[lilypup]

Crying a lot. So depressed. Glued to the couch. See tdoc and pdoc Friday. My birthday. I know you guys can't help but needed to reach out.

Don't think the hospital would help. Here you must be sui to get in. Fortunately I am not.

Tough times. Tired of struggling. Don't even know what is wrong.

(((Hugs))). I'm so sorry you are feeling so low.....I hope things improve and swing up for you soon. (((More hugs)))

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by lilypup

Crying a lot. So depressed. Glued to the couch. See tdoc and pdoc Friday. My birthday. I know you guys can't help but needed to reach out.

Don't think the hospital would help. Here you must be sui to get in. Fortunately I am not.

Tough times. Tired of struggling. Don't even know what is wrong.

I'm sorry you're having such a tough time. I understand how you feel. I often feel that way myself. I'm glad you've got a pdoc and tdoc lined up for Friday. We can offer support and caring until you make it to your appointments. Thinking of you.

[hopeless2015]

Sending hugs, I'm so sorry your struggling right now.

[lilypup]

Thanks so much Elsa and Jennifer.

[lilypup]

Thanks hopeless.

So sorry you're struggling. I've been there too. Hopefully upcoming appts can help. Big hugs!

[lilypup]

Thanks so much rose

[markmcc21]

Big hugs. So sorry you're so low.

[Wild Coyote]

Sounds very uncomfortable, Lilypup.
I hope the depression will let up quickly.

(((((( Lilypup ))))))

We are here for you.


WC

[lilypup]

Thanks Mark and Coyote. I really appreciate you.

I have stopped crying now. That is a big improvement.

[Leia78]

Sorry you've been having a hard time. How are you feeling now? Are things any better?

[lilypup]

Thanks for caring Leia.

I've figured out the morning nausea is from Gabapentin. The psych meds forum advised me not to discontinue it suddenly. So I am waiting till Friday when I see my pdoc.

I have stopped crying but I am terribly depressed. I have periods where I feel "okay", but I still don't want to get up. I am sort of swinging between "not good, but okay" and "really ****ty".

I decided my pdoc (who is pretty new) might not be aggressive enough to help me feel better. So I did some research and came up with the names of two new pdocs. Neither of them take insurance. I e-mailed one of them and she called me back. She is $375 for the intake and $150 after that for med checks. I asked her if she thought she could help me. She said sure, that Latuda and Seroquel were the best for bipolar. Well, I've had seroquel and it just doped me up. I took Latuda and it did nothing either way. So I am sort of doubting this woman is worth the money. (My current pdoc is free with my insurance.) I have not heard back from the other pdoc but I know he just takes cash also. We can afford the cash but I hate to waste the money.

I feel very hopeless. Friday will be one more depressed and lonely birthday. It never ends.

But a big thanks to all of you who have been so kind.

[Victoria'smom]

I hope you start feeling better soon.

[Unrigged64072835]

Hope you're able to find some relief soon. It sucks to feel low and not have proper help.

I'm thinking of you lilypup.

[Tkb1966]

I know that feeling and also that no one can really help. But I'm glad you're reaching out here, that helps. Hope you feel better soon.

[lilypup]

Thanks tkb and Elsa. I cancelled my tdoc appt for tomorrow. She has moved to a nice business office and there are a lot of people coming and going. There is no way I can sit in there and cry. Still don't feel sui, if I do will go IP. Thanks for all the concern.

[Leia78]

I'm sorry you're feeling so bad. I'm really sorry Latuda didn't help you as it has helped me and I was hoping to read the end of that sentence to say that you would be able to try it. I was on seroquel for awhile, too and it just made me feel over drugged and I wrecked two cars in one summer while taking it. I don't blame you for not wanting seroquel. I hope your pdoc can offer you some options. I know time seems to go by so slowly when you're feeling so low but keep fighting, keep posting here. I hope the depression lifts soon and that you find some enjoyment on your birthday.

[lilypup]

Thanks Leia,

God, I don't drive that courageously anyway...I'd hate to wreck a car! Thanks for filling me in on that.
I forgot to say thanks for the support from Miguel's Mom and Fhairrage.

I found out my husband has gotten me a cake and some flowers. That's good enough. I've had so many bad birthdays I can't even count. If it weren't for my kids and husband I would just crawl in a corner and wait for the end.