Another 4th

Yet another fourth, alone and still single, broke, still in bed and not making any strides. Sigh. Why go on.

(((((((((((((Boogie)))))))))))))

((((HUGS))))))
bizi

For me personally I choose not to recognize the 4th I feel it is one big fat lie. So do something nice for yourself. Don't fall prey to staying in bed. Then I would strongly suggest you find some sort of purpose i.e. go back to school, check out your local community center, or perhaps get a bicycle to ride around your neighborhood. I know it's difficult being an adult sucks. I would recommend earplugs tonight in case the noise gets on your nerves. Remember do something nice for yourself you can do it.

I feel the depression trying to break through. I'm so frustrated of being almost st the same place. Almost no improvements. I never asked for all these disappointments, failures, loneliness. I wanted great things. Now that just a broken dream.

I want to change but I have no motivation or will to do it.

Sorry to hear that you are struggling Boogie.

Unfortunately with motivation it often doesn't show up until after taking action. Depression makes it harder to start even small tasks, but if you push yourself to even just start something, motivation may take hold and give you momentum to continue. I know that's how it is for me with exercise sometimes. Even 2 minutes of doing something positive is better than nothing. Can you set small, reachable goals for yourself? Would writing them on paper help?

Uh now anxiety is ripping me apart again. Sorry for the rant. I'm so fn over this disease, depression frustration.

Hugs boogie!!

You have very good advise from scaredandconfused. A little is better than nothing. Good luck!!!.

Not true, you took the step to ask me to hang out! I bet that was hard! We are gonna get together and have coffee and exercise and it's gonna be great! You're not alone, even though it feels like it.

Nothing like a little LED Zepplin, AC/DC and Beastie Boys to lift the mood.

There have been times in my life when music literally kept me going.

Boogie-
I can relate. I'm sitting here watching the Macy's fireworks on tv alone with my cat.
Watching everyone else in the country having more fun than I and having a s/o to spend the holiday with. But while I may be lonely it's better being solo than it was being in an unhealthy relationship with my ex.
Anyway here's hoping next 4th we will both be in a better place.
I suppose I could have called up friends and tried to make plans to do something today, but nobody thought to invite me out and I wasn't feeling motivated enough to try. Ah well.

Hang in there.

To better fourth in 2018

Eh. Feeling down again.

Did the video help at all? I only watched a minute or so of it.

Sorry you're having a rough time, Boogie.

Sorry you had such a rough 4th. I was stuck inside too, and didn't get to see any fireworks like I wanted. Funny, I should have been depressed but I was riding the high of mania. But the crash came today and it wasn't pretty.

Here's to the 4th 2018!

To 2018. I'm so frustrated at being alone especially for holidays. Not even one BBQ or invite to city.