[Moose72]

I filled my pill boxes this afternoon. Finally! And, the eye doctor's office just called: My contacts are in! They said they are open until 6:30 tonight, but I said I'll get them in the morning as I just threw all my non-pajama pants in the washer. Now to see if my glasses would come in! I went on a ride with my friend to a car dealership. He's the one shopping for a slightly-used car at a dealership. Well, he's been to umpteen dealers and always a complaint- one thing or another. At this rate, I don't think he will find a car at all. AND, he drove and he changes lanes like a manic! (Not literally. ) He starts changing lanes when another car is still half in the lane! I don't think he even LOOKS. I KNOW he doesn't check his blind spot at all. I just kept picturing us moving into another car and horrifically loud noises of metal scraping against metal.

I'd like to go to bed now. I just might.(But I'll take my phone and check the boards of course!)

[xRavenx]

Originally Posted by Moose72

I'm sorry that happened to you. That must've been terrible. Maybe call your doctor and tell him about this interaction and see if there's something else you can take for pain?

Thank you. I tried calling my pdoc. I'm waiting for a call back. My other doctor who prescribed me the Dilaudid said I can try not taking the pain medication past a certain time, so that way, the sedation isn't so heavy. I am not sure if maybe I'm in that small percentage of patients who are super sensitive to it.

Luckily, today I only needed 1 pain pill (yesterday was 2).....I still don't know if I want to take the full 400 mg of Seroquel tonight. I do have some 200 mg pills, but I guess I should wait until my pdoc calls. I am thinking about calling the Pharmacist if I don't hear from her.

[vjdragonfly]

Originally Posted by scatterbrained04

Having a rough day. Couldn't concentrate at work at all. Tired of feeling like crying while not being able too. Tired of not being able to function. Tired of being completely alone. Tired of wanting to die. Just so tired. And scared.

(((scatterbrained)))
I'm sorry you are having such a tough time. I can relate to how you feel right now. It is so draining and it wears you down. Please be safe.

Originally Posted by LadyShadow

Been up and down the past few days. Feeling so lonely and not able to connect with anyone. Feeling horrible at the moment, with no one really to talk to. I am feeling a bit scared and not really knowing what to do with myself.

It's so weird, but I feel like I am high in a way. I am so confused.

It's rough riding that roller coaster. Loneliness definitely makes it worse. I hope you can find someone to connect with soon.

Originally Posted by xRavenx

I am on post-operative pain medication for now, although I am no longer needing it as frequently. However, I did have to take 2 pills of it yesterday (Dilaudid). Since I spaced out the Dilaudid and my Seroquel, I did not think I'd notice any significant interactions. Well, I was wrong. I was super scared, dizzy, felt my skin crawling, and thought I would die. I'm so relieved that nothing happened to me....it was so frightening.

That would scare the heck out of me too . I agree with Moose, I would call the doctor.

[vjdragonfly]

I feel better then yesterday. I was able to get out and get my running done which is a big accomplishment. My sister rode with me so that was a help. Trying to fill time right now so I don't think. My mind is my worst enemy right now and I do not want it to win and suck me into the darkness.

[lola0987]

Feeling a little better. Think meds are working. Still a little off but getting closer. Excited almost done with stressful job. Got a part time job today. So I have income. Ready for meds to be fully kicked in.

Food hygeine advisory: The floor under my computer has become so contaminated that the five-second rule has been temporarily upgraded to a two-second rule.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by xRavenx

I am on post-operative pain medication for now, although I am no longer needing it as frequently. However, I did have to take 2 pills of it yesterday (Dilaudid). Since I spaced out the Dilaudid and my Seroquel, I did not think I'd notice any significant interactions. Well, I was wrong. I was super scared, dizzy, felt my skin crawling, and thought I would die. I'm so relieved that nothing happened to me....it was so frightening.

Sounds very scary!
I am also glad nothing happened to you.
Please be careful.

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Quiet day.
Read/wrote on PC.
Relaxed.

WC

[Wander]

Sorry I am not posting on other peoples posts. I am reading and care about you all. Just not up to posting due to deep depression. Sending hugs to those who need them.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by scatterbrained04

No T, but talked with pdoc yesterday. Raising Trileptal due to being mixed a couple weeks ago. Refused some other meds because they all either need blood work, or are sedating, or make you fat. I see him again in less than 2 weeks. Pretty soon I will not be able to see him because I've burned through all my money. Did not plan on getting sick like this. It doesn't matter, I cannot think straight to make decisions. I just need to suck it up and quit being a baby. I am safe enough to be alone.

Thank you for getting back with me. I was concerned for you. I'm sorry you're having problems....if I could fix it for you I sure would. I know you can't think straight now but please consider that positive solutions pop up sometimes when we most need it. I'm pretty sure you wouldn't tell us to suck it up and quit being a baby. Please apply that to yourself as well. Best wishes...

[Sunflower123]

I made the decision to put someone on my users ignore list and I'm bothered. I try very hard to encourage and support people and I've come to care about the people on this forum. I was on another forum and I answered a post but the vibes for me were negative, rude and creepy. I proceeded.

