[Moose72]

Do you ever hate yourself? Do you ever argue with yourself? Maybe it's for doing hypomanic things that I then feel guilty for?

[Daonnachd]

I hate myself right now.

[scatterbrained04]

I hate myself most of the time.

I hated myself this morning because I've been super depressed, so I randomly started watching YouTube videos to distract myself.

Started off by listening to a song I liked -- a happy song, might i add -- and then I kept clicking the "related videos". After about 15 "related videos" later, I was somehow watching videos about a girl who had bacterial meningitis and lost all of her limbs at the age of 19. She was scarred from all the "burns" that the meningitis caused, too.

It made me feel like ****. Like, I was all depressed and **** and feeling sorry for myself. Then after watching her video, I was like, "wow, i'm a real piece of ****."

YouTube really does make me feel like **** sometimes. Makes me realize I'm a horrible person.

To be human is to hate ourselves sometimes. We tend to be very hard on ourselves and hold ourselves to higher standards than we hold others. Lucky are the ones who never do, and rare they are (as yoda would say)

[Unrigged64072835]

I hated myself a lot. Not as much anymore.

[boogiesmash]

I've hated myself for a while (5 years). I hate how I look, how awkward I sound, how slow I am, how fat I am etc. my t came out with a good point, how can anyone love me, if I can't show them that I love myself. I'm slowly exploring how to love myself and how I can improve.

[Atypical_Disaster]

I don't hate myself, but I hate the person that my mania turns me into.

[~Christina]

I have spent a lot of time over the years hating myself for a variety of reasons.

Although I hate the hate and loathing I sometimes feel it's just part of my unique Bipolar soup

Originally Posted by boogiesmash

I've hated myself for a while (5 years). I hate how I look, how awkward I sound, how slow I am, how fat I am etc. my t came out with a good point, how can anyone love me, if I can't show them that I love myself. I'm slowly exploring how to love myself and how I can improve.

Someone could easily love you, even if you don't love yourself. Being loved by others helps us love ourselves more often than not. Learning to love yourself is never a bad idea and is a good goal.

[shortandcute]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Do you ever hate yourself? Do you ever argue with yourself? Maybe it's for doing hypomanic things that I then feel guilty for?

all the time

[xRavenx]

Sometimes. I wish I valued myself more.

[Theresa1991]

I wouldn't say I hate myself, but I often feel ashamed about things I did, I get angry with myself and more than anything I become very frustrated.

I wonder why it is so hard for me to control myself and I feel that I became a person that I don't want to be: I don't treat myself well, I feel cold inside and very much out of control. I don't live up to my own expectations anymore.

I think a lot about it why I do this, if I could just easily be doing things well, but I guess the point is that in the end it is not so easy, otherwise I would probably manage.

Sometimes I feel so freaked out by all the stuff I did that I just want to skip town to never have to face all the people again, that I have embarrased myself in front of.

[Leia78]

I've hated myself for being bipolar, for feeling like I've been troublesome or a problem for other people to deal with because of it and at one time, I hated myself because I married my husband before we knew I had bipolar and I felt horribly guilty because my bipolar was awful after we got married. I'm convinced we fell in love and got married when I was manic. He had no idea what he was signing up for, but really, neither did I. I try to remind myself, I didnt know I had it either. We had some hard years during our first 10 years of marriage. I hate myself sometimes because my kids have seen me breakdown so badly that an ambulance was called to our house with the police cars and everything... and I hate myself because I tried to OD one time and my little girl curled up on the couch next to me and fell asleep with me while I was knocked out, dying. I've got trauma from my childhood that everyone easily says, It's not your fault - but I hate myself for it, I can't stand myself over it. So, loathing.... self hate...? Yep..got that one down to an expertise. I do try to forgive myself but it is so very hard.

[Miss Laura]

All the time!! I hate myself cause I know I can be kind to others just not to myself

i've sometimes blamed myself for the situation i'm in (which sort of makes no sense, I didn't ask for MI)

not sure i've ever hated myself.

Possible trigger:

even when i've attempted suicide, it's more out of desperation than anything else.

[hopeless2015]

Yes and today is one of those days.

[Sunflower123]

I don't know that I hate myself but I am incredibly critical of myself and my bipolar disorder and I always compare myself with the achiever I used to be before the illness hit.

I've always hated myself. It is something I would like to change in myself.

[gayleggg]

I hate myself every day. It's nothing new. And I can't seem to get myself to do anything to change the why.

[VerMOZZica]

I hate myself too.Sometimes I think I am just a loser that hasn`t done anything with my life.I think one of the reasons I used to self harm was because I thought I deserved it.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by VerMOZZica

I hate myself too.Sometimes I think I am just a loser that hasn`t done anything with my life.I think one of the reasons I used to self harm was because I thought I deserved it.

I did all my great things in my youth and nothing since.

[popuri88]

I live in a puddle of self-hatred.

[lilypup]

I hate myself most of the time. If I'm feeling "normal", I hate myself less, but it's still there.

If I knew for sure there was no hell, I'd just like to drift off into nothingness. Like when you are put to sleep under anesthesia. Just to make the pain leave.