Had to admit I needed help

So I made it 2 years PP with no meds, but I had to admit I needed help again. I feel defeated, but I am optimistic to feel better. Self care can only go so far if you need a help, I was scared, but I am glad to have it.

Glad you have asked for help and are optimistic!


WC

thats good that you sought out and find help when you needed it.
I hope things turn out well for you. Hang in there.

There's no shame in admitting you need help. I went six years med and treatment free until I had a breakdown and hurt myself in 2013. My late husband forced me to seek help. I felt like such a failure, but it had to be done. You'll be ok!

I also went like 15 years without meds and now that I look back there was some destruction in my path that I feel guilty about, I thought I could handle my moods on my own, but after Christmas I had a small breakdown and said HELP, I am so glad I did because now I feel better for it, glad you asked for help there is no shame in that! We all need a helping hand!

It's very brave and strong of you to admit that you need help and then to follow through and get it. I hope all goes well.

I am starting to get that paranoid feeling that people can tell I am struggling, like they know I am bipolar. Like they are judging me. I wonder myself if am I being rational or my reaction to what is going on around me ridiculous? So unnerving. Racing thoughts, can't concentrate, can't type fast enough.... ugh!

So...just curious if you don't mind. What does help look like? And what does "PP" mean?

I'm not sure why you feel defeated, two years is a long time to go symptom free, but I"m sorry that you're feeling that way. I hope it goes away soon. And to recognize you were getting manicky is huge! By the time I am typing like a fool, I'm already so far gone I can't even identify it in myself!

Good for you!

I hope you feel all the way better soon!

PP means postpartum, I had a baby 2 years ago. I wish I was symptom free this whole time. I have been managing my symptoms with the help of my NP since I decided to go off my meds about 3 years ago. I am currently experiencing a mixed episode, which is very disruptive at my job. So in this case my NP and I made the decision to resume medication since I am not coping well enough with mindfulness, and all that other stuff to be able to function at work and before I start fighting with my husband and all the things that snowball when I am in this state.

I am bipolar 2, so I get hypomanic, the huge red flag for me is hypersexualization, being anxious about money and when I start taking on hobbies. If if fail to realize the agitated dysphoria takes over and I just cycle between that and depression which is also agitated.

Eesh! You've got a lot on your plate. Baby, job, husband, bipolar. Whew. That's a lot. I get the hypersexual thing too. It takes a really long time to feel normal after pregnancy even if you're not bipolar, and especially if you're nursing because hormones can play such a big role in our moods. I hope things settle down for you soon.

Hugs

Asking for help when you need it is better than not asking for help when you need it, right? So good for you! It's good to see you again, btw -- not on account of the struggling part(!) -- but that you've reached out here as well.

What a great quote. Texans are so clever. I can see why people would listen to a Texan. Cause their mouths are full of marbles and you must strain to understand them.

I was thinking the nursing may have had a positive effect on me, now that she is mostly weaned my symptoms are back :/

Thanks, I guess with all the life changes I had to put this forum on the back burner. I have checked in a few times here and there though.

LOL true, Ron Paul is a pretty principled guy, I really like that!

Like what you want.....I suppose admitting you need help with solve everything. Might as well take a baby aspirin and listen to conservative radio until you become so fat, you explode

There is absolutely no way I could listen to conservatives. I am an anarchist, no rulers please.

Good for you for reaching out for help.

Being a parent and having a job take up so much time and effort, that we tend to lose ourselves along the way.