[Nickiskip]

I'm being counter productive in group therapy. One minute I'm open and honest the next minute I'm holding back information. I don't know how to get past this. I want to trust these people but I don't. I don't trust anyone really well just one person and that's my male best friend. I fight through anxiety every morning just to stay in the room. It's the longest most agonizing part of my day and its only from 9-1. I want help I chose to get help, yet I have to remind myself of this every day I'm there. It's probably PTSD from when I was a teen. I don't know. 😔🤥 I feel so lost.

[gayleggg]

I don't know how to advise you but just want to encourage you to keep trying.

[shaggy dog]

I remember the first couple of times I went to a support group were spent sitting in my car afraid to even venture inside and the next couple were spent in silence too afraid to talk. The facilitators let me go at my own pace and I eventually opened up and found it a liberating experience. Before when I was too overwhelmed to share I was beating myself up and felt I was being weak for never opening up. Sorry about the ramble, I hope my experience helps. shaggy

I screwed up two opportunities i had in Day Hospital and lived to regret them. I'd like to encourage you to dig deep and take advantage of the opportunity to get some real, concrete help. I know it's hard. Just take it minute by minute if you have to. I really missed out when i blew my chances and i've really suffered because of them, learning things the hard way, by trial and error in the real word. In other words, by getting hurt over and over. It's a tough and slow way to learn. Make it easy on yourself by learning in a supportive environment. I often wonder how much fuller my life would be if only i had tolerated my two tries at Day Hospital, how much further ahead i'd be, if i would have had a child.