I'm not normal

You fit in here. I find you delightful.

Every time I tried to fit in, I was immediately reminded that I didn't and wouldn't. I therefore quit trying. I have over time found a very few places. I'm usually in a big group of one. I'm not sure group in hospital is a good example, but I'm safe there and don't feel forced but accepted. I recently found out about some groups on the outside, but they are during yoga classes and I cannot allow those to be missed. Yoga is where I got into the Universe, and I find it most important of anywhere. I have been told I'm probably on the spectrum, and it explains things but doesn't take away the desires to be wanted and accepted

I agree that normal is arbitrary. Ok, so we have traits that most people don't have. Big deal. From a normative perspective, I am abnormal. I'm an alcoholic. I have bipolar. I'm a choir director. Have you ever met a choir director who was normal? But it's not how I choose to define myself. I define myself by my capacity to love, by my talents, by my principles, by my creativity. The cool thing about it is that you get to do it for yourself. No one gets to define you but you. The worst a person can do is limit their perception of who you are, and it still doesn't change who you really are.

*tease* *poke*
Choir directors are usually at least a little bit freaky, based on the handful I've known and more that I know of. Nope, you're not normal.
*Tease* *poke*

I don't want to hear about my problems either....

Neither do the doctors ... I think maybe I'm the only bear in this location .

vent away all that you like.
we are here to listen and give support.
That is what is different about this site....people do listen and give support.
((((((HUGS)))))))
bizi

I feel I belong when I come to this forum. That's as close to "normal" as I have ever felt. I always feel like I dont belong. I have felt that way my entire life. The only place I ever felt I belonged with other people(until pc) was in the psych ward(not that I want to go back!) and even there a sweet well meaning person told me "you dont belong here". I dont understand normal but I do understand belonging and I think they are very similar. I hope you are doing well fuzzybear but if not let us know so we can all give you hugs! Btw I like your name, I find it comforting for some reason, sorry that was way off topic.

Oh my gosh, it is such a relief to find this forum! I love it here. I do feel so much better now. Normal—ah, oh well. Let’s just try to cope together

Hugging Fuzzy