Going crazy after break up HELP

she finally had enough and left after 8 years, I couldn't take being in the same town so i packed up quit my job towed my camp trailer 4 hrs away and now i'm freaking out.. I left my 7 yr old daughter just cause i had to get away, I'm to my new home ( in my trailer) parked at my new bosses house and i cant stand not being in love and having someone here.. how can i be OK being alone, I wake up every morning ready to commit suicide but i don't have it in me.. I would love to just be DEAD.... I have a Dr appointment Thursday but that's so far away!! I cannot stand sitting here being alone, even going to work doesn't help as i'm on the phone with her 24/7 begging like a baby.. I know she is done 100% i can't take back all i have done,, My only sanity is knowing i can just kill myself if it gets worse!!! HELP!!! ho can i be ok

Hello Richard: I'm sorry you find yourself to be in this most difficult situation. And, unfortunately I don't know as there is much of anything I can suggest here. You wrote that you're seeing a doctor on Thursday. This is probably a good first step at least. Beyond that it may be worthwhile for you to find a counselor or mental health therapist you can work through all of this with.

Sadly, to my knowledge, there's no way to simply be okay with being alone. The shock of suddenly being completely alone in a new town, living in your trailer, parked at your new boss's house, & being away from your daughter is going to take time to get used to. There's simply no way around it that I know of. The simple passage of time, & getting your life back in order, should help. But that is going to take time. It may be worthwhile to consider getting on some sort of antidepressant & / or anti-anxiety medication for a while until you can begin to get your circumstances put aright.

Continuing to post, here on PC, & perhaps participate in some of the regularly scheduled chats (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved) may help too. There can be a lot of support available here. I know it's not the same as having loved ones there with you. But it may help to bridge the gap anyway. I wish you well...

I am going through something very similar. Thinking of you mate.

I'm sorry you're having such a tough time. Take it moment to moment and remind yourself of the things you still have to be grateful for. Are you seeing a therapist that can help you process this and support you? I hope you start feeling better and I'm here if you need to talk.

You're going through a lot of changes that are traumatic and are going to take a lot of time to process. There must be so much racing through your mind, but for the time being, try to go easy on yourself and take things one step at a time. Seek help sooner rather than later by calling 911, if you are feeling like hurting yourself. It is better to be safe than sorry. Things can definitely get better- it's just a process. Please remember that, and take care. I hope you get the help you need. I know everyone feels different about this, but I believe a therapist is especially important during periods of crisis like this. You need all the support you could get right now. These changes are a lot to work through, but little by little, you'll find yourself coping better. Irrational and self-destructive thoughts are common during times where someone is most vulnerable. Please hang in there and take care of yourself.