[franz kafka]

I keep having thoughts about self-harm and ODing. I feel depressed, tired, unmotivated, and slow. I hate the summer. I always have issues with depression during the summer. Anyone relate?

[Ocean Swimmer]

I'm apt to get the blues any time of year.
Do you like water?
Swimming and waterskiing and boating are my best healers.
I've been ruminating about suicide idealization too. New med vraylar not helping yet.

[MatBell]

YES! Really don't like the summer, people being out and happy (though it sounds awful me saying that). I do like laying in the sun, getting warmed up. But summer makes me feel more alone.

[Ocean Swimmer]

I like warm weather.
Sometimes the pressure of trying to feel great during winter like Thanksgiving and Christmas is more stressful.
It would be interesting to get it mapped out. To see if mental patients " crack up " more in winter than summer.

[MatBell]

Originally Posted by Ocean Swimmer

It would be interesting to get it mapped out. To see if mental patients " crack up " more in winter than summer.

I know that suicide rates increase in Spring each year. It might have to do with expectations of a new year and opportunities, and you still feel stuck. Things are blossoming, people seem happy, but you still aren't.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by franz kafka

I keep having thoughts about self-harm and ODing. I feel depressed, tired, unmotivated, and slow. I hate the summer. I always have issues with depression during the summer. Anyone relate?

I'm sorry you're having such a tough time. I don't like the summer because of the heat but my main depression comes in late fall-early spring. My pdoc mentioned to me that this is when the majority of his patients with bipolar disorder get sick.

I hope you start feeling better soon.

Originally Posted by franz kafka

I keep having thoughts about self-harm and ODing. I feel depressed, tired, unmotivated, and slow. I hate the summer. I always have issues with depression during the summer. Anyone relate?

I hate the summer so much.

worst time of year for me and my mental health

[Icare dixit]

Yes. Depression is worse during the summer, at least if you stay inside, which doesn't necessarily mean summer is worse. It's either better or worse.

Maybe you should force yourself to go outside more.

[Wild Coyote]

I hope you can feel better soon!
You have a lot on your plate.


WC

[Leia78]

My worst depressions come in April, June-July and November. So, I empathize. I do feel fortunate these past few summers, however, because my current med combo has kept me stable and from cycling. I hope you feel better soon

[~Christina]

The really hot days piss me off to be honest, They can and have knocked me sideways.. My Pdoc calls me the "odd duck" since my episodes happen almost always when people are feeling good, lol

[Unrigged64072835]

I can't stay in the sun due to overheating (meds and weight), so I'm usually stuck in the house with AC. It's worse than winter because there's more light and my sleep schedule gets out of whack as well. Plus my husband and I are in school and he has more homework than I do, so he's usually busy with that. I hope I can up early enough to take photos at the parks. That would be good.

I usually end up in IP May, July, and November-December. I hope to stay out this time because of school.

[Blaire]

Yes, summer is the worst for me. I have a really hard time with changes in light through the day and am much more stable when there is cloud cover or when I can stay inside away from windows.

[Icare dixit]

just another day of sun."

[boogiesmash]

Sometimes I hate summer cause I'd like to be outside but am too self conscious of my weight

[scatterbrained04]

In general, I do very well in the late spring and summer or even go a little hypo. This year though, I have have been very depressed with periods of mixed.

[HopeEqualsTrust]

I do not like any specific time of the year. I really like early mornings around 6:30 when the sun hasn't been up long but the birds are out and my dogs and pb pigs need feeding. Sometimes we get visits from the horses. Those things make me happy. People do not. I hate the way I am. I love my husband with all my heart - but I would rather be in bed. I didn't even get out of bed this mornings but to come to the big screen tv/computer.

I enjoy scripture writing. I've written out almost the whole book of John. I do not know why this is soothing because I do not usually intake anything I write - but it helps. I enjoy sewing but usually won't stay on task. I enjoy listening to books - but usually fall asleep doing that. I have my blogs and such but doesn't keep my attention.

I think all year is too hard on me. The expectations of keeping up with family - Ugh. Now my kids are grown and they want to come visit - I just stay in bed and then next day feel guilty - like today.

Schizo-effective/Bipolar II, Major Anxiety Disorder, PTSD, and Others
Too many meds to list. I take some in morning when I wake up and others at 3:30 because it takes till about 5pm to make my mind shut up so I can sleep.

[Smileonmyface]

I have trouble during the summer too. I think my meds have me more under control this summer compared to last summer when it was really bad. i'm either embracing it with shorts and swimming or loathing it in the air conditioning with long pants on. i can't seem to find a happy medium.

[Fuzzybear]

Summer grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

It hasn't been so bad this year; but this is quite abnormal for me.

June and the onset of summer have always been the most difficult time of year. As a matter of fact, since 2012 I have been admitted to the hospital three times - all for the period June and July.

In my own case it is the onset of summer and the coinciding activities that trigger the Depression. In my former life I was quite the outdoor adventurer. That all came to a halt when I first got sick. Seeing kayaks on roof racks and people on the river triggered some pretty heavy grieving for the life I had lost. I had a very hard time accepting I would never live that lifestyle again and such visual representations of out-door pursuits were massive triggers.

This year is different. I think partly because I have worked through the grieving to a state of acceptance that my life just will never be that way again. The other thing beneficial to an improved state of mind is that I have made new routines.

[Ripose]

Originally Posted by Blaire

Yes, summer is the worst for me. I have a really hard time with changes in light through the day and am much more stable when there is cloud cover or when I can stay inside away from windows.

Exactly how I feel.

[raspberrytorte]

I can relate. I've had some really bad stand out depressions in the summer.

I can't stand overly hot weather. I don't wear shorts because I'm self conscious. I love swimming, but I'm too self conscious to wear a swimming suit (it's like walking around outside in nothing but your underwear! Seriously! I'm not walking around like that).

Anyway, sorry for those random bits of information. lol.

I hope you feel better soon. Big hugs.

[xRavenx]

Summer is a strange period of time for me. I used to get hypomanic around summer...or euphoric manic. I cycle a lot in the summers these days, and usually do hit a low now. When I do hit that low, it's a really bad low. I've been heading towards depression, at present.

I am sorry you are struggling so much.

Sorry to hear you're still struggling, and hope you get to feeling more stable quickly.
Summer usually brings mania or mixed episodes for me, but springtime makes me depressed. At least I know now when it happens it wont last forever.

[liveforsummer]

I guess it's pretty evident summer is my favourite time of year. For me it's the end of the long cold dark gloomy winter. I dread winter. I hate being cold. I just want to lay on the hot sand to warm up my poor reptilian bones.