He wanted support for his rationalization about being mean to his wife. I couldn't go along with that so I gently suggested a compromise. He was abrasive. I haven't felt this vibe on PC before. I feel bothered about the whole situation. Maybe I'm too much Suzy sunshine. Will be thinking about this tonight.

[bioChE]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I made the decision to put someone on my users ignore list and I'm bothered. I try very hard to encourage and support people and I've come to care about the people on this forum. I was on another forum and I answered a post but the vibes for me were negative, rude and creepy. I proceeded.

He wanted support for his rationalization about being mean to his wife. I couldn't go along with that so I gently suggested a compromise. He was abrasive. I haven't felt this vibe on PC before. I feel bothered about the whole situation. Maybe I'm too much Suzy sunshine. Will be thinking about this tonight.

Sorry you had a negative experience. Seems like men are in the minority on this forum, but not terribly so. I can assure you we're not all creepy. You did the right thing with the ignore list. If this doesn't feel like a safe space, then we can't expect total honesty.....which is where healing begins.

[MobiusPsyche]

I use a CPAP machine too...or I'm supposed to. I'm trying to get back into using it but I need Ambien to do that. The sleep doc won't prescribe Ambien unless I've been using the CPAP for a month and I can't use the CPAP for a month without Ambien so.... The beat goes on.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by MobiusPsyche

I use a CPAP machine too...or I'm supposed to. I'm trying to get back into using it but I need Ambien to do that. The sleep doc won't prescribe Ambien unless I've been using the CPAP for a month and I can't use the CPAP for a month without Ambien so.... The beat goes on.

Could you use it the first two or last two hours of the night so you can say you've been using it. My last sleep study I slept 0 minutes in REM sleep and stopped breathing 15 times an hour. The CPAP is important. Please take care of you.

I had an ok day. Was supposed to go driving but my friend forgot. We're going tomorrow. I took a nap and had a great dream with my mom in it. Woke up to this reality. I want my mom back. Not too much going on today.

I'm out of viibryd. Called psych nurse about it Monday, she wasn't in. Still not in. She has to approve refills. Hoping she'll be in tomorrow.

[Cocosurviving]

My day was kinda ok. I've been sleeping a lot. I saw my pdoc yesterday. That went well. He's raising my Zoloft to 50mg. He said I should not go to mania. I'm also on a mood stabilizer and a AP. He refilled all my scripts. Today I went to the pharmacy it took a little while.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Could you use it the first two or last two hours of the night so you can say you've been using it. My last sleep study I slept 0 minutes in REM sleep and stopped breathing 15 times an hour. The CPAP is important. Please take care of you.

I second this.

[rwwff]

Feeling well enough and getting a lot of regular work done, but I keep sleeping more. Particularly afternoon napping, which has been a bad sign in the past, but none of the other low mood signs are showing.

Wonder if I'm just getting comfortably stable on this set of meds and my brain's just enjoying not being so messed up. lol. Power of Positive Thinking!! 50 yr olds are allowed to nap I think.

[hopeless2015]

So far so good today. Didn't want to get up and get moving but that's not that unusual for me . Made it in to work just a couple of minutes late and another co-worker was later than me so I didn't feel so bad. Going to push through another day, at least the depression and agitation has mostly subsided, o hope to get a lot done today.

[LadyShadow]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I'm glad you've posted.
Sounds like you are having a tough time.
We are here for you.

What are you scared about?
Would you like to start a support thread?


WC

Hey WC, thanks so much for your concern. It has been a challenging few days, and I think it's because I cut so much negativity out of my life I was left feeling alone. I was scared about being alone forever mostly, since I am single with no husband and kids and I am nearing 40 years old. That scares me more than you know.

Today is a bit better though, I managed to get some good sleep and I finally don't feel tired this morning. I usually wake up feeling so drained that I crawl back in bed. I think today is a good day though. I see my pdoc and I am going to see what he says. Thanks again for thinking over me.

[Moose72]

My contacts are in! I picked them up. Woot. Now just waiting on the glasses to arrive.

Trying to get to the gym, but N3 is being slow getting to school today, but at least he's going. I already told school he wasn't coming because I got no response from him this morning, but now he's up and wanting to go. Go figure. I went to Starbucks and then the eye doctor, intending to go to the gym, but I called N3 and here we are.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by rwwff

Feeling well enough and getting a lot of regular work done, but I keep sleeping more. Particularly afternoon napping, which has been a bad sign in the past, but none of the other low mood signs are showing.

Wonder if I'm just getting comfortably stable on this set of meds and my brain's just enjoying not being so messed up. lol. Power of Positive Thinking!! 50 yr olds are allowed to nap I think.

I think they are too. I am only 45 but I love naps. Either that, or I go to bed insanely early. (Sometimes 7, sometimes 4! )

[Moose72]

Yay! My ex just texted me and said not to forget N3's confirmation tonight in Plymouth. I don't have a gps (it broke) and hate using the one in my phone. So I asked if he could take N3, expecting a "no" but he said "yes"! Woot! Little things like that make me so happy.

[cashart10]

Up and down. See the pdoc today. have a list to go over. incomplete sentences.

[fishin fool]

I woke up today and realized that I am still me.