way full on. Left my meds on the sink again, my head will be spinning by lunch time."-Bipolar Bear- Stone Temple Pilots |
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Oh, forgot to say that today was an excellent day.
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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#991
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Ok so I need to go to sleep. I am Wasting time bc I don't feel like getting ready for bed. Still Feeling dread about tomorrow being Monday- Idk why, I actually mostly like my job. But we have a meeting after work which sucks. And I am behind on all my chores and to do lists at home. Wish I had another day off to take care of stuff. Ugh. Ah well.
Gonna force myself to clean out the litter box before I go to bed at least. Good nite. |
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I've been staying up later and later. There's still this lingering, uncomfortable, anxious feeling inside of me, but at least I was able to just go about my day yesterday and today. I went shopping and bought some things, although I was mad that one piece of clothing I was so excited to buy ended up having spots on it that wouldn't come out (that I did not notice until I got home,) so I had no choice but to return it.
I'm glad that the winter has not been so harsh as other years. I visited a friend I've had since high school at night unexpectedly, so that was nice. The thoughts still race, and I wish this anxiety would go away, but it hasn't been as bad the past two days, compared to other days. I am nervous about going back to work 2 days from now though. I have therapy tomorrow. I can't put into words what I should talk about, but I usually go home with something to think about after each session. |
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#993
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Its 3 am now and I still wide awake. Last night sleep at 5 am woke up around 9 am. Always feel unsatissfied with the day
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#994
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Today I went to my first class at university for the year. With my physical health being bad right now I wondered if I would make it through the 3 hour class but I pulled up ok. Even managed to take most of it in. Just need to find the stamina to get through four months of this. Hopefully the flare-up of fatigue and pain will ease up soon.
Mentally I am a bit off. It is hard to explain but I am experiencing racing thoughts, bouts of rage for seemingly no reason, confusion, agitation and switching between very low mood with tears and SI to bursts of excitement. Abilify helps a lot with the symptoms thankfully. I have been taking it every day for the last three days. Hopefully that will calm things down before they get out of hand.
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#995
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Possible trigger:
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#996
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A little agitated today
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Current Meds Lamictal 200 mg x2 Seroquel 100 mg |
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Another sleepless night....just gotta get though the day without dosing off so I sleep tonight.
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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#998
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Struggling to concentrate, I'm at work and irritated with people talking or making any little noise at all. I just want to tell everyone to stfu....arggg I hate this feeling
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#999
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I am seeing a new doctor tomorrow (just a GP, not a P.doc), but it means going through the family history, my BP, etc. etc.... I just don't want to, but ....ah we've all been there
I guess I just need support. Sorry for rambling
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I see my doc next week, not looking forward to it either.
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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