Is it just a me thing?

I hate attention and talking to people. But I get soooo jealous and absolutely hate when the focus isn't on me. (From my mom anyways)

Just yesterday my brother had to go to the ER and now everyone is babying him and paying attention to him.

Most of the time no one, besides my mom, cares about the problems I have and just ignore them.

I know I'm acting childish, but my mom is ignoring me and I just feel so alone and neglected.

I'm sorry you're feeling alone and neglected. You can always come here for support and attention. The focus on your brother will pass. Didn't he hurt himself? Feelings just are. You're not responsible for your feelings. You are responsible for how you respond to them.

I feel like I'm annoying everyone here with all my threads. He broke his ankle playing basketball. And I feel silly for feeling the way I do.

You have some very real needs which you feel have to wait. Your needs have to wait even longer now since your brother needed ER services and the budget is strapped.

I can understand you having some feelings of neglect. You wait a very long time to have your needs met, over and over again. You've shown incredible patience.

It would be nice if there was a rapid response to meeting your needs.

How do you deal with the feelings that come up for you?

I know you need medication. You likely have other needs, too.

Keep advocating for your needs to be met.


WC

I usually can wait yes. But I really feel I need the ER. My doctor is booked unless someone cancels. And it says to go to the ER for emergencies.

I might be able to get my mom to take me once my step dad isn't around. He's in charge of money.

It would be nice.

I usually deal with it by sleeping if I can to stop seeing/hearing things. If I'm manic I just try to stay focused and clean things over and over instead of going out.

I do need meds. And I really need to see my T.

I just wish I could drive!

You aren't annoying anyone with your threads!
I am glad you feel you can reach out and can share here.

I hope you do get to talk with your mom about going to the ER.
You do deserve a break from the hallucinations.

Please do let us know how you are doing!
Create as many threads here as you need!


WC

I only feel comfortable because I don't know anyone lol.

My brother has to go to the doctor on Monday, so I'll have to wait until Wednesday to ask. Trying to space out the bills at least a little. I might just saw screw it and go Tuesday. I can't take it.

I don't know how to ask my mom though.
And thanks.

You need to go to the ER. If your mom won't take you, call 911 and go by ambulance. You can deal with the money issues later.

Persistent hallucinations need emergency medical care, if you can't get in touch with your psychiatrist. My guess is if you're not a danger to yourself or others, and you tell them you need Seroquel, they'll give you a script to last until your psychiatrist appointment and send you home. When the hospital wants payment, it can be dealt with. They often have ways to do payment plans, or in the case where you really can't pay they may write it off and not force you to pay.

Go to the hospital. You need it, regardless what your parents may say. You're old enough to make this decision. It's your responsibility.

I've always felt that way with my brother. He got more attention because he had a physical problem. Mine was in my head and it was, suck it up. The thing is though his ankle will heal up and eventually he'll be healthy again. You have a chronic illness that may go into remission with proper medication--or not.

Just letting you know that the feeling is not unusual.

All these months of waiting are doing nothing but harming yourself over and over.

If your mom/ brother/ friend/someone here on PC ..... what advice would you offer ?

Are you subconsciously making up reasons / roadblocks to keep you from getting help ? Just asking.

You're absolutely right. Besides the actual reasons I can't get places I do make up excuses. Mainly because I'm scared.

Do you have any friends that can take you?

I got my mom to take me later today.

That's awesome! Congratulations and good luck.

Congrats and good luck I am sure everything will work out just fine. Keep us updated.