[SorryShaped]

I am leaving out tomorrow. That's a given. That's also not why we're all reading this.
I am going to stay at a safe place for a day, and then go elsewhere, possibly to a girl's place, a girl that I really like, who is also bipolar and usually manic, but has really hurt me by leading me on in the not too distant past. I feel like the only way to get over her is to hang out with her, without expectations of any sort, and let her personality drive me away on its own. People tend to do that to me.
There is also another woman, that I want to go meet in person, because she needs a hug. I don't want anything from her except a hug back. The part I'm not sure about is that I could get stuck there, as in stranded. I know I have enough gas to get there, but I don't think it's enough to get back and my manic self spent all my spare money already, but I could overdraft my bank account.
Advice appreciated. Be nice, but honest here please

[leejosepho]

Some of my own actions in the past were definitely manic, and my therapist used to zero-in a bit more by talking about my "impulsive-obsessive, self-destructive behaviour" (his term). I do understand the logic behind what you are pondering, but I question the high cost for no true reward in return.

[SorryShaped]

Originally Posted by leejosepho

Some of my own actions in the past were definitely manic, and my therapist used to zero-in a bit more by talking about my "impulsive-obsessive, self-destructive behaviour" (his term). I do understand the logic behind what you are pondering, but I question the high cost for no true reward in return.

I have not had an honest hug by someone other than a relative but six times in a year. Honest hugs are very valuable to me, and a rare thing. I think they're worth going to the ends of the Earth for.

Erasing-I replied to the wrong thread

[SorryShaped]

The very far away lady needs help too. She needs someone with a car to help her see her kids for the first time in nearly 10 years. That kind of love is priceless

[Shazerac]

I know hugs are very important. I don't really know if you are manic. But are you really sure you want to go on a one way trip, with no gas to get back, to a woman who hurt you in the past? And end up stranded there. All this for a hug?

I don't know if this is manic, but it does sound a bit illogical/Self destructive.

[SorryShaped]

I need to clarify. The one way trip is to someone that I've never met, and didn't hurt me, but needs to see her kids and file papers to get them back or visitation at least. I'm not certain it's one way, because I might find work there. I can do construction work for a day or two and have enough gas money. I'll get money anyway but not until month. I'm not after anything there, just trying to help someone that desperately needs help and is surrounded by no help. The hugs would be my rewards. I'm after nothing more.
The other isn't a one way. She's the one that led me on before. She doesn't live very far away. My trust issues in myself are really screaming don't! My trust for her is nil, but I do want her as a friend. I think I need to see her to get it out of my system, to reassure that she's not for me.
Ain't this life thing all complex? At least my circuits need some debugging.

[Shazerac]

Yea, life is pretty complex. To bad we don't come with an instruction manual.

[SorryShaped]

Originally Posted by Shazerac

Yea, life is pretty complex. To bad we don't come with an instruction manual.

I don't know that I've ever entirely read one anyway. Once I get past the idiot clauses, those that shouldn't be there for effective Darwinism, I'm sufficiently bored and just move along and figure it out myself